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It’s Only A Matter Of Time. (part 3, I tried again)

by mortuarychic 4/20/2013

written by mortuarychic

I realize that I got ahead of myself in the last post, left out some key points…. left out reasons why. At this point I sat down in class, this stuff I have not shared….I had enough of being a freak show for one day.Â I go to school with about 100 students…. I am the youngest there…. only a baby…. only 18. I moved away from my family to go to school. I wanted to be happy, I was free of the shadows and pressures that suffocated me day after day. I wasn’t happy, I never was. I didn’t know anyone, so I didn’t […]

4/20/2013 1 comment

Too many years..

by whoamikidding 4/20/2013

written by whoamikidding

I have a lot of admiration for many of you who can actually go through the act of attempting suicide.Â I have wanted to since I was 7 years old and have not had the courage.Â I am now 53 and still a woos.Â I suppose what it boils down to is that I really don’t want to kill myself but to be put out of my misery.Â Don’t get me wrong.Â I have come very close a time or two and someday I may just get that courage to succeed.Â I have lived with myself for many years and all I know is that […]

4/20/2013 2 comments

Today

by Only-Here-For-My-Family 4/20/2013

written by Only-Here-For-My-Family

Today is going to be a good day, I have something to look forward to so its gonna be easy to get to the end of today back to bed, my happy place, in the hope the world will end while I’m asleep or at least I’ll suffocate in my pillows and blankets…. I Miss You <3

4/20/2013 4 comments

I need to change something before it’s too late, but I just can’t.

by sono_libero 4/19/2013

written by sono_libero

This lady came to my school today and talked about the dangers of dark magic. She talked about demon possession and how she was able to conjure spirits when she was in high school. I find it all entirely fascinating, but I am getting far too caught up in the dark world for it to be safe anymore. I feel constantly trapped in darkness and emptiness. I am never happy anymore. I have nothing to live for. I stopped using drugs and cutting nearly six weeks ago, and everything has grown worse, instead of better, since then. Everything is a constant battle. Far too often, […]

4/19/2013 3 comments

Alone

by DawgMom 4/19/2013

written by DawgMom

I think the thing I realize most about getting closer to killing myself is the isolation. I struggle with feeling like no one cares – or notices – when I talk about it. So, as I get closer I stop talking. No one seems to care – or notice – that either.

The reality of suicide is that you’re alone in it. You will go alone and you have to be able accept that. Whether others care or notice doesn’t matter. No one can or will save you. Until you accept that, you’ll stay. When you accept that, you won’t try, you’ll do. It’s simple, I […]

4/19/2013 10 comments

Happiness is something to strive for.

by HappinessComesAndGoes 4/19/2013

written by HappinessComesAndGoes

This is my story about how i had my heart broken a couple of times. it soon spawned a fear of abandonment in me and made me think i was never good enough. if you wish to hear how i survived my hardship then please read this.

I was born different from other kids. i chose not to give in to the social flow and i Â lived how i felt. i had friends, a pretty good amount. i fell in love many times and had a few relationships. I grew up being who i felt was me. Sometime around the summer of 2012 about early June, […]

4/19/2013 2 comments

I don’t know how much more I can take

by sunnyslife 4/19/2013

written by sunnyslife

This feeling it hurts a lot I wish it would go away. Everyday I wake up pretending to be happy putting on a fake smile for everybody to see. I feel so alone and unwanted by everyone no one understands they or love me . Just tolerate me or push me to the side. I seem to cry every night the days are getting longer and I think that is if I hurt myself I would feel some type of real emotion. Or maybe just that one step into the street can end everything. Poof! I’ll be gone and life can continue like it always […]

4/19/2013 2 comments

Boston bombers

by animerocks500 4/19/2013

written by animerocks500

Is any one eles is upset that… No ody could help save this Boston bombers … Why are they treating these boys like criminals and not like the victims of the worlds hate and emptyness…arresting this kid and putting him in jail or killing him is not the anweser.

4/19/2013 6 comments

I can’t help but want it..

by animerocks500 4/19/2013

written by animerocks500

I am 17 in the evelenth grade, I have a 2.66gpa rigth now and after taking studying for the act… I got a 19…. I am not the smartest kids… In fact I come clost to down rigth dumb….I procrastinate aLot ….sleeping takes up Lot of time..but sleep is the only thing that keep me from thinking and crying…..but lately I can’t sleep I just cry and think all nigth… It’s making me dizzy in the Morring….

I find life to be joy less …. I am going to circles…. Friendship is pointless even for the few friends I do have… Even to my best friend… […]

4/19/2013 0 comment

And eat.

by I.cant.breathe! 4/19/2013

written by I.cant.breathe!

That moment, when you’re standing in front of the fridge crying, because you know, as soon as you open it, you’re going to eat. and eating is bad. eating helps nothing in your mind. You’ll just suffer by surviving. You just stare. your hand on the cold handle. Just wanting so badly to get something, anything, you don’t care, but you can’t. or else you will curse yourself. But your senses take over, they over powerr everything, and you open it, and you take something, anything, you don’t care. and eat.

4/19/2013 0 comment

A Stolen Life

by bah 4/19/2013

written by bah

Due to depression and mainly health issues, I have absolutely no energy to go do anything. Â How can one live life when one doesn’t even have the energy to go feed oneself, dress oneself, go out, etc. Â Heck, I have to drag myself to the bathroom half the time.

