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Does anyone else feel this way?

by kmahon
written by kmahon

I don’t care if I die? Like, I’m actually looking forward to it and currently don’t care about anything anymore because I know I will be gone soon. I don’t take pleasure in anything. Not the thought of maybe one day getting married or having children. Not even the thought that MAYBE one day I will be happy. That just doesn’t appeal to me, I would rather just sleep even if there is hope for me. I’ve given up looking to try and fix myself. It’s all a waste of energy.

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15 reasons

by passionfruit3
written by passionfruit3

reasons for doing this
1. Im addicted to trying to hurt myself
2.I have loads of pills its to hard to get rid of them.At at least for me.
3. Im pretty sure nothing will come of it anyway. After all ive attempted suicide more times than can count and a lot of the times i was never admitted for treatment.
4. Ive been very scared lately of death which is very ironic.But the point is i dont want to be around without the people i love.I dont want to feel the emotional pain of loss.
5 I cant survive on my own.One of my […]

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Ever downward dive, drowning in endless sky

by DownwardDive
written by DownwardDive

When I was a kid I used to climb rocks and mountains, this one time I slipped and was hanging on the edge of a rock, the fall would have certainly resulted in my demise. I was scared, but then I looked down and for some reason I felt more alive there hanging so close to death. I felt so much life in me on that cliff.
10 years latter, I have finished my education, a bachelors degree and latter a masters degree in computer science and with good grades. I have a pretty decent job. I have pretty much accomplished what ever I was […]

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in the middle

by memyselfandi
written by memyselfandi

I personally have allways been in “the middle”. as the second of three child in my family makes me the middle child. i’m not thin, but i’m not fat. i’m middle. every thing i do i end up in the middle. always. it is living hell. for example, this xmas, while my brother and sister got their own iphone’s which the had wish for, i got nothing i had wish for. i got a pc. im not saying that they don’t give stuff. and that their beeing total crap. it is the fact that they dont listen to me. never. even when we’re planning dinner […]

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Christmas Eve Party

by Abselom
written by Abselom

I’m stuck here at my dads fiances house for the day to have a Christmas party. It’s just kinda awkward and I have been coming down from smoking earlier this morning. I just want/ need something to do, someone to talk to so I don’t have to sit here awkwardly all day. Really just want to go smoke and come back and eat them go the hell home to watch tv and sleep.

 

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My Story…

by Demmissio
written by Demmissio

Lets see how much of this I can say without crying…

When I was 3 I moved from Michigan to Indiana because my parents got divorced. My mother immeadiatly got custody of me and my bother and sister. 3 years later my dad got remairred to a woman named Stephanie. She was nice most of the time, some of the time she was just awful. When my dad was gone she would scream and throw things. She secretly hated my father. All she wanted was a baby, but he couldn’t give her that. We all knew about this, but he never realized it. One night, […]

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by Flawed
written by Flawed

Believe me, I know about importance of life. How many cries echoed near the dead bodies of beloved ones? How many deals were made in desperation?

But somehow, against all my laws and rules of my family, sometimes I want to break myself, like toy soldier.

I thought that whining about how screwed up your life is – cowardliness and weakness, if you don’t have enough reasons to complain. If you’re alive, your family and friends is okay, then it’s fine. Even if there’s a little flaw somewhere in the basement.

I wish I could talk about anything about fear of being a burden. But I can’t. I […]

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A Dark Land

by jaikty
written by jaikty

Every where i go,
death follows me,
his accomplice on his shoulder,
waiting for a feed.

The blood raven calls,
“your soul is mine to keep.”
my heart grows cold,
and my eyes begins to weep.

Infected with a darkness that none can understand,
death offers me asylum in a dark and foreign land,
a land full of souls, just as lost as mine
stuck in the dark for an endless lenghth of time

The raven calls again.
“Please accept our offer, friend,
you’ll be with your own till the passage of time ends.”
And with that final word, they return to their land.

