General

If I just put half of the energy, time, and money that I’ve spent trying to maintain my life and find something to make me “happy”, then I could have my way out in no time at all.

There is simply not enough time in a day for me, not enough money can be earned. I try changing myself and my demeanor, but I’m just too tired come evening, and the facts of my situation stay the same no matter how you look at them. There’s no one around to help me, and maybe there shouldn’t be because I’ve failed to help myself.

It is up to […]

Dear Me,

I just don’t get it. . Why doesn’t anyone else have the voices too?  How do you fake that smile so well when we both know you’re planning ending your life?  Why is it that you can hate yourself so much when you didn’t do anything. Your scars scream louder for help than you ever could and that’s the sad truth. Your tears can’t be separated from the bathtub water they fall into.  No matter how much blood you steal from yourself, you can’t be satisfied, so why do you even bother to still do it?  You’ve written your suicide letter and […]

Dear Travis and Lily-Loo,

Oh yeah, and my sister Sue.

I’m sorry I haven’t made my bed,

But I left a note there for you instead.

Mom and Dad let me tell you something,

That little wound wasn’t a bee sting.

It was those kids, who push you around,

They tell you mean things, and knock you to the ground.

I tried to fight back, but they’re just too strong,

I got tired of it; it’s been going for too long.

But, don’t worry; it’s not going to happen anymore,

I’m far from them; I’m somewhere above, somewhere to soar.

Love, Jarrad.

its not that good, but it’s how bullying can affect this boy Jarred, who is someone I just made up, even though he […]

A great miracle has occurred.  After years, and years, and finally giving up,  but then a miracle, God has heard me.   An unknown large planet arrives out of nowhere, and is hurtling towards earth, like in the movie Melancholia, the great collision to destroy all things.  Frantic scientists on the news 24/7, Nasa can’t explain this one, where did it come from?  How could we never have seen it coming!  After millennia of suffering God has had enough with this world.  The human race, what a disappointment!  While the once-happy people of the earth panic and scramble over each other to get somewhere, anywhere, to save their lives somehow, to the underground bunkers, and the grocery […]

Enough said!

I’m in my bed, sobbing uncontrollably. I don’t want to live anymore. I can’t take the struggle.

There’s nobody to say goodbye too….and I don’t think this is a temporary problem.