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Accompanying my girlfriend.

by DutchTimes. 7/19/2013

written by DutchTimes.

It has been just over 3 years now. Three long, empty and meaningless years, with questions, sleepless nights and tears.

I have always lived the average life until I got together with this girl, she was a piece of heaven. Back then I was 19 years and still a virgin. I never had a relationship before, I never even kissed a girl before. I always said to myself that I wanted to â€œsaveâ€ everything for the girl of my dreams and now I had found her.

We were perfect together. We were each others better half. There are no word to describe how happy we were and […]

7/19/2013 11 comments

Just another day

by gloomygirl1313 7/19/2013

written by gloomygirl1313

Still hoping I can gather the courage I need. I keep going on each day either having a pretty good day or feeling like total shit… I tried to go and do similer stuff to what he has done… but can not bring myself to.. I dont even fucking care it dose nothing for me.. what was the draw for him… this shit means nothing without some form of emotion behind it… why was I not good enough.. pretty enough… why did I not mean enough?? why could he not respect me us our family? god.. just one more day… then help me please have […]

7/19/2013 3 comments

If anyone needs to talk

by loovekathy 7/19/2013

written by loovekathy

Please text me ill listen 206-972-5903.

7/19/2013 0 comment

by Serotonin for the Misfits 7/19/2013

written by Serotonin for the Misfits

Anyone feel like they missed an opportunity to finally get out of depression and maybe make some kind of life out of your…life? I think I had that chance but I was too depressed and caught up in suicidal planning. Now I am alive and wishing I had considered the fact that I might live. I regret that I got frustrated and ignored people and pushed them out of my life. Most of all though I think its a way of depression to fuel itself. First, it makes me miss an opportunity, then it makes me obsessively regret that missed opportunity. So I get more […]

7/19/2013 7 comments

Defeated

by Savingme 7/19/2013

written by Savingme

I lost, I give up now. How much more can I take? you keep pushing me, never have I ever feel so defeated, you won. I heard it’s so easy to OD, just heroin and alcohol, right? such beautiful peaceful departure, no more of this agonizing pain. I won’t have live my life anymore, for it is such a misery and so lonely, now and forever. Why do I have to put up with this if I don’t want to? Isn’t it at least my choice to want out? Why is suicide so bad? Why do you think people who committed it or want to […]

7/19/2013 3 comments

In A Room

by raincloudz 7/19/2013

written by raincloudz

by myself
in the dark
staring at a tv
getting high and drunk.
i guess this is it…

7/19/2013 5 comments

Not to Sound Creepy….

by endingtheagony 7/19/2013

written by endingtheagony

I’ve been trying not to do this but I need to speak to someone.

If anyone on here has a Kik, mine is AlliEatsChildren.

Someone should Kik me? I ask with very low expectations that anyone will. But it’s worth a try. IÂ would say email but honestly I don’t use my email at all.

7/19/2013 4 comments

Fucking Hilarious

by endingtheagony 7/19/2013

written by endingtheagony

You know what is just HILARIOUS? Please allow me to share.

What’s hilarious is when you are datingÂ a guy and your guy best friend fucks your boyfriend.

What’s hilarious is when they both lie to you about it and hide it from you.

What is really fucking hilarious is when you find out, and your friend starts crying.

What’s even more hilarious is when you try to leave your boyfriend after it and do nothing but cry and cut the next week.

What is just fucking hysterical is when you have so much self hatred that you believe that no one could ever love you, and your now-ex is […]

7/19/2013 8 comments

I’ll bet no one will care enough to comment on this

by progmessiah8 7/18/2013

written by progmessiah8

That sure has been the case with a few of my most important posts. 😛

I hate everything about the world. Today my dad got mad at me because I was by myself at a theme park looking for my group. He says I would have “no chance” against any fat fuck trying to pull me into a van because I’m “16 and 5-foot nothing.” Also, yesterday, I was out walking, and a boy in a car rolled down a window and shouted “Take it off, *****!” at me. I’ve gone through this a number of times. I’ve been whistled at and shouted at by boys […]

7/18/2013 3 comments

That short wonderful hour

by Nolove 7/18/2013

written by Nolove

I hate how I feel better for like an hour and then it all comes crashing back down on me. I can finally breath again but then no I’m robbed of my breath. It makes me mad. But most of all it just makes me want to sit and cry.