The offer on the table and […]

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“I’m Sorry” Letters

by wally8
written by wally8

Oh, what a mess.  I spent the last 10 hours crafting letters for various folk in my life.  All are full of apologies, reasons why I decided to end before my natural time, all of them include broad strokes leading up to my current condition and one letter is more specific indicting named individuals of serious criminal activities, which, in part, is responsible for my decision.   Is this a cheap way to go?  I don’t have the strength or interest to pursue justice in a normal setting, but the notion of cleaning my slate with hard facts and home truths is rather morbidly appealing….. Or […]

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Failed Again

by strangemusic
written by strangemusic

I failed again last night. I’m only happy no one knows. I’ve got very few choices left. They’re so fuckin’ elaborate, and I’m so tired. The whole week I’ve been watching  the same movie over and over again. I hate myself for that. I used to love it, now I can’t comprehend it. It’s surprising how things reverse. Always for the worst.

Not to forget, merry Christmas to everyone.

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Dear Santa …

by sansesperer
written by sansesperer

I know I’ve been a bad boy this year. This will be the 36th year in a row I’ve been a bad boy. As such, I’m not expecting you to fulfil any of my Christmas wishes this year. That’s not going to stop me from asking, so I fully expect you to read my list and then deliver absolutely nothing.

All I want for Christmas is:
– to be left alone,
– to not have to be forced into socialising with people I don’t much care for,
– separation from my spouse,
– to not have to listen to any fucking Christmas music … Jesus Christ, […]

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the problem is

by passionfruit3
written by passionfruit3

Its been a moment and since i didnt go to group tonight i figured i would talk here.A couple weeks ago i learned i would be getting a new therapist.I learned i would no longer be with the program ive been with.Now id been depressed before this over my lack of future and because ive been in pain and the doctors cant figure whats wrong with me.Well they kind of think they have but my pain continues.And it bugs.
I bought a bunch of sleeping pills to end my life the day after Christmas.The problem is i dont feel like doing it much anymore. Things […]

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I Want to Disappear, But I Can’t Kill Myself

by daisy88
written by daisy88

I understand that killing myself would leave a lot of people pretty messed up for the rest of their life, not to mention my two little dogs would never have the dream life I want for them (to one day be frolicking free in beautiful gardens etc.) 

My little brother died a year ago just days before his 21st birthday. It was technically an accident but I think it was more. I understand that when YOU die, YOUR pain might end, but then it just spreads to everyone else who survives you to last with them for the rest of their life… […]

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Should I?

by Demmissio
written by Demmissio

I want to put my whole like life story on here, but I don’t think anyone would care. There are so many things I have never shared with anyone, and I want to get them out. I don’t think anybody would listen though.

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merry fucking christmas

by imsodone12
written by imsodone12

so this weekend I’m at my dads for Christmas. i love my dad but i don’t really love the new family. my 7 year old stepsister has got to be the most annoying person i have ever met. last night she cried because no one would tuck her into bed. today she cried because i wouldn’t give a fucking cupcake at 10:30 at night. and my mom asked us to come to this church thing. i went and i went to go talk to my friends. then i get yelled at later for ‘deserting them.’ if they wanted me to sit with them they should […]

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save the date

by scopulus
written by scopulus

Alright guys I’ve picked out my date Jan fourth, I can finally just slip away I unfortunately had to set it further off then I would have liked but I didn’t want to inconvenience my family or make their holidays worse but I’m pretty stoked I’m gona go pick some razors up and grab a few bottles of hard liquer while I visit family in Michigan. I never have to See the age of 20 now which I also good news anyways wish me luck or something ehh but you guys probably got to put up with me for a bit longer again I wish […]

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Hell

by I.cant.breathe!
written by I.cant.breathe!

free me. save me. release me from the cell. you say if i die i will go to hell. well life is a *****, so i dont give a shit i’d prefer to see where the demons dwell. i dont want to hear it. dont want to hear you plead. “your life is to precious, just listen to me!” i’ve listened before and it turned out as lies, your words are just tricks put in disguise. so goodbye ill die and never come back. seeing your faces will surely make me laugh.

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How can I do this?

by mimi2012
written by mimi2012

I want to end my life. I see no other way of resolving my problems. I’m a burden to my partner and he no longer loves me, he no longer wants to see me, or even discuss anything with me about anything.

I want this to be with minimum impact to my children (10, 8, 7 yrs old). I want to get my finances in order and get my legal affairs sorted and I want to plan my own funeral. How do I do this the most efficient way?

I dont want it to be a shock either, is there anything that can make me ill and […]

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