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I cant get out of this never endding nightmere

by jaysonerickson 3/19/2014

written by jaysonerickson

well i stumbled across this website when i was just looking for some ways to kill myself….i problem should say some back story im 14 years old and have cut for eight years…i have tryied suicide 14 times but clearly they all have failed i was never the smartest person and i have few friends most witch have moved away or killed themselves. I mean this morning i woke up to a friend crying and then i heard them shoot them self in the head…i heard them smash there head onto a hard floor and now i feel nothing..no emotion. i mean people tell jokes […]

3/19/2014 3 comments

Ruined

by ruined_inside 3/19/2014

written by ruined_inside

I thought I could trust her with my heart.

She told me she loved me and we had the most amazing relationship together.

Then she left me lonely

I am still in love with everything about her. Her hair. Her face. Her way. She abandoned me, even though she promised she would never leave.

Life has no meaning anymore. She was my everything. Now she is only a distant memory that I’m still in love with.

I know that she will never come back to me

And that is why I will be in pain for the rest of my life

3/19/2014 9 comments

The wall

by whereareyouolga 3/19/2014

written by whereareyouolga

Where do you find the strength to go through the day? Do you work/go to school, clean your house, walk your dog and so on? Over the last 2 years I have been running between school and work and just 2 weeks ago I all the sudden decided to not get out of bed. I called my boss that I had enough and got one week of sick leave. I quit school and now I’m just lying here feeling beaten to death. I have been depressed since my teen years and thought it couldn’t get worse. But that was nothing compared to this. No strength […]

3/19/2014 5 comments

to be or not to be that is the question

by kristink 3/19/2014

written by kristink

i am a blur of emotions. panic, dread, nervous, angry, and some fuck the world and everyone in it added for good measure. i have come to a fork in the road of sorts. i have come to a point where i have been on just about every med out there. currently taking 6 total. and since i am still topside i guess they are working to a degree. thinking about hypnosis . there seems to be something deep in my memory that is trickling out at a rather slow pace. whatever it is or is not i am scared. i remember being sexually aware […]

3/19/2014 2 comments

Marooned

by bellbivdivision 3/19/2014

written by bellbivdivision

I have “Marooned” by Pink Floyd on as I type this. The whole Division Bell album feels fitting right now. It’s all about division, about separation, about loss, about something being missing. I’ve been missing something for years and I don’t know what it is and I don’t know how I can get it back without blowing everything apart and I’m imploding under the pressure and it’s taking every ounce of willpower I have to not just destroy myself and make it easier on everyone else. Rather just keep my failures my own then inflict them upon everyone else.

3/19/2014 1 comment

who am i

by Kallian 3/19/2014

written by Kallian

what do you guys/girls know about me? could you tell me who I am?

3/19/2014 8 comments

so…

by Engie 3/19/2014

written by Engie

Haven’t slept in two days. Not depressed, just I get insomnia sometimes. I lie awake in bed with my eyes closed for several hours until my alarm goes off. So work was hard today. But I love my job. I thought about suicide for the first time in months today, but not with much conviction. I didn’t really want to die, not like before, but it just felt like it would be easier. I’ve stopped feeling depression (along with every other complex emotion) thanks to sertraline. It’s been such a long time since I felt happy our scared or angry or ashamed or sad. I […]

3/19/2014 19 comments

Hi, just check this

by Dolunay 3/19/2014

written by Dolunay

click to read; i hope we can understand how bullying does effect:

http://www.deviantart.com/art/Broken-Adults-441201933

3/19/2014 1 comment

longlost…

by KIARA 3/19/2014

written by KIARA

We are all upset,and maybe the reason behind it is we are alone.despite being there for people who didnt even deserved us,we stood by their back.and then like always we end up being alone,feeling betrayed and more then that frustrated.now days its more of a pattern a person is in your life maybe a friend,boyfriend but they all seem to leave after a certain point of extent.everytimg seems exciting n fulfilling in its start but it always has a bad end.this bad ending has made todays life a living hell….we all want infact need just one person who is true.it doesnt needs to be a […]

3/19/2014 12 comments

PAL

by k2fraser 3/19/2014

written by k2fraser

So, I was filling out my application for my possession and acquisition license (gun license, yay Canada!), and it turns out I need two references, people who have known me for at least three years.

