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I need this.. I need it.. what is wrong with me? Why do I feel this way? i don’t want to do this anymore..

I’m going to break! Ahh :'( It hurts soooo bad to cry.. like you have no idea.. I feel so depressed today.. ‘down in the dumps’ I can’t take it.. I want to cut.. that’s breaking my 6 month going.. ahh :'( well im gunna..

Yes it was cool at first being the bad boy, the drug dealer, the crazy dude, but now all I am is an addict. I haven’t touched oxy in a month which I guess is good but alcohol is a different story. Every time I go out I have to get drunk, every time I feel sad I have to get drunk, all I do is try to hide my emotions after all I have a reputation to keep and a mask to wear. I guess my problem is no one else cares because I dont care. Im too afraid to admit who I am rather than face who I need to be. I dont know ive jump so […]

I look all around me and all I see is cruelty and suffering. I can’t get these thoughts and images out of my mind. I myself have suffered enough, but nothing compares to the suffering of those that can not help themselves. I am done caring. I am exhausted, I can’t help or make a difference. My heart is dead and can feel no more. Just a shell now, blowing in the winds of a life that has no meaning. No joy or happiness, only pain and fatigue. I feel death breathing on my shoulder. Whispering […]

i’m at an all time low
and yet i’m still sinking
my whole life
has lost it’s meaning.
staring into darkness.
evading all the light.
the demons have me blinded.
the demons took my sight.
Forever sitting
waiting
praying
Oh, God
won’t you save me.
The devil is taking
everything of me.
he muffles all my screams.
no one can hear me.
I am left fearing.
what will become of me.
the demons took my heart.
the demons took my soul.
chopped them up
and put them in a bowl.
sprinkled on some hate.
and then dash of sad.
and they ate it with pitch […]

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It doesn’t matter how we arent friends anymore, but im just thinking about her tonight..and how she texted me one night saying ” ow, glass hurts”. i knew what she meant but i didnt  think much of it because for us, its was a nightly routine. But a couple weeks later she was going on about all her issues and how she attempted suicide. I didnt understand. She always texted me when she hurt hurself but never ever told me she tried to kill herself. I was confused so i asked her when she tried to do it. She said “remember that time i told […]

I talk to much, joke too much, im too honest, i push people away, im too tall, im too skinny, and everyone always finds the need to break me down.

your my brother, I want to see you. I want to hear your voice. I want to hug you, I want know you better. I can’t take only being able to read words. I want to be by your side. I want to go to school, and then come home and tell you all about my day. I want you to tell me you enjoy my company. I want to have silly fights over meaningless things. I want to be with you. I want to run away, I want to run to you, you could adopt me, legally make me your sister. Maybe, just […]

Ok. I know that the title of my post is contradictary to the theme of this site. But I want to say that I haved a fairky happy life. I have had fun. I have loved and I have been loved. Sometimes people just are not made for this life. I have been fortunate enough to experience all the highs and lows of a fairly ordinary life BUT, I just don’t feel like living. I don’t want kids. I don’t want a relationship. As soon as my mother dies there will be nothing stopping me from the only thing I have ever wanted. I appreciate […]

I’m 26 from Newfoundland, Canada. I really need a friend who is suicidal. I seen something about an exit bag? I’m very interested. Assisted suicide by a physcian isn’t legal here and i feel myself closer and closer to killing myself as time progresses and not care how painful it is or risking it being failed and ending up like a vegetable. Please contact me. I am so alone no friends no one seems to be on this level. I knew one girl that went to my high school she told us how she attempted it hs and when we just turned 23 I heard […]

I should be out of bed by now. It’s one in the afternoon, and I have a lot of cleaning I need to do. But no, I’m in bed, wondering why I can’t cry when I feel the sting of should-be tears in my eyes. I’m in bed, reading a depressing book where someone commits suicide and leaves behind a fiancee and an overbearing mother… I’m in bed, wondering how deep I’ll be able to cut without dying. I’m in bed, nauseous from the taste of morning breath, sore from yesterday’s cleaning. I don’t want to live anymore. I have nothing to offer my boyfriend, […]

In the Peaceful Pill Handbook of Philip Nitchke  I’ve read about the Helium Suicide method. The main concern remains about if there will be enough Helium in the Balloon Time containers to last till you die. But what if we fill some enclosed area like Tent with Helium (like a balloon, but instead of balloon it would be a tent) and when tent is full of Helium, stop the flow and enter the tent ?

So you are now in a tent, which is closed and you don’t have to worry that Helium will finish, cause the tent is full of Helium, and as you inhale […]

But I’m too much of a ***** to do it.  I don’t want to die but I feel like I have no other choice.  I’m so fucking miserable.  There has to be more to life than this.  I cry myself to sleep every-night   I pray to a god that doesn’t exist.  Somebody help me.  =(

please see the fuck u have in yourself and please dont force me to study
fuck studies
fuck everyone
fuck books
fuck words
fuck alphabets
fuck numbers