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I love how almost everyone on this website always says things like “we’re all here for you” “you’re not alone” “we know your pain” etc, myself included, but it’s not true.

Every time I go on this website there are posts with tons of supportive comments. But for every post like that, there are 5 or so that go completely ignored.

If we’re really all here for each other, then we should make an effort to include everyone.

Just imagine, you’re alone and depressed and suicidal and you find a website with people like you and you reach out to them…
and you get nothing. Nobody responds. Nobody […]

i wake up everyday wanting to die. i go to my bathroom and look in the mirror. all i see is an ugly girl who will never be good enough, i go to school. always the first person to cry because of voices saying “slut”, “whore” “suicidal freak” “go die” “emo ******” etc. i walk around school with my face covered because im to ugly to be seen. im a nobody at school. no one likes, everyone hates me. i go home and pretend nothing had happened and go to my room and slit my wrists. millions of scars on my arms bleeding. i cry […]

I couldn’t stand to even look at myself in the mirror anymore because all I saw was a fat, ugly girl with a lot of baggage.  Everybody sees me as the bubbly, happy girl in school but almost every day, I would go home and slash my wrists because I couldn’t stand myself.  I hated myself. I wished I was dead. This week was horrible.  I almost got dumped, my parents yelled at me for stupid things on multiple occasions and my days seemed to be getting longer as I couldn’t sleep.  About a year ago, I started to make myself throw up after I ate.  I […]

I’m afraid to lay my head down to sleep these days, because I’m not sure who I’ll be when I wake up. No one seems to understand my OCD, they can’t see that its eating me alive. It controls my thoughts and actions; so what is left? I’m loosing track of what is me and what is this disorder. I need help, but I’m afraid to ask. The thought of the normal treatment, antidepressants, scares me. I’m afraid to admit that I’m just another one of those kids that has been labeled with “gifted” intelligence, but fails to function as a normal human being. And what will I be […]

I feel horrible every time I look in the mirror. I hate the sight of my body and I try my best to cover up, though it isnt always possible. Now I’ve even started to turn the lights out in the bathroom when I step out of the shower so I dont have to look at my god awful body. The only part of me Im remotely proud of is my eyes, but that’s only because they’re not mine, they’re my mom’s.

I feel worthless, unlovable in every way. I like to read romance stories, but I always feel a pang deep in my chest because […]

I’m not sure if I am.  I mean, I had an incredible childhood and all but the last few years have been hellish.  I need to end this misery soon or I’ll end up in a mental institution.  I’d say overall though that I’m glad I was born.  If I wasn’t born I’d never know my amazing family and friends.  But it all comes to an end eventually.  So I’m thinking I kinda wish I was never born into this fucked up world..

But what if you were born in some third world country where all your life was suffering and pain?  I’d probably wish I […]

let  die already. an old flame contacted me, huzband  found out, he os xoesnt trust me and doeznt wNg to come home. all  wZ talk o my ex….for a  ery ong time on the phone. now im fuckef. sorry bout tbe pelling…kindle cks.

Every time i’m happy .. life gets harder
Every time life gets harder, its difficult to be happy but the thing is when i do end up being happy life gets even harder then it was before. Gradually everything is falling apart … i have very few people left in my life and they don’t seem to want to listen. I’ve been strong for far too long and i know people will think i’m cowardly for taking my own life. But to be honest i just don’t feel like life wants me here anymore. I’m constantly lost in my mind trapped trying to free myself from […]

Hello .
I am turned 20 this january.
I used to be a very happy carefree person till i was 18. My life was perfect .I got everything I ever wanted .My parents are rich and I had good friends.
I started my degree in 2010 and studied 1 year at the university. It was a doctorate degree and I studied really hard that whole one year. My friends were awesome .After an year when i had a final exam,my parents told me that i have to quit studying there because we are moving away to a new city. I didnt study for my exam […]

And people wonder why we would want out of this world. A bombing at the Boston Marathon? Really? Why do these tragedies keep happening? How is everyone else so well-adjusted? How can you look at all this horror and violence and not weep for humanity? It disgusts me that I live in such a place, that I am called a member of this species. It isn’t selfish to commit suicide. It’s smart. Do people not realize it’s only getting worse? We can try everything to make this planet livable, but it doesn’t work. I hate it here. Suffering and pain just shouldn’t exist, and I can’t […]

I’m a 26 year old guy who has a paralyzing, crippling fear of intimate physical contact.  The idea of hugging makes me ill, and the thought of actually having sex is once of the most terrifying violations of my personal space I could imagine.  I hate myself for feeling like this, because while I am utterly terrified, I want these things more than life itself.

I’ve tried almost a decade of therapy and drugs with no effect.  The bottom line is always: “Just go out there and expose yourself to it.  It’s the only way to get used to it.”

How?  I don’t have any friends, and […]

self-hate, self-harm,
cutting on your arm,
just a few more little scars.
beautiful as the stars,
but you will never see,
how you look to me.
your my definition,
of beauty, and pretty.
I love the way you are,
i even love your scars.
i’ll love you to the end.
cause your my everythin.
if you ever go,
or if you stray away,
i’ll be on my knees,
beggin you to stay.
Girl, listen to these words,
i’ve tried to write them well.
i love you girl,
more than you can tell.
An’ I guess my main point is,
that your all i’ll ever need.

i’ve lost most of my friends because i lied to them, bitched about them and chose others over them. and i completely regret that. i wish they could see that i’ve changed. i was so immature back then, and now i’m a completely different person. i get bullied so much at school and i find that sel

Since I was 13, I don’t feel like living anymore, the idea of committing suicide comes back to me from time to time. Now, I’m 27, I still always feel so lonely, and the unhappy feeling seems to be so strong that I can’t take anymore. I always think that if I can choose not to have any happiness in order to exchange for experiencing no sadness anymore, I must take this. Then I think I’m up for a suicide plan. But my parents love me so much that I always don’t want to break their heart, as I know how bad a person would […]

Im back for a little while with a just passing by. I want to say things have changed but suicide is like a virus without cure, once in never out! For me its a back up plan for now. I wish life has never gotten me where im standing right now. One day, maybe one day, ill be rid of this feeling and able to live a normal life again. Im just not dying yet, i know ill feel the right time when it presents itself to me. Will be off again for a while… will be on again sometime!

Love you guys, all of you… […]

Ever get lost in the lie of pretending you’re ok?

like living in a dream then waking up?

or committing to something to just to break that commitment a day later?

it sucks

makes me wonder what can i do

living behind a mask being ok when your not, so is it to be ok when you’re not ok but you believe you are?

i dunno

I fell in love with a player. I though he cared, and wanted me. I found out later on he didnt and slept with about 3 girls behind my back then claimed he loved me. When i found this out i went to a depression and dying is all i think about now, all because i fell in love. I hate love and the feeling i get when i think about what has happened. LIfe is Hell!!

Life=Shit 😉