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pills numb everything and help me forget.

by sunflower 7/23/2013

written by sunflower

today has been such a shit day. i woke up feeling awful. i feel naucious and i have a killer headache. my mom is pissed at me for no reason and i dont want to be home. i wish i could just leave and i wish i had drugs. i really want some perc 3o’s right now and honestly if i had money to buy some heroine i would. i need something because i feel like im about to break down and cry and scream and stab myself in the stomach. i just dont feel good and i dont know why. nothing has happened really […]

7/23/2013 7 comments

Why it is so important to be alive

by shldntbalive 7/23/2013

written by shldntbalive

Everyone has to die one day, then why should wait for your death. It is better to take your life by your own way, a less painful death. Why should wait for some miserable disease like cancer. And most importantly if you are so hopeless that you don’t even want to wake in the morning. You wish that you never been born at first place. You don’t have a single person in your life to trust, to share your pain. When you are back stab by your best friend, cheated by your girlfriend, watching your father died with cancer. When the nightmares don’ let you […]

7/23/2013 3 comments

Question

by darkwillow 7/23/2013

written by darkwillow

I don’t belong here. Life just isn’t for me. Anyone else feel like that?

7/23/2013 6 comments

How I feel

by PainNlife 7/23/2013

written by PainNlife

If I could try to describe the way I feel it would be like an egg without anything inside. Then imagine that same egg being put under intense pressure. smashed broken and shattered….Its like this feeling in the center of my chest….not physical pain….but it just feels like darkness and despair. Â I can laugh at things that make me laugh but its absent of happiness…. I cant genuinely smile at anything. I don’t appreciate or value anything life has to offer. The sunlight has become dull and gray and when its dull and gray outside that is sunshine to me. A flower looks like a […]

7/23/2013 0 comment

Today I

by Free@last 7/23/2013

written by Free@last

Today I remember the life I had. Today I think of the posts I have read here. Today I rembember the people I have been a witness to in their exit. Â Today I hope all people will be given the legal right to make the choice I have had to search the world for. Today I look back in sorrow and look forward in anticipation. Â Today I wish for all, the lives they desire and the end they deserve. Today I am , if honest, a bit afraid. Â Today I am Â more sure than ever that what awaits me is better than what is behind […]

7/23/2013 0 comment

I Hate Living

by Lapi 7/23/2013

written by Lapi

I fucking hate my life. So I shit around, help other people with their lives in order to forget about my fucked up life… I know that won’t change anything, but I hate my life. I loathe it. I want to give up. I want to fucking give up everything. I can’t decide nor choose anything in my life. It’s all fucking manipulated by my parents even after highschool graduation. I hate living. I hate my family, I hate everything that is me. I just want to fucking kill myself. I a fucking useless shit infested with self-hatred. The judges won’t like me. I won’t […]

7/23/2013 0 comment

Remember, It takes one friend to save a life..

by UndeadArmy 7/23/2013

written by UndeadArmy

i see nothing at all, no happines
When i tried to commit suicide i was serious about it. I locked my door turned my music on loud and ignored the knocks. Well i laid down my tools of trade, a bottle of vodka, to hide my shame, a razor at the wrist nothing would be missed. I.. I took a drink then grabbed my razor as i sat over a towel and just cut my thighs to hell i could barely walk after.. I called […]

7/23/2013 6 comments

I feel like it’s coming to end

by devlov 7/23/2013

written by devlov

I can’t take the emotional pain anymore. I’ve tried so many different anti-depressants. Do I need ECT? I just want some ******** to leave this world peacefully. I’m never going to accept my sexuality. I have unwanted same-sex attraction and at the same time want a family life. I’m 42 and time is running out. What’s the point of all this? Please god intervene, save this soul from hell and let me die peacefully. Psychiatrists, psychologists, support groups, friends, family, exercise, tried everything but I’m constantly thinking about suicide. Yes, I have some things going on in my life which I appreciate, BUT THE LONELINESS […]

7/23/2013 3 comments

What’s the point?

by alonedarkness 7/22/2013

written by alonedarkness

My name is John and I and 19. I have no real friends to speak of, I’ve lost interesting in the only thing that has been really keeping me going and I’ve been wishing the past few years for something to happen that would get me killed. I can’t commit suicide because my mind and body physically won’t allow me to do so. I don’t know when exactly I started feeling the way i did, but the feeling has only grown stronger over the years especially in the last few months.

