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Too Much

by teardownthewall 8/13/2014

written by teardownthewall

I want to die but I can’t. I still have people that need me to make money, too many people that need me to live. I’m not selfish enough to leave them with nothing. I don’t want them to suffer and die with me. I just want to die alone. So I have to live for them but it’s only the hollow shell of a life I’ve never really lived.

I’m still very young. I know this. At the age of 21 I should not be this hateful, this cynical, this forlorn, this lonely. But I am. I suppose I’ve always been unhappy. I’ve always been […]

8/13/2014 8 comments

The last throw of the dice…

by k2fraser 8/13/2014

written by k2fraser

Since my plans have been put into motion, I thought I would make one last attempt for help and saw my doctor today. Proscribed me 150mg of Wellbutrin to go along with my 200mg of Zoloft. Maybe the new drug will have an effect. Maybe I’ll quit smoking before I blow my brains out. Who knows! Better read up on this drug and see what i’m getting into.

8/13/2014 1 comment

The answer to all life’s problems…

by Flintstone 8/13/2014

written by Flintstone

There is, what I believe to be a misguided therapeutic view of suicide by medical people, social workers, government types all chattering about the different aspects of this troubling and discordant reality, but they have accomplished almost nothing since the advent of modern medical and academic study, and may have even exacerbated the issue.

Scrupulously fact checked books, articles, medical, philosophical, academic discourses on suicide almost universally call for a psychiatric or therapeutic “cure” to stop suicides from occurring, and despite titles like “Reasons for Suicide” and topic headings to that affect, they really never address the real reasons for suicide and they refuse to lend any shred of credibility to the endless hours of […]

8/13/2014 6 comments

I’m sorry. I don’t know.

by cheeseball 8/13/2014

written by cheeseball

I always have this urge, to hurt myself 1 way or another. But it’s always in my mind.

Before I sleep, I’ll imagine falling off the stairs, or even getting some mildly serious disease, enough to the hospital. On worse days, this’ll morph into funeral services for my own, or just methods in which I die and there are people around me.

Is it meant to be this way? This is my way of dealing with life? It feels so wrong, yet it sparks a feeling of warmth, love, peace and a sense of fitting in.

It it might seem superficial, but it’s my own way, right? It’s […]

8/13/2014 2 comments

in the end

by just this girl 8/13/2014

written by just this girl

I have had it with everything.
for all im concerned I have had a pretty good upbringing.
although my mother liked to drink a lot and party and take drugs, she looked after me and my siblings well, that’s what I thought.
everyone els wanted to take me and my brothers and sisters away from her. they got there wish.
and she just started picking herself up and I was going to live with her again.. the only person I trusted, loved, felt safe around… she died a year ago..
since then I have been picked on and bullied.. I have tried suicide a fue […]

8/13/2014 0 comment

im sick

by DeadGirlNotFound 8/13/2014

written by DeadGirlNotFound

Sick of this life and people. Sooo sick. Im hated. Im bullied. Im tired. Now. Im tired. No im not sad I want the end sooner now

8/13/2014 0 comment

by Adderallslits 8/13/2014

written by Adderallslits

Hey everyone, I don’t know if anyone here knows who Frank Iero is but I absolutly adore him. Last year he made a demo of a song called ‘joyriding’. The song, and the lyrics, is so breathtaking beautiful, relateble and feels so true. Let’s just say I cried and listen to it on repeat when It came out. And now, he has released it as a real single for his upcoming album! Thought Id share it.

Lyrics:

i’m not sure what they said, but if it’s true i’ll bet it’s just one more thing i’ll regret. i hate my weaknesses, they made me who i am. “yea, […]

8/13/2014 0 comment

Abandoning ship in less than 3 weeks. Thoughts?

by All But Over Now 8/13/2014

written by All But Over Now

Hello everyone! Long time lurker, first time poster here. Just recently I finally came to terms with making that final decision. The blue prints and ground work has been laid out and completed, and it’s just a waiting game now. In the next couple weeks however I would love to hear from some of you here. It can be about yourself, me, anything. What was going through your mind when you finally came to terms with that decision?

8/13/2014 26 comments

Who’s the selfish one?

by Asura 8/13/2014

written by Asura

People always like to think they know how I feel, or how people like me feel, when they’re all just so far from the truth. All these feelings of worthlessness self hate, and loneliness have taken they’re toll, and reduced me to a shadow of whatever it is I was – I don’t even remember what happiness felt like, it’s just numbness where it should be.

Why do parents have to be so stuck in their ways? I promised myself I’d never make the same mistakes if I ever have kids. Never ever lay a hand on them, let alone a fist. If there’s one thing […]

8/13/2014 0 comment

My brother was a member of this forum.

by affected 8/13/2014

written by affected

Dear all,

Some of you may have communicated with my brother here. His username was “Noom”. On April the 19th 2013 he drove to a secluded place and carried out his suicide via helium.

I love my brother and accepted his decision, but I’m here to give you an insight into the lives of those who have lost someone special who they love unconditionally to the tragedy you all so casually discuss.

