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I haven’t shared to much about my past. But all I’m going to say is… my father died almost two years ago. He was an alcoholic. He died because of it. I know your pain. I’ve known that pain far too long. So if you ever want to talk, maybe Ill share my story and we can gain a better understanding together.
i have realized that I don’t cutbecause I bite my nails. But when I bite my nails I do it until my do gets are raw and my cuticuls  are bleeding…its my innocent looking way of cutting
About three years ago, I tried to off myself, I had come home from school that day, and when I got there I told my grandparents I was going to take a bath, so I went to the bathroom and started the water. I had made the water super hot, and I got out my razor, I had soon after used my razor to carve into my arms and legs, I loved the pain and the thought of death that came after, but then I got thinking and I realized that, I had to stay so I could help my family and my friends, […]
I know I’m gonna get judged for this,but I’m a drug-addict and have been for 20 odd year. Because i’m a heroin addict its impossible to get help for my depression,which was there before I got into heroin at the age of about 18. I started off with the usual recreational party drugs,but quickly descended into harder drugs and its ruined my whole life..
I am now 36,I was of all drugs for 11months a few years ago but stupidly ended up back on them. I started self-harming when i was 14,went right of the rails etc.
I’ve now got to the point I don’t want to […]
The pain doesn’t get better. Each day, my suffering seems to increase. I feel like a ghost walking through my life, I don’t know if anyone sees me or not, I feel invisible. I avoid talking to people for fear of frightening them with the truth… if they listen to me, or look into my eyes, they might see what I try to conceal; anguish and loneliness at the threshold of becoming more than any human being could possibly bear.
Last night, I cried for hours, and fell asleep imagining the instant relief of being hit head-on by a fast-moving train.
I feel alone :/
empty…
I went to my GP today, he directly sent me to the psychiatrist institution, and they have talked to me. In about 2 months there will be a spot for me… till then I have to suck it up. I’m glad there is a solution, finally. The GP said I probably have Borderline…
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Dawn
my meds give me the shakes and its driving me crazy!
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I got in a fight last night with my parents again. I’m a brat.. im a ***** the worst daughter in the world. I had a migrane cause my dad keeps FAILING to give me my meds on schedule and since theirs 22 of them starting and stopping them has major side affects. I fell asleep on the couch. After waking up at 11pm i stood up to fix the pillows. And my my mom snapped saying i needed to clean them and what not.
I told her i just got up to do that and […]
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I don’t really care what people look like. Ugly people have every right to happiness and success as the beautiful, but I don’t feel that way about myself. I have not been able to look in mirrors since 2002. I’m so fat and ugly and I want  to die. I will never be able to accomplish anything good in my life and I will only get uglier as I get older. But how do I do it? I need it to be painless and it must be successful.
I have always felt ugly since at least 8 years old. I remember getting in trouble at school […]
Just being there for someone can sometimes bring hope, when all else seems hopeless.
For as long as I remember, the darkness has been a comfort and a haven to me, my only one really, when I was little I never crawled in my Mums bed. I never had a nightmare when I slept in the dark. It’s tranquil and still, I knows some people are afraid of the dark and I know there are reasons for that.
I think the dark holds no terror for me because I always carry a little of the shadow with me, granted sometimes it’s a real ***** to manage and sometimes I break down but the dark is always there in the […]
Before you Fade – MissCMF
© Copyrighted December 2012
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Let the light wash over you, don’t let it take you
The darkness is fine; it’ll be your friend
Out of the rotting corpse in this world
Only the pure ones clean ones have their end
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You might be scared; its path is whole and true
Keep to the path and nothing will happen to you
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Listen to the wolf cry, don’t be afraid
Nothing can hurt you if you don’t betray
Let you emotions flow out; let your soul be saved
Let the darkness take your soul, before you fade
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Can someone tell me if you can understand this? It’s the way I think, the way I want to speak but I don’t know if the school would understand this…
Darkness and despair let me be, out of the corpses that rot, only the pure are safe, without the addition of imperfections to world, and how can the light succeed the dark when the dark is the beauty and ghostliness of the world.
The darkness is in the light, waiting to strike to save souls but also the light is in the dark waiting to ruin the times of the pure, turning them away from what they […]
I actually took advice… I seeked help
I have wanted to die for the past several years that I can remember. Not as much for the reason of hating life; moreso the desire for all the pain around me to stop.
A sum up.. I grew up with a family who abused drugs and alcohol. Never had a real parental figure that helped me distinguish “right or wrong” or even a good sense of morals. I have had multiple relationships but all ended badly. I blame myself moreso because my first ever love had committed suicide when we were 16.
With that and a whole lot more that […]
I just watched a movie someon told me about… It`s called The Suicide Room. It isn`t in english but it is a good movie.
I have a project in Health. We have to explain to the class and teacj them about our “Positive Coping Skill”. It`s funny becuse the first thing that popped into my mind was me walking up in front of the class and saying in a teacherly voice “Hello Class! Today we will leaarn how to cut our selves!!!” All happy and fake.
I was reading some things, and they made sense. There was one were these people were living in a man vs. […]
Late at night, at around 12 A.M. he heard light pitter patter along the halls of the SP House. Nate heard a crash around his door then a paper slipped into his room and then the pitter patter disappeared into the distance. Getting off his bed, he got the note and put it into his pocket. Knowing who it was from, he moved to the lounge.
Hooded figures entered the room, mysteriously late at night. Looking into the room, he saw puppet, as he called himself, leave the room with a hint of sadness. Sitting down at the table, she looked at him and mouthed “please […]
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