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3 years later

by Marissa Kresge 4/17/2014

written by Marissa Kresge

It’s been 3 years since i last made a post on here about my depression. Let’s just say I’m the happiest I’ve really ever been. I coped with my depression by exercising and being healthy, doing so I lost 20 pounds in the process which I am happy about. When year 10 of school started I decided I would try something risky and I did. I tried out for the foreign exchange program to go overseas. With the risky decision I succeeded and am now going to Germany in July. And this is all because I found a way to cope with my depression and […]

4/17/2014 2 comments

Alcohol…

by samishii 4/17/2014

written by samishii

After the best summer of my whole life I find myself back here for the first time in a couple of years. Kind of the only place I know to turn to when I really really really need people that understand to lend an ear…

Depressed lately… I just can’t be proud of myself anymore. I used to do really well at uni and now I’m in my final year I feel all the passion and spark I had for my major and my future has been snuffed out by the brutal machine they call the system. It just gets me down… I can study and […]

4/17/2014 2 comments

Really

by quaero 4/17/2014

written by quaero

“Nothing burns one up faster thanÂ the affects of ressentiment”

– Friedrich Nietzsche

4/17/2014 0 comment

Stranded

by jjistheword 4/17/2014

written by jjistheword

My feelings crash in my mind,

just as the tide rolls in and out.

I’m calling for help,

yet nobody seems to hear.

I feel like an ocean,

searching for new places to spread.

Yet, I cannot spread until I am found.

Just like the ocean,

I’m lost & stranded.

4/17/2014 0 comment

No hope left

by theresal58 4/17/2014

written by theresal58

I am a 58 yr old woman with chronic late stage lymes disease. Â I am in pain, sick, hopeless, just can’t fight anymore. Â I’ve had this disease for 40 yrs. Â I want desperately to die. Can you still get nambutal in Mexico ?

4/17/2014 3 comments

job or suicide

by killmenow1234 4/17/2014

written by killmenow1234

To whom it may concern,

I wish i was a better story teller to describe why i am where i am today. But all i can really think of to share is the present moment. I am a 28 year old male with a fantastic dog great girlfriend low rent and seemily great life. The problem is no job… without a job means i will be forced to give away my dog lose my girlfriend home and great life style. Happiness has a price. I am finally realizing that it cost money to breathe and live in this world. Without a job to gain money i […]

4/17/2014 5 comments

suicide

by depressed_chick101 4/17/2014

written by depressed_chick101

so many people think it is funny to make someone kill theirselves but it aint

4/17/2014 7 comments

Some Days

by KnightMonster 4/17/2014

written by KnightMonster

Having a new kid in the house has been hard. Already had a 2 year old and now a 16 month old…. Its enough to make you feel like you are losing it. Went from working 50+ hours a week to now a strict 36 hours. Working on interviews for a 2nd job. Have been off my medication for 2 weeks now, not because I was trying to quit them but because I’ve simply been too busy and lazy to deal with refilling them. Not sure it was a great idea to avoid getting them refilled but hopefully it doesn’t set me back too far. […]

4/17/2014 2 comments

Awaiting moderation?

by tbd 4/17/2014

written by tbd

I’m just curious why my comments are labeled “awaiting moderation”.

I don’t think I’ve been particularly hostile.

i put a lot of time and thought into some posts, and if they’re never going to be read (because they’re sidelined in the waiting queue), i won’t reply.

4/17/2014 4 comments

Products of societal corruption.

by itwillhappen 4/17/2014

written by itwillhappen

I cannot stand to be a part of this.
Funny how the idea of attaining a single, semi-lasting lover-Â of true feeling- would immediately curb the romantic fantasy that I’ve of death.
I plan to hang from a tree in late May.

4/17/2014 2 comments

As the last petal falls, the earth is touched.

by itwillhappen 4/17/2014

written by itwillhappen

Something like suicide.