I donâ€™t know anybody except co-workers and Iâ€™m not going to ask them. Even if I did have people I could ask, I donâ€™t want them to know that Iâ€™m in the process of acquiring a firearm.

Guess Iâ€™m going to have to make up a couple references, which is probably a federal offense, and hope they donâ€™t check on my references. I doubt they check the references of every application, and […]

3/19/2014 29 comments

recovered

by lissbabe 3/19/2014

written by lissbabe

people say we will never recover but i have and im strong now and always will be so people i believe that everyone can be happy and get out of this dark side of us i believe in everyone of you people im always going to be here for you all

3/19/2014 7 comments

by Kallian 3/19/2014

written by Kallian

I’ve been having dreams about hanging myself. I already know that I’ll most likely fail at it, so I really don’t think I want to try, but still.

3/19/2014 3 comments

Sleep

by vanitati 3/19/2014

written by vanitati

Can’t seem to find that tiny spot of silence inside my head tonight. Thoughts swimming around and around on repeat. Why is it when you are at your lowest the easiest of things are so hard? Sleep is not usually a stranger to me. I can sleep through anything just to get to the next moment. I use sleep as a barrier to keep me from having to face real life. So what happens when sleep doesn’t come? I go deeper and deeper into the place I so want to hide from. Face to face with every memory I try so hard to forget. Even […]

3/19/2014 4 comments

cough syrup

by Kallian 3/18/2014

written by Kallian

Life’s too short to even care at all, oh
I’m losing my mind losing my mind losing control, oh oh
These fishes in the sea they’re staring at me oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
A wet world aches for a beat of a drum
Oh

If I could find a way to see this straight
I’d run away
To some fortune that I, I should have found by now

I’m waiting for this cough syrup to come down, come down.

Life’s too short to even care at all, oh, oh
I’m coming up now, coming up now out of the blue, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
These […]

3/18/2014 1 comment

If only life were like this

by Remnant The Unbroken 3/18/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

My mom texted me a quote which I eventually found floating on tumblr that went like this:

“One awesome thing about Eeyore is that even though he is basically clinically depressed, he still gets invited to participate in adventures and shenanigans with all of his friends. And they never expect him to pretend to feel happy, they just love him anyway, and they never leave him behind or ask him to change.”

I sometimes wish the people in my life were able to not necessarily understand my depression/darkness, but just be able to see me. Just me. And not wish anything different about me.

3/18/2014 4 comments

Which One? (2)

by StruggleOn 3/18/2014

written by StruggleOn

So I made a post of burial sites (asking which was your style) which I quickly learned everybody would prefer to be cremated. Â So now I will post the urns.

Or if you want to be scattered into a hurricane like clevername (not a bad idea)

Or if drowning and being digested by a shark is your style, that’s fine.

Or perhaps being shipped into space

3/18/2014 22 comments

I’m Scared…

by CrimsonDream 3/18/2014

written by CrimsonDream

I’m afraid to ask so I don’t instead

I’m afraid to walk, get out of bed.

I’m afraid to soar right through the sky

cause suicide is my kryptonite.

I’m afraid to tell you that I love you so

cause if I do I’m sure you’ll go.

I’m afraid that if I tell you something

you’ll treat that secret like its nothing.

I’m afraid of a lot but with fear

comes strength.

3/18/2014 5 comments

What do you do when…

by CrimsonDream 3/18/2014

written by CrimsonDream

What do you do when you’re ready to go, but don’t want to at the same time?

What do you do when everyone you’ve ever had love for, turns that love into the hate you have for then today?

What do you say when the person you want to love forever, doesn’t love you back?

What do you do when you want to love, but all you’ve felt was hate?

3/18/2014 5 comments

by Kallian 3/18/2014

written by Kallian

I’m too much of a coward to die already, but I’m too hurt to be ok with living

3/18/2014 8 comments

Could’ve Would’ve Should’ve

by Bipolar American 3/18/2014

written by Bipolar American

I’ve had so many opportunities these past couple months to end it, but I keep dragging my feet. Not hanging on for things to get better, I’m not that naive. But the finality of the whole thing makes me apprehensive. I’m the one that’ll be successful on the first try, I’m aware of this.

With the clock ticking, I wish I would’ve done it sooner. The longer I wait, the more I cringe that I’m still here.

Fuck, mornings are the worst. Opening my eyes and realizing I didn’t try the night before. Then the long days that lead into night….the pattern has gone on long […]

3/18/2014 21 comments

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