I was married for four years – my wife couldn’t handle it and left a month after my brother died. I have spent months on end contemplating suicide and trying to cope with anti-depressants while doing my […]

8/13/2014 8 comments

by why i dont no 8/13/2014

written by why i dont no

some times i think that theres some one there looking over me or something like just behind me juging me and crying for me can i feel it or am i just crazey

8/13/2014 0 comment

My first post the Suicide Project

by pinkcoconut 8/13/2014

written by pinkcoconut

I’m depressed, anxious and suicidal. Over the last few months, a chain of bad things happened to me. Deaths of grandparents, family tensions, stressful work then redundancy, relationship trust issues, fallings out with friends, the list goes on. Seeking employment, supporting family and trying to forgive a cheating partner became too much for me, and rather than kill myself, I immediately moved out of the family home. Two days later my boyfriend broke up with me in a very cruel way. I’ve been staying in friends’ rooms while they’re on holiday – thank god it’s the summer.

I’m still suicidal. Moving out of home was […]

8/13/2014 7 comments

Question???

by vedura 8/13/2014

written by vedura

It is said that one of the signs of depression is lack of interest in outside activities. But what if this world has such inane values that those activities simply hold no interest for us? Sports, for instance. Making lots of money. Marrying well. etc. An introspective person has little use for the frills and spills of a stupid world. We might enjoy yoga or sunsets or the ocean, something real, like a kitten or a puppy. But we don’t care who wins the blasted basketball game!

8/13/2014 6 comments

I am afraid

by wolfblade 8/13/2014

written by wolfblade

I’m losing my mind here. Recently, I have been expelled from the best school in Canada, all because of my ex girlfriend’s friend’s lies. We were walking out of my school, I was talking with my ex. Suddenly, my ex’s friend, let’s call her Sue, turns around, puts a pearl ring on, and threatens to punch me in the face with it. To scare her off, I showed her (nonthreateningly) my knife, closed, showing her the Shakespeare engraving on the handle. So my ex hauls her away, and the next day, I am suspended, and later expelled, because Sue fed the Assistant Principal some big […]

8/13/2014 2 comments

Sickness – I Need Help – To Go Fall – I Was Born

by Bisban 8/13/2014

written by Bisban

Severely ill-stricken and debilitated

The child of the five hang-man arcana

I am Leech, child of the Morlocks

The story of the messiah complex

The blood of the abyssal

Eaten alive, of the fated child

Fullmetal Alchemy, to the rescue

Final Fantasy, X

Alphonse – It hurts brother, I can’t breathe… Save me, brother

Capcom, Morrigan

The caged, beast of hell

The opposite, of your reality

Take me, oh, take me

“Cable,” came for me

“Weapon X,” all wore black, for me

I am, the green man

Hey, how about that. It’s Leech.

8/13/2014 1 comment

It’s normal, despite what society, culture and religion says

by CMxide 8/13/2014

written by CMxide

There’s nothing wrong with wanting to die and following through, so long as it is done with reason and not under high distress. I’ve researched it, even other species of animals have been observed to starve themselves to death or put themselves fatally in danger over what appears to be trivial reasons such as losing an offspring or close member of their species. Terminal illness is also a legitimate reason. The times that I don’t think it is normal is when a young person, typically a teenager or 20’s something, contemplates suicide as a solution for a temporary problem. For example, a person who thinks […]

8/13/2014 1 comment

jake

by madmare 8/13/2014

written by madmare

You are right foster care sucks and I was told that by a social worker when I considered giving up my son a couple years ago before an attempt at suicide. I just want you to be safe first and foremost. Many people grow up in extreme poverty and in homes that are very abusive. Those that survive are said to be resilient. We need to make you resilient, strong and hopefully happy. You can be and I know it. This may or may not work for you but when I get ultra depressed I watch documentaries about others lives especially those that suffered greatly […]

8/13/2014 1 comment

breakdowns

by Mary Love 8/13/2014

written by Mary Love

My foster mom is so fucking hateful. I begin to take charge of my life, and she flips shit. I’m seventeen. I applied to take a nursing class at tcc so I can have a decent job in college and she freaked out and reminded me about how none of my family cares about me. About how i’m so alone in the world. I cried and cried….One more year.She got mad because “ever since I got back from my grandparents, I’ve acted like an adult”, which is her excuse to tear me down and rip me apart. I’m not gonna let her get to me. […]

8/13/2014 6 comments

Affect/Effect; Robin Williams

by AarinaDaae 8/13/2014

written by AarinaDaae

I’m sure that most of the world has heard that Robin Williams has passed away by asphyxiation. He died by suicide. Most of us on here are no stranger to depression and suicidal thoughts/tendencies. I’d be willing to guess that everyone here would be understanding but a curious thing happened with Robin’s passing. There has been so much attention on his passing and this “new” mysterious illness that magically gained relevance. Of course, it’s not new and it’s been real for so very long.

I have no right to go on and on about how much I will miss Mr. Williams and how he will forever […]

8/13/2014 4 comments

I’d love to die, but I’m too cowardly to go through it.

by mortimerrush 8/13/2014

written by mortimerrush

First a few notices.

I know I must be the millionth person to blabber about how I’m too much of a coward to kill myself (though you might say suicide is not courageous) and I apologize for annoying you. You don’t need to read if your busy.

Now an introduction.

I hate my real name so just call me Mortimer (changing it to that someday if I can) I’m 19 years old from that small country Qatar that’s to the left of the UAE, might have heard of it. I don’t look like the people here, I don’t act or think like the people here, my interests and […]

8/13/2014 4 comments

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