7/18/2013 3 comments

Idk at this point…

by sdae 7/18/2013

written by sdae

so I don’t know where to even start, I’m going to college this fall. I don’t know if Im excited or not about it… I don’t want to leave my family, I hate them at times and get in fights with them but I still think I will miss them a little even though I’ve been dying to get out for years cause I cant take all there shit. Im bi and I feel like that is going to stop me from making friends and I’m worried about that already. I have horrid anxiety and depression and so thats not helping at all. I haven’t […]

7/18/2013 5 comments

Another fallen Friend

by RuinsOfTheVoid 7/18/2013

written by RuinsOfTheVoid

Sam Worth was my friend. He battledÂ depression for many years after his family was taken from him. His wife died in childbirth, his daughter 4 years later from cancer.Â He told me once that SP saved his life.Â That he met people here who truly understood andÂ wanted to help. In return he tried to help where he could. I know because he helped me. a lot.

HeÂ died in hospital last week. Cancer.

Goodbye, friend.

7/18/2013 0 comment

Ramblings of madman/ Voice of a Prophet

by RuinsOfTheVoid 7/18/2013

written by RuinsOfTheVoid

I have anxiety, stress. When I wake up everyday I am in a state of panic. It takes about 30 mins of meditation to slow to heart rate from about 130 down to 70 beats per minute. My girlfriend says I shout in my sleep sometimes. After I slow my heart I can think straight again. But it takes about another hour before I can actually eat anything. So I get up every day around 6.

I can feel my heart all the time. When someone says something to me, I can actually feel how my body has reacted to it in my pulse and in […]

7/18/2013 0 comment

Feeling better

by wulf_haund 7/18/2013

written by wulf_haund

I resolved today to kill myself by August 22nd. First I fired my therapist. I had been seeing her for four years, but don’t feel any better. Next I found the family shotgun and started researching how to load it and where I can go to practice. Next I researched ******** bag deaths and put together a list of what I need to do learn how to do that. I wrote a list of practical things that will need to be done after my death (where my birth certificate it, where my bank account is, etc.).

I have been […]

7/18/2013 3 comments

So Very Sad

by pink flowers 7/18/2013

written by pink flowers

I used to feed these cats across the street. I got them spayed and neutered. I fed them for 10 years and the man took the key away. Now the cats are starving. They are known as feral. They do not know how to hunt. I am sad for them trying to help them. I will someway. I am sad and scared. I am scared all the time. Im not sure why I am so scared all the time. Maybe it is my father who used to hit me all the time when I […]

7/18/2013 1 comment

What is there to do.

by chezz 7/18/2013

written by chezz

I don’t know how to write this, I’ve never written something like this before, so I guess il just start, I’m sorry if it sounds stupid or doesn’t make sense.

I don’t know how much longer I can feel this way, I had an amazing weekend, I was happy for the first time in years, but alas, 5 days on and I am back to where I began. I have a psychologist that I see and sometimes a psychiatrist, also two people from a subsection of the nhs who come and check on me as I am 17.

I was going to be admitted to a hospital […]

7/18/2013 0 comment

tomorrow should never come

by monster 7/18/2013

written by monster

Hey . I feel much better reading all the stories. But tomorrow’s just another day when I’ll go back to bein miserable and angry and biting off people’s heads . Wish there was somethin tat would make me stop. I just want to be normal

7/18/2013 5 comments

It started to get better…… But then life said, “LOL NOT THIS TIME!”

by thesilencedscreams 7/18/2013

written by thesilencedscreams

I am starting to get really paranoid. About everything. I ALWAYS feel like I am being lied to. All the freaking time.

I am also starting to hate everything that has to do with me. I mean, I never really liked myself but…
See that right there? I trail off way too much.
I can’t even finish a sentence.
Kill me, please. I really don’t want to be here.

7/18/2013 3 comments

Fuck this.

by Jladd 7/18/2013

written by Jladd

Just when you think everything has turned around an your life is getting better it just fucks you over. Well at least how it turned for me..

7/18/2013 3 comments

The irony of Life

by ninetyeightstars 7/18/2013

written by ninetyeightstars

I wished to die. Many times. Sometimes I would like awake at night, wishing that I would never wake up. I hate my job. My job hates me, My mom blames me for everything. My brother calls me stupid and overreacting. I can’t open up to anyone because they’ll think I am being overly dramatic. It hurts. And outside, I pretend to be cheerful and caring because I know that that’s how people get to like you, It hurt before when my friends all left me when I became “emo.” I learned that you shouldn’t let friends know what you really feel. Well, honestly, I […]

7/18/2013 4 comments

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