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i haven’t actually CUT in a while now and theres a reason for that. it may sound STUPID but it has actually HELPED me. it is all because of CHURCH i recently started to attend church all over again and so far its been the best decision of my life. i NEVER used to go to church and but ever since i have been going it has really helped me not only in the sense it has made me stop cutting but i’m actually becoming more SOCIAL ABLE towards people. i haven even joined our YOUTH group which i used to hate doing but […]
i haven’t actually CUT in a while now and theres a reason for that. it may sound STUPID but it has actually HELPED me. it is all because of CHURCH i recently started to attend church all over again and so far its been the best decision of my life. i NEVER used to go to church and but ever since i have been going it has really helped me not only in the sense it has made me stop cutting but i’m actually becoming more SOCIAL ABLE towards people. i haven even joined our YOUTH group which i used to hate doing but now […]
I want to give up so badly. When I do give up it won’t be sudden or unexpected. It will be slow. Slow and not so brutal. I can’t live with the notion that my father never gave a fuck and lives multiple lives to satisfy his ego. I can live with the fact that someone is always there for me. I can’t live with the fact that I’m such an ungrateful, self-centered ***** that can’t see beyond her own pain and suffering. I probably do deserve this. Then again maybe this whole thing called life never gave me a fair chance. I could argue […]
Only smoke Organic Roll-Your-Own American Spirit without filters tough. I do have a conscience.
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Being completely alone…it sucks. All of my friends have pretty much stopped talking to me, and they never want to spend time with me. In that time, i tried to get closer to my family…but they would rather watch tv than talk to me. I turn 18 next month, and i’m pushing myself to go on, see if anything gets better after i move out and start college. But i doubt things will change. I keep asking myself “What’s wrong with me?”. I’m pushing myself to keep going because i don’t want to be just another teen suicide story. There’s been too many of those. […]
Struggling to stay in this world, like flames on the inside because all i hear is some things that are the opposite of pleasant, everyday i go to school i feel like police cars are having their sirens on, flashlights falshing at me, people staring at me, like it is such a crime that i am even alive, staying in the world is like crushing a can, becuase crushing a can gets hard when you try to keep it straight……….., in the palms of my fingers i feel thumping, like *thump* *thump* *thump*, on the outside you see a smile…, but do you see the […]
Why would you pretend to care for me? Act like you actually liked me.. Dang dude.. You fucked with me.. & It hurt.. Especially not knowing what I did so wrong for you to stop talking to me.. You put my number into your friends phone.. Why? To see how I’m doing? Fuck with you dude! Rog says you stopped talking to me because I’m ‘Different’ … How? I don’t even want to do this anymore.. I can’t stop thinking about you.. You really hurt me & I don’t know if I can except this one.. The pain in my heart is strong this […]
Hi I am new. I am bullied and i have cutted myself before. I know it’s stupid but i never knew people could say mean things and usually mean it. I have cutted myself two times. Once i cutted myself becuase someone said that i was not important. They also said other stuff and i couldnt take the bullying anymore
Imagine somewhere dark.Â
Now imagine yourself in the middle of it.
Imagine yourself in a cell, with no way out.
You’re scraming, you’re crying but no one hears you. There’s no one around you. You’ve pushed away everyone who cared.
Imagine you have no clothes on, you’re naked, there’s nothing protecting you from the cold iron surrounding you. You are powerless.
There’s smoke around you, growing thicker and thicker. It’s dark. It’s feels like darkness’ tendrils. They start surrounding you, not allowing you to move, you are stuck.
Stuck in a cell, not able to move, all by yourself. There’s no strenght left in you, each breath already drains so much […]
I usually find comfort in my depression and am able to go on  but I can’t anymore I’m tired and nothing has gotten better and I don’t feel like putting my energy into things anymore acting like I’m okay and I’m not and I don’t have anybody to talk to that I can truly open up to. I don’t even see the point of trying anymore if  it’s not genuine and I know I’m going to fail.
