General

Since I’m an agnostic atheist I don’t believe in god because I have no reason to.  All I know exists is the physical world.  My brain is who I am.  Once my brain dies then that’s the end of me as far as I can tell.  Thinking about this fact is equally depressing and frightening at the same time.  I’ll probably commit suicide sometime this year once I get the proper tools and courage.  Fuck my life.  Can anyone relate to this thought process?

Never wrote on a site like this.  I’m a 32 year old man who has seemingly led a commercial life. Excitement and fun. The hard part has always been this overwelming feeling of the world crumbling down around me. Until last year i was married and had a son. A family and friends. June last year it crumbled to pieces. wife told me she was done while we had friends over for an evening party. Friends decided to follow her. I’ve gone the last year alone, seeing my now 3 year old son through out the week. I am spending alot of time scared. I […]

Well, I guess it was inevitable, but my girlfriend finally dumped me. I really thought that she was ‘the one’ for me, but I guess all good things must come to an end. We had so much in common and we really enjoyed each others company, but I guess she just got bored of me. I’m not giving up. I’ll find someone else.

Right now I’m supposed to be studying. But I’ve lost the ability to care. I’ve lost the ability the feel.

Numb, again. Which is pretty annoying… ha-ha. Especially when you have important things to take care of.

Being numb makes me want to be reckless and do really stupid things.

In the recent months, I’ve decided to try to get back on track. To try and break from this depression I’ve been going through. I’ve been keeping busy exercising, working on getting my drivers license. Try to be strong. It feels like I’m being beat at every turn. I’m trying to hold on what ever hope my be left for the good days ahead. This year is the worst year for me to date. I’m trying to work to be a better person for my own sake so I can actually maintain healthy relationships. I’m waiting on good days, but I’m growing tired each day. […]

How hard would it be to go to the usa and just buy a gun? I’m a Canadian.

do you need id? How much would a small gun cost?

I’ve never felt this suicidal before. For the past 24 hours I have just been in this constant state of desperation. I smile, I laugh, I carry on with life, but in the back of my head I’m gone. My thoughts are disturbing. I’ve considered waiting until after my open house to kill myself, that way the open house money can pay for my funeral. Or I’ve thought about telling the school counselor to tell my parents everything we’ve talked about and then killing myself before I make it home. I don’t want to live anymore, I really don’t.

People say suicide is selfish. I think it’s selfish to ask someone live painfully just so that you won’t feel pain for a week or two. Suicide may be a permanent solution to a temporary problem, but it’s also a permanent solution to a problem that grows more intense and overwhelming each day. Suicide is neither a right or wrong act, it just becomes cause of death for some people.

Can anybody tell me, specifically, how to get ********? A website would be nice, or, if I have to travel, where do I go and how do I get it there? Thank you….

At 24 years old, you’d think things would start to get easier. My life is “on track”. I followed all the rules…I graduated high school, I graduated college, I go a job in my career, I’ve found the guy for me, but is that it? Do I continue down this road that has already been paved for me? Do I continue to smile when my tears are as beautiful as the color of the crimson red that falls from my wrists? I don’t understand why I feel the way I do when I’ve “got it all”. It’s not fair for me to feel this way […]