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She paints a beautifull picture
but her storie had a twist
her paint brush was her razor
and her cannavas , her wrist

She screems for help
but there is no one there
just a shinny metal
RAZOR BLADE!

She cuts and she feels alive
she crys
the pain is the only thin that keep her
in life

She can´t take anymore
she is going to be mad
survive is not an option
since she is already DEAD!

Inside….Inside…Inside
Inside…INSIDE , INSIDE , INSIDE INSIDEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

She is losing her life
And the last thing she sees
is her bloody knife besides her
she is finaly free

They found her
But is […]

and tomorw never came
my life warpt in pane
no one to love
no one ever came
no one cared
and fals promisis were made
do we even know
why it ranes or snows
people are just pisst with me
no one fucking cares for me
tonight im going to think of tey
to show that at lest i care for you
ill still be here for you
even now im dead
for i have lost it all
so ill gve it all to you
i care if you dont
i love if you whont
i WILL SACRFICE IF YOU ARE AFRADE
i […]

I just can’t quite do it. I’m so, so close. I’ve got everything ready, prepared in a bag. I just have to go to a hotel and do it. It’s completely safe for everyone else, just a peaceful death. But I can’t get over that final hurdle. God this is so hard. Living is hell but dying is still so difficult, or rather, killing myself is still so hard to do.

I don’t even know what I’m asking for. Just some kind of help to get me over this last obstacle and not suffer anymore.

i was talking to a frend i told her about my pane and how i whantid to go shes been helping me with this for a bit now but today she said if i reley coudent stand the loneyness and hert aney more i she’d let me go what dos that meen dos she whant me to go has she had anuf of my ranting and crying she was the only one who lisind to my trubuls and she was the only one who cared for me now she says this ? i dont know what to do and people wont care if im gon and it […]

i think i told one too many pains medz but im still in pain …….i keep black out now gonna try and sleep off the pain bye loves

Oh, look. Just to make my day a bit better. My mom comes into my room, insults me because I “slept for 30 minutes longer” and then she goes on about how I’m “ungrateful”.

Mom, you’re a disgusting *****. A disgusting person, your mind is horrid and your actions are in vain. I regret knowing/acknowledging you as my mother. As well as my sister, you have not only allowed my biological father to beat me, but to allow him to visit me, knowing he had molested me and the cursed words he had told me in my room as I played “Naruto”, will never leave my […]

I know people care. I know that I’m not completely useless, although a lot of the time I am. I know that every single one of you would not expect this from me. As I sit here making this note, as hard as it is and as much as I want to, I can’t cry. I feel nothing right now. I am not scared by my potential actions; I feel no regret in giving myself what I believe to be what I deserve. It is not complete emptiness, though. I feel loneliness, depression, and an overall feeling of shit. Shit for every time I have […]

Well i have had these thoughts as everyone else here and have been to all the doctors. Thay say take this pill or what was your childhood like or you must have been molested and are blocking it out.

Well i was allowed to play sport and feed and clothed, schooled in canada and dont recall being molested.

I just want to know why i think the only way out is to end it and my life is good really just the thinking is rotten.

I have a supportive wife 2 houses car fulltime job all the stuff anyone could want but still the thoughts come that im […]

This is quite simple, there isn’t much to explain but ill write how i feel, it doesn’t really matter cause thats not the point of this post.
Tbh, i really hate myself, my body, my face, the way i am, im 21 and full regrets. i wanted to live my life in a certain way but no matter how hard i tried, i couldn’t and i still cant change it, i ended up being lonely and i started thinking about suicide.
my question: When you think about commiting suicide, what are you thinking ? regreting h0w you lived your life ? about the ppl you […]

I dont expect anyone to understand. Im putting a shotgun in my mouth tonight. Im intoxicated and want to wish the world, anyone who cares the best. I wish you never feel the pain of eternal singleness ans the lonely, gut wrenching useless feeling that comes with it. God im actually happy. Freedom at last. Good luck to anyone who reads this. I failed.

Hey guys,

Those of you who know me, know that I’m still a 32 year old virgin trying to find me a proper relationship. My last date was just brutal, but I met a new girl and I’ve been communicating with her via talk and texting and I will be driving down on Saturday to visit her.

I have a really good feeling that it will work this time and I will soon finally have a girlfriend. We have so much in common and want the same things out of life. She wants to wait until we get married before making love so I guess I will […]

I feel as if I’m never enough .. :/ I have no clue why I feel this.. I don’t know how to open up to him.. he’s the sweetest thing.. but i feel as if i don’t treat him right! Gahhh! :'(