You all were right. I should’ve made my ‘man’ choose earlier. But I guess it wouldn’t matter anyways. The girl he’s been dating for two years? Apparently they were engaged since September of two years ago. “Fiance Scene” it says on her site.
I’m shaking. I’m so upset, I can’t believe it. Should I believe him?.. Honestly I feel like I really am being strung along now. And like there’s no way out. I passed out my heart way too much. And look what happens. Every single time my heart just breaks a little more. And I think that this guy was my last chance to […]
I’m So Sick Of People Thinking They Know Everything About You. Saying Everything Is Gonna Be Okay But It Really Isn’t!! I’m So Sick Of People Pretending They Care. I’m Sick Of All Of This! I Hate Living In This World With Shitty People. If There Was A Bottle Of Sleeping Pills, I’d Take It With NOOO Hesitation! So Sick Of Living..
Why should i go on?There’s nothing here for me.I don’t help anyone.all i do is hurt everyone. There’s tons of people i know,some of them i even call ”friends”,but if i were to die right this minute,what would those fellas miss?Besides free meals,clean toilets,and entertainment I’m just that girl you invite to your party as eye candy.Fuck that,no thanks.I don’t belong to this world.Oh and as for the boy i spent the last year of my life bending over backwards for to make happy.The one who got me pregnant and left,leaving me to handle the abortion today.alone.Fuck you,sweetheart.And stop antagonizing me,you’re gonna fucking kill me,you […]
The second installment to Notepad, surprisingly. Life has just made a turn for the worse I guess.
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To Whom It May Concern:
I want to die. Suffocate myself with a plastic bag. Shoot myself in the head. Or disappear in the oncoming store and freeze myself.
Because life had just gotten so hard lately. I just feel like it’s time for me to die. Sadly my whole family is currently in the living room, so I can’t do jack about it. But it won’t stop me. Just wait.. Keep waiting… Wait wait wait…
But apparently I’ve always been waiting. So I guess this is just another day in the […]
I like how I can vent about how I’m going to try and suffocate myself tonight. Nobody on here knows who I am. I have the perfect life. Loving family, no real reason to kill myself. Yeah,but I’m delusional. I Am insane. My parents think I’m the happy perfect child with straight A’s but no,I’m not. I have no friends and I barely am able to get up in the morning and go to school another day. I don’t live,I survive. So I decided to die.I’m not sure if ill go to hell or if atheists are right. I’m a very messed up person. My […]
In my family there’s only four. My mother, my father, my sister, and I. Being 10 years apart (my sister and I), I looked up to her, always wanting to be like her, she moved out when she was 18, and I was so excited, and happy for her being independent, and all. Anyways, she moved to a city, we (my father, mother and I) thought she was doing well. She was in Uni, independent, and partying, just like any other young adult, but unfortunatley she was mixing her priorities wrong. Too much partying and not enough studying, lead to her not sending my parents […]
I’ve had depression since I was around 10 years old. My father used to bash me for every little thing, whilst my mother would just sit, watch and laugh. It’s been some years now, my parents did however get better, BUT that’s only after I finally grew the courage to tell the police, anyways just two days ago, I celebrated my 19th birthday, I thought about killing myself at the end of the night, but couldn’t mostly because 3 of my friends were with me till morning. Anyways, I try to move on, every day, but the memories always haunt me, and it’s not only […]
So I’ve started with medication since thursday. I take Rubió (better known as Ritalin or methylphenidate/MPH/MPD) 5mg twice a day (at 8.30 am and at 12.30 pm) always after my meal. But since thursday I feel really sick. My stomach hurts (not my belly, but my tummy) and my intestine also, it feels like it’s kind of restless. I also feel the whole time like I have to vomit. I only eat my breakfast and lunch and dinner, and take my medication after my meals. I have a very bad headache and I’m scared that I can pass out every minute. Does anybody here have […]