Just wtf kind of life can you lead when you can barely do that??

It’s pathetic and I hate that my life- I hate that my life was stolen from me. Â

No, it’s not a “mind over matter” thing. Â My body is physically broken and what semblance of a life is completely shattered. Â And I hate being told […]

4/19/2013 2 comments

what i feel almost everyday

by I_suffer_in_silence 4/19/2013

written by I_suffer_in_silence

i feel useless to this world. im not good enough for anyone or anything. i suck at everything i do and i’ll just be a failure the rest of my life. im ugly, stupid and an annoying ***** who needs to die. i’ll never be the pretty one, i’ll never succeed. my mind is all fucked up with suicidal thoughts and im not the person who i was before.Â now i just wanna die and escape this pain. what reason do i have to still be here if no one loves me, the only thing i’ll do is cryÂ myself to sleep, self-harm, and hate […]

4/19/2013 1 comment

4/17/13

by Miss.Mayhem 4/19/2013

written by Miss.Mayhem

Today during creative writing class my teacher really wanted to read a poem I wrote about me loosing my best friend (well she didnâ€™t know what it was about). IÂ didn’tÂ want to say no because it would have hurt her feelings, so I said â€œsureâ€. She started reading the emotion-filled poem out loud. We had a visitor in our class who, just from the few lines my teacher had read, was completely focused in and had an amazed look on her face. Apparently so did everyone else in the class.
As she was reading, I started to realize what the words actually meant to me. TheyÂ weren’tÂ just […]

4/19/2013 0 comment

Run

by KrisS 4/19/2013

written by KrisS

How do you tell someone that they’re the reason? How do you explain to them that they need to stop, and think about the things they say to you before it’s too late?
I wouldn’t say I’m completely past the point of suicidal thoughts, I wish I were. But I’m definitely not past the point of looking for jobs in foreign countries and fantasizing about packing up everything and just vanishing.
Do loved ones even realize the effect they truly have on us? Do they understand anything about how our minds work?
I feel like I’ve told them a thousand times about how sad I […]

4/19/2013 4 comments

Death

by VacatedHappiness 4/19/2013

written by VacatedHappiness

Death captures my mind for a second,
Long enough that I stay with the thought
Just thinking,
Thinking of what it could bring.

I look upon it eagerly, to learn it’s secrets,
A synesthesia of the unknown, but yet tangible,
Conceivable, to a slightest degree,
But maintaining the unknown that keeps me,
A hope and a wish, that is all;
No better than wishing for hope
But dying seems more likely for me.

All will be reduced to a resonance,
As if a footprint left upon a river bed,
It would go soon too, and leave like me,
And everything I am reduced to a singularity

4/19/2013 0 comment

Despair

by DawgMom 4/19/2013

written by DawgMom

4/19/2013 0 comment

have faith that things will get better

by Sam 4/19/2013

written by Sam

If I were to be honest for a change and told you what was inside me. All the demons I fight every day. How much regret I have for everything I have done. If I told you that I want to kill myself. Would you understand? Probably not. Everyone looks at me like Iâ€™m insane. All the scars on my arms and legs it reminds me that my past is real. Every day I look in the mirror and hate what I see not just the outside the inside too I feel so ugly. Iâ€™m full of anger and sadness. Iâ€™m deprived from happiness. I […]

4/19/2013 8 comments

Suicidal….

by JaneDoe822 4/19/2013

written by JaneDoe822

I’m 17 years old(will turn 18 this June),5″3,39 kg,underconfident,anxious,afraid,failure,looser,quitter……Ive been heavily suicidal for like five years now!!!
Mostly due to my academic stress….till highschool i scored great and was a bright minded geeky kid but for some odd reason i started to grow more and more fears and day by day the roots of those fears anchored deeply into my conscience and i ended up being a fiasco….i fail at everything….i cant reach out for even the simple mundane goals…apparently i am still bright and healthy but inside there is a neverending armageddon and mental anguish…I am dead…I’m just a breathing corpse without any genuine […]

4/19/2013 0 comment

Hmmmm

by Only-Here-For-My-Family 4/19/2013

written by Only-Here-For-My-Family

I feel like shit, I don’t want to feel like this, I’ve been going so well now I feel like I’ve gone so backwards it’ll take forever to get back to where i was at emotionally, I’m a wreck, My family life is so fucked at the moment even my 12 year old sister is hurting herself and I don’t know how I can help her, I want to stop her getting like I did… I’m so lost and confused and I can’t stop crying whenever I’m alone, which is a lot recently…

I’m even grammar nazi’ing my writing so i can try not to think […]

4/19/2013 4 comments

Please tell me my friend won’t hate me forever

by neverenough26 4/19/2013

written by neverenough26

Yesterday in a particularly bad time I decided I was finally going to end it. At that time (when I was clearly not thinking rationally), I was determined and committed. I have been depressed for a while but when this all happened something really horrible happened and I had no way to work through it on my own. I know everyone says that and I don’t want to say the entire story, but basically a person who had sexually, physically, and emotionally abused me for several years somehow got my contact information and called me just to fuck with my mind, and it set off […]

4/19/2013 2 comments

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