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Today i feel more dead than most days. I took a look in the mirror and didnt even regonize the guy looking back at me. Scruffly beard, messy hair, flabby body. What happened to me and my life? I used to be so outgoing and well groomed. I used to work out everyday and have goals and ambitions. Now i could sit in my room all day and not leave it. Only to come out to eat and use the restroom. Im tired of feeling bad for myself, becasue i feel i should be strong enough to pull out of this…..but on the other hand […]

I just feel lonely. Even in a room filled with people I feel lonely. It’s killing me inside knowing that there’s no one who can really understand me, no one who I can talk to, no one who can be my friend. I’ve read stories of people in their teenage years who had a crisis, but being surounded by people who you know that would hate having someone bisexual around them is devastating. I tried and tried and tried and every goddamn time it’s always the same: nobody to talk to and those who might seem interested turn you down telling me really silly reasons. […]

I am cutting harder and hating life more everyday. I really want to talk to somebody but, i told three of my friend and i told them everything but they havent talked to me since. If i told my family that i think im depressed and how i feel they would probably laugh at me and say that im being dramatic. i know for sure that someday i will kill myself because life is slowly killing me little by little every day. My only dream is to be happy. I try to eat as little as possible and i can barely look at myself in […]

The arguments are all the same; “Someone will miss you.” “You’re important to someone.”

So what? Only the living feel remorse. I won’t care when I’m dead. And eventually all those people will be just as dead and it won’t matter anyways.

I can’t get anything right. I can’t provide for my family. Every attempt at bettering our life ends in crap.

I am sick of the rejection and the constant reminders of how inadequate I am.

I’m sick of being responsible for everyone around me. I can’t carry this burden any longer.

My family wants to leave and the life insurance will get them out of this hell hole. […]

As I’m getting ready for my first therapy session I’m obviously SO NERVOUS! I know I want and need to get better, but new experiences are so hard for me… As I’m thinking this though I’m reading all the texts from friends, family, dance teachers, ext saying how badly they want me to get better & how proud they are already of me for doing this. I’m ready. I’ve gotta go nip this cutting thing in the butt. I need to be happy because I deserve it, everyone deserves to be happy. Wish me luck on this new adventure I’ll call recovery (:

i want to die. Suggest some ways which look

like natural death