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Even if I had no pressure…

by Hedabuvh20
written by Hedabuvh20

I’ve been feeling some fear lately, and some anxiety too.  I quit my job recently, I had too, it was only going to get worse.  I have some savings to live on, but I don’t know where I go from here.  My brain is damaged, it doesn’t work right, and you can read my first post if you want the details, but basically I did it under the influence of drugs a long time ago and things have gotten progressively worse over the last few years.  Many hospitalizations, a lot of suicidal times.  Lately, I haven’t really gone there, I’m much more curious as to […]

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hopeless

by isabelisgone
written by isabelisgone

i want to move on already.. from all these feelings. But, how can I? All people do is hurt me, just for their own good. What good do you get out of this though? All you’re going to be left with is guilt… Guilt from being the person that made someone want to die and leave behind all their dreams just for something stupid that you said.. You have no idea how badly this hurts… Having to say goodbye to everyone.. one by one.. Its like self harming myself.. one by one.. but it all happens so quickly. Everything is going wrong, at this point […]

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What to do???

by boredom1999
written by boredom1999

When i was about two years old, my mum left me in a small house with an 11 year old babysitter for a whole weekend to get drunk.

I remember people telling me that i would have been in care if it wasn’t for my Dad, although now that i’m growing into my teenage years he doesn’t pay any attention to me. I live with my Nan and Granddad. My Granddad is maybe the only person i appreciate, along with my best friends. I obviously love my family, but i feel awkward around my Dad, and my Nan’s constantly drunk and angry, and she’s spending all […]

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Promises

by Lily Rowe
written by Lily Rowe

Have you ever made a promise you knew you wouldn’t be able to keep ?

Well, I have. A few years ago, I was in a really bad place. As I had ended up in a hospital bed once again, my best friend came to see me. She was crying, and she bugged me until I promised her to take care of myself. To stay alive.
The thing is, it was four years ago, but I’m not any happier than I was back then. I’m in the exact same place, but this time, I can’t let go, I can’t do anything to make the pain stop. […]

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crazy familly

by smusmu
written by smusmu

I know you are gone, but I keep looking at my phone and checking mail if MABY just maby you didnt kill yourself. I feel like Im going crazy….

Mom lost it yesterday…. For 2 days now she is totally out, she lost contact with reallity. She needs professional help.

And you thought you are the crazy one? Look at all of us now – lost without you.

And you thought nobody loves you…

You were so so so soooooooooooo wrong!!!!!!

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Scared

by LostHedgehog
written by LostHedgehog

        I’m scared. I have a new boyfriend who is exactly the perfect guy of my dreams, but I’m scared of getting close with him. I’m to scared to really open up to him, he knows about my past of burning but he said that he figured it was something he didn’t need to mess with so he didn’t, I have been feeling the same worthless, useless, empty pain inside lately and I want to mention it to him but, hes so reserved I don’t want to scare him away. Usually I would talk to my friends but they have their own problems […]

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Cruel keeping someone alive when they’d rather be dead?

by wearentlivingbutexisting
written by wearentlivingbutexisting

I feel as if im trapped in a body, that I can’t escape. I feel like I’m a failure for an unsuccessful suicide attempt. I always look back on that day and wish It worked, I cross roads without fully looking in hope ill get hit. I’m sick of putting on a happy front when I’m a mess inside. Mental illness is such cruel thing to happen to someone, and even though I hate it somehow I delve in it and some part of me wants to suffer, and I can’t understand why. I managed to keep on top of my illness for a steady […]

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Dull

by XXSADXX
written by XXSADXX

I used to be so happy especially at school I don’t really get bullied and this year im in year 6 and I really found my true friends I was happiest at school and going to school. I’ve liked loads of guys nothing big just like fake crushes but then I really like this guy called Christian and then there was this little rumour that he like this girl in his class coz he is a year younger but the classes are really close and from what he’s said he doesn’t. but still doesn’t stop my heart from hurting and at home for the last […]

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i feel alone

by aidan-sage
written by aidan-sage

Im not gonna try to post something extremely witty and dark and intellectual and poetic.. i just cant sleep again and im hoping that posting this will clear my mind and i could get some advice from people who possibly feel the same way as me. I could list every terrible thing thats ever happened to me and all the times ive tried to kill myself and all the addictions ive had but thatd take too long and im tired and lazy. So basically, im depressed, im bipolar, im insecure, im lonely, and i feel like nobody cares about me apart from my immediate family. […]

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I hate this world

by Zanna
written by Zanna

I hate it every second of the day. I hate beeing a human. I hate everything about this civilization.

My heart cries every day, when i see all the slaughter of animals.. when i see all the killing, i hate people. We are the most evil creatures in this world. We will and we are ruin everything beautifull.

i’m sick and tired of watching this. is like i don’t belong in this world i dont belong anywhere. and anyone.

I hate it. I hate my life and everythig i do and i’we done its pointless.. nothing changes.. Only thing i love in this shitbag world are animals and […]

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I am covered in thorns

by borderlineboy
written by borderlineboy

I’m really tired of fighting.  I’ve been doing it so long – fighting physical issues, fighting mental issues – and I’m just so tired.  I’ve tried my best, but things just keep getting worse, and I can’t see any way out of where I am.   Everything is darkness, and the last of the light is disappearing.

I’m so afraid and so desperate that I keep reaching out to my best friend, but it all keeps going wrong.  Somehow I end up being angry with him.  I don’t mean to be, I just can’t seem to help it.  Each time it happens he pulls a little […]

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I think it’s time to take a walk

by SometimeSoon
written by SometimeSoon

And I have no idea why I’m posting it here but, I am.  I’m exhausted.  The only true smile that has come to my face in the past few years was just before my attempt several weeks ago – the rest of the time it has been this forced curvature which, I must say, I’ve become quite the expert at creating.  The sadness.  The consistent failures.  The burden I’ve been to so many for so long.  Iit’s just so tiring.

For almost 30 days I’ve had no contact with anyone in my personal life save three individuals one being my “brother” who lives quite literally thousands […]

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Tired of all that is.

by DreamingOfDeath
written by DreamingOfDeath

Tired of this life, and all that is. One simple thing, a single wish. Dreamt of blood, a thousand screams. Every night, these are my dreams. One simple thing, my only wish. Knife in hand, I cannot miss. But I shan’t, commit this sin. She’ll hold me back, again and again. The one and only…. Sorry.. Hope this didn’t bore or waste any your time of you happened to read this. Goodnight. I love you all.

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