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My parents divorced when I was around 3. Im 13 now rly shy towards anybody but my family. Hate school. Parents always taking their anger out on me. It just suks

I don’t know how much longer I can do this. My first attempt was 2 years ago. Everything is so overwhelming and I want to try again right now, but what if I survive? I don’t want my therapist to leave and I probably wouldn’t see my cat for a while. Not to mention my parents would be distraught. What’s the point anymore? I have no one in my life to talk to (except my therapist) and I have no motivation to even try to get better. Someone help me :(.

hmm.. Can someone talk t me

I was born January 24th 1992 to two loving parents. When I was 3 years old my mother decided she wanted to become sober, I assume from seeing how much my father drank and from how often he supposedly was never home. She started going to AA and did become sober, when my father was asked to do the same he wouldn’t do it. A year goes by of my father not being home and always being at the bar, needless to say she filed for divorce. My parents got divorced when I was 4 years old, “Oh your parents got divorced? My parents were […]

I want to die.
Tonight seems like a good time.

im not ginna lie i think about suicide.everysecond of the day. until recently ive never fantisized about killibg everyone i hate on earth.  no i dont hate anyone. in actuality i understand them.i always have. i just hate how no one understands me. i feel somewhat special how i am certain i am the only one who feels this particlular way in life. although i wish my kind easnt so godamn rare ! i hobeslty dont feel there is anything wrong with me. just the entire world is(im convinced) in a conspiracy against.me. i literally suck at almost everything if god is real he is […]

Im going crazy. I can feel it. I know it. I wanna cut all the time and there’s no explanation for the dreams I’ve been having. It’s 12:22am and I am terrified to go to sleep. I don’t want to dream. I have  the visual playing over in my head when I should be doing something important. What’s happening to me?

I think part of me will always be waiting for you. no matter how hard I try and forget you. I fail at all costs it hilarious because every time I start to get over you. for some reason out of the blue you come back around and make me fall for you all over again. I haven’t seen you for a while but I miss you more than you know. I miss seeing you everyday because every time I saw you I got this feeling that was unexplainable, a feeling like no other. I cant do it anymore because I don’t want to […]

Still missing her.

Often think allot about ending it all but,im 36 y.o. and i think about all ive been through and ive made it this far (its a miracle) why not hang around for a bit longer.

Get out.

its an illusion. we will never have it.

Gay. Freak. Weirdo. Im afraid to go out in public now, because i can see and hear everyone laughing at me, calling me names. Im used to this, but before i had friends. I have no friends now. My friends dont think about me anymore since i moved schools, they have new, better, cooler friends to hang out with now. But i have no friends at my new school either. Starting from my first day there, they started judging me. They decided that apparently i was ‘gay’. I have no idea where they got this from, but people just in public seem to think the […]

Worried that if I tell him how I really feel he’ll commit me again. Not that he’s ever committed me before, but he came really close once. I spent a couple weeks in a hospital end of last year. I think some people at work figured it out, but only my manager seriously questioned me. I don’t trust her, so I only told HR what I needed to and nothing more. Definitely not the attempt.

So, for work’s sake at the very least, I want to stay out, even though I think I hate my job. Although, I’m not entirely sure it’s my job I hate. […]

This sucks. You love someone so much and they just hurt you, and you forgive them, and they do it again, so you forgive them and it happens again! Why do I have to be such a hopeless romantic. I wish I was one of those strong woman who don’t believe in love. Who can be on there own. But I am so damn needy. I can’t even sleep alone. I’m pathetic.

What you guys think about me, each other, and this site. Care to share?

– I am aware I’m probably just giving the people what they want by doing this, but oh we’ll.

I mention a few people in my post here but I talked to a lot more people and I have a lot more people that I hold admiration for. I also wrote this a while ago and it’s incomplete, but I think it serves as a basic goodbye. Anyone I email then I will email. I have to go away from this website now forever or for a long time, and if I return it’ll probably be under a similar username. There are problems and stress […]

Just tired and annoyed.  Getting sick of shit