4/17/2014 2 comments

No More Hope Left

by escapismfiend 4/17/2014

written by escapismfiend

So my issues with being suicidal are somewhat complicated. Well, everyone’s are. Does anyone else have a chronic illness? I was diagnosed with M.E at age 13. More commonly known as chronic fatigue syndrome, that is however a pathetic name for something as debilitating as I have. I cycle through extremely bad times and not so bad times. The extremely bad times, like now consist of not being able to stand up for more than a minute, feeling the most overwhelming exhaustion the human body is capable of, not being able to shower or feed myself and being very depressed. The not so bad times […]

4/17/2014 6 comments

PoF

by ClairDeLune 4/17/2014

written by ClairDeLune

4/17/2014 12 comments

Stay Strong

by Nusu Nusu 4/17/2014

written by Nusu Nusu

Do other people feel the despair that I feel when they hear these words? I wish my eyes would stop leaking. I’ve just popped a lorazepam. I want to scream. I’ve got to slay this dragon and go work.

4/17/2014 3 comments

Not intended to make any sense

by Stain 4/17/2014

written by Stain

Physical pain, everyone understands. Correction: physical pain, everyone understands if they can see it. Everyone understands a broken limb, a gushing wound, a torn eyeball, but tell them your pancreas hurts or your ears are ringing, and you’ll probably get the condescending “aw poor thing” bullshit and then they’ll forget all about it.

Even worse is mental agony which not only can’t they see, but they can’t even conceive what it might be like. Tell them that your mind is coming apart at the seams and they’ll just give you a blank stare. You won’t even get the condescending sympathy bullshit. Instead they’re more likely to […]

4/17/2014 2 comments

2 unrelated questions…

by whitneyirene 4/17/2014

written by whitneyirene

1. I cut, but I cut on my stomach so there is barely any chance anyone will find out. I was wondering why some people cut their arms/wrists?

2. I’ve read on here that many people have been going through depression for a long time, if not most of their lives. HOW IN THE WORLD DO YOU TAKE IT?? I lost my faith in April of last year and became depressed in July, so it’s really only been about 9 months I think? And I severely want to die. I just want to know how you’ve managed to […]

4/17/2014 7 comments

Just a ghost in this house

by myangel08 4/17/2014

written by myangel08

Hello, I’m new here. I have stumbled upon this site before while doing research for my own sad suicidal thoughts. Â I’m 24 years old and I am a wife, mother of two, and full time college student. Â My life has been a constant uphill battle against depression, which started when my father took his life when I was 11 years old. Â Sometimes I feel so alone in this world and I just want to disappear. Â I wish there was a place where I could just be numb and have no feeling at all. Â I started attempting suicide in my teenage years by cutting myself and […]

4/17/2014 6 comments

Living Alone

by ModestTruth 4/17/2014

written by ModestTruth

The Dweller Alone by Stella Benson
My Self has grown too mad for me to master.
Craven, beyond what comfort I can find,
It cries: “Oh, God, I am stricken with disaster.”
Cries in the night: “I am stricken, I am blind….”

I will divorce it.Â I will make my dwelling
Far from my Self.
Not through these hind’ring tears
Will I see men’s tears shed.

Not with these ears
Will I hear news that tortures in the telling.
I will go seeking for my soul’s remotest
And stillest place.

For oh, I starve and thirst
To hear in quietness man’s passionate protest,
Against the doom with which his world is cursed.

Not my own wand’ringsâ€”not my own abidingsâ€”
Shall give my search […]

4/17/2014 1 comment

I just want to.

by hellblau 4/17/2014

written by hellblau

Visions I’ve been dreaming are coming down, they’re changing my future.Â Visions I had buried underground returning to abuse me. I’m getting worse, I can’t sleep. I thought that the feeling was gone, but it’s getting stronger. And I miss him, I miss him so much. I’m missing him like never before. But still, can’t be with him, can’t tell him, can’t dream about it. It hurts, like hell. I just want to be okay. I just, want to.

4/17/2014 0 comment

ToRtUrE

by ty16 4/17/2014

written by ty16

Sometimes i go through my day wishing i hadnt woken that morning. Life is a constant struggle and always seems to find a new way to throw another unfortunate event at my face. Ive been through hell and back to the point where i dont feel physical pain. Its like tyson could beat my face in and i wouldnt shed a tear. Its not until you criticize me with your words that i break like a twig. The amount of physical torture ive endured because you are so careless about others emotions. It seems u take advantage of every possible chance you get put me […]

4/17/2014 2 comments

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