I have no job, no drivers license because i can’t afford the insurance, no friends […]

7/22/2013 8 comments

My self harm story

by PrincessBrooke 7/22/2013

written by PrincessBrooke

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C08Ini72mZw

Thats my story.. please subscribe gonna post more videos soon

7/22/2013 0 comment

Hello Aggain

by PrincessBrooke 7/22/2013

written by PrincessBrooke

Well Hi again, many of you may remember me as BrooklynBoxx.. and once again I am asking you for your guys favor. I’m 15, as my of you know. But on January 26, 2013 I met and fell in love with a 21 year old. I know many of you may find this risky, coming from my past. But he was there after every failed suicide attempted. He got me to throw away razors. And talked me out of suicide. On the 15th of July my mom […]

7/22/2013 3 comments

alone

by Nolove 7/22/2013

written by Nolove

I have never had this feeling before. I have never been so sad that it physically hurts me. My chest hurts and I’m having a hard time breathing. I have never felt this alone. I’m completely alone. Alone with my pain.

7/22/2013 8 comments

pointless thoughts

by sunflower 7/22/2013

written by sunflower

ive had a killer headache all day. even though my morning started off pretty good and ive had a low stress day i just feel like shit and dont feel good at all. it dosent help people asking me if im ok when they dont want to know the answer. dont ask me something if you dont want me to tell you the truth. you only like the happy, stoner, party side of me so dont try to get to know the real raw me no one sees. yea you used to know me but then what happened, you put me in a fucking mental […]

7/22/2013 0 comment

This Can’t Be Right!

by Nevermore 7/22/2013

written by Nevermore

This can’t be right, this has to be a nightmare, a bad dream, induced by too many pieces of Halloween candy. I have to be seven years old, eight years old, tossing and turning in my bed. This cannot be my life, it shouldn’t be. I’m 14 years old and I’m a self-harmer, a ‘cutter,’ though I’d rather say I cut myself. The scars on my skin are mysteriously starting to fade, not that you’d know it. You’d take a glimpse at my unscarred arms, glance at the armband on my right wrist that never comes off. You might think for a moment that my […]

7/22/2013 3 comments

This is it

by nomore94 7/22/2013

written by nomore94

I keep trying i have taken pills with alcohol and a nice side of razors in the bath but i cant seem to die what is this I HATE IT! I HATE LIFE. I HATE BEING ALIVE. I WANT TO DIE. IVE HAD ENOUGH

7/22/2013 1 comment

illusions

by lamarcell 7/22/2013

written by lamarcell

does love really exist if so why does it always end and why did they invent the phrase true love because love lost it’s meaning i see old couples that have been together longer then i have been alive but isn’t that just the ability to put up with the other persons b.s. i’m only 16 so i don’t know much about love but i know enough to question it so does love exist or is it an illusion…

7/22/2013 3 comments

ehh..

by Selbstmord 7/22/2013

written by Selbstmord

Im not sure what to write, should there be something to write, or is it that I’m looking for something worthy to be written. I forget that im depressed when i talk to people or when i write, maybe its habit that i hide what i feel and smack a smile onto my face. I havent done anything all summer and i feel alone, my only friends are dull razors and this freak anxiety. I cant sleep. I’m starting to feel numb again. Maybe it’s better that i feel numb, if i decide to feel anything else ill just panic. Well… im done trying to […]

7/22/2013 1 comment

Last night in Group

by anonbarbie 7/22/2013

written by anonbarbie

Tonight is the last meeting of a Suicide Survivors group that I’ve been going to for a months. Its a group for people who have survived at least one suicide attempt in the last year. I adore the group members and hope them all the best… it breaks my heart thinking that I will be abandoning them in the following weeks; Â I believe its better to disapear then to make any announcement that I will be following through with my exit plan. It fills me with sadness to imagine any of the other members doing what I will be doing to myself… I baked cupcakes […]

7/22/2013 6 comments

Just wanted to say hi to all of you depressed angels out there

by Selbstmord 7/22/2013

written by Selbstmord

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7/22/2013 55 comments

Can’t speak

by NotReallyHereAtAll 7/22/2013

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

Sometimes I physically cannot talk, I build up words into something huge in my mind and I try to speak but just can’t at times. This usually happens when someone higher up in the social hierarchy of my school greets me, just a simple ‘hello’ pulls me into this panic and I try to reply and I open my mouth and I feel myself sweating and no sound comes out at all, even though the ‘hi’ is on the tip of my tongue and I know that it won’t matter in just a short while. It scares me because it’s rude not to smile and […]

7/22/2013 0 comment

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