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someone on SP once told me that love was just the comfort of understanding someone who also understands you…
i’m sick of nobody understanding
nobody understands at all
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I have a learning disability and right now I’m attending a university. I did the best I can to do well in school. Sadly, seems like I was not smart enough for anything. Thus, I need to end this life. I will miss my parents and my siblings, but I’m a complete failure. I did the best I can in school. I study every day and never play video games much. I know its wrong for me, but the student loans and my failure makes me want to escape this cursed world. I was not meant to be born in this world. There had to […]
In both cases, I have many secrets. Many told and twisted, others kept in shame. I could make this post very long and quite wordy; however, I will leave out as much shame as necessary. First off, everything in my life seems perfect. Too perfect. I have a great husband, great dogs, house paid off, little debt, and all of the other “blessings” we all find in this world. We live a quite normal life, as much as we can anyways. But, I am still sad..all of the time. Over and over, I think about how much I should not be sad, should know my […]
i feel like im going in inase i keep on talking to myself and im getting crept out by my self. im trying so hard to be HAPPY again for the first time in a really long time but its so hard. so my mom made me practice a 10 sencond part for 10 minutes because SHE didnt thinkit was good enough and tonight i was doing a project on her laptop adn she keept on bugging in adn tellling me what to do!!!! i am so close to a breakdown right now i literally have tears in my eyes while im writing this. i […]
The feeling that things could not possibly get worse. When you are not even as much depressed as you are angry. When you feel like destroying something and throwing things around. When you sit in class and it takes all the energy you can possibly muster to not scream or have a mental breakdown. Where you are desperately trying to just stay sane. That’s where I am now. I’m trapped. And they all hate me.
This is my very first post on here, and I want to tell you my story..
My name is Emily and I’m a Freshman at High School. Everything seems to be going good so far, It’s an all-girl school so we never judge each other and I’ve made many new friends. Although, it wasn’t always this good. Truth is, I can’t stand my family.. My mother is just that type of person that is hard to love, she’s stubborn and very bossy. My older sister isn’t much better. She’s the cause of all of my problems. From six grade, she would always call me names and […]
Well i want to kill myself. Its been that way for a few years and i mad 1 attempt so far (not recently). If been abused a little as a child, my parents divorced due to my dads drug addiction when i was in 4th grade. I never had a single friend till sophomore year in high school. Every one hated me even tho i was the quiet sit in the corner kid. I was extreamly bullied till high school. The reason im still here is because the 1st friend i made in high school made me think that life is worth living. Eventually i […]
So many nice people here. Sympathetic and caring. Everyone here has obviously gone through their own hell. But does me posting something here affect anything? Honestly… everyone here posts about their problems, then instantly there are comments of encouragement… I honestly don’t need some empty words from someone who doesn’t even know me. All you will do is say “aww thats too bad blah blah blah” then move on to the next life story and say simliar shit. Like my suicide will be your sick source of entertainment for a few minutes. Am I expected to not think about how your attention is divided between […]
I hate my life, I’m failing all my classes. Â I don’t think I will be able to go to a university anymore. Â My teachers yelled at me for getting such low marks and I’m extremely down. Â I just want to end my life right here, right now, because I can’t take this anymore. Â I GOT A C+ on my tests BOI! A C+! Unbelievable! Â Tears started to flow down my eyes from the shock of receiving that letter grade. Â My heart was completely crushed on the inside and I felt like I was worthless. Â I just want to end my life because I think I’m […]
First post here. Male, 20 years old,brazilian, never satisfied, always have something to complain about. I have a boyfriend (do I have to say I’m gay?) but can’t say I’m in love. Can’t say I’m not either. This is me, it seems I never have the appropriate feelings. I don’t get along well with my family, I only have virtual friends and can’t say things about how I really feel.
I’m in college, living alone, don’t have friends in my class. I just can’t communicate to people. Seriously, when my boyfriend isn’t in the city I’m living (he goes to college in another one) , I […]
I think I’m drowning myself. I keep pushing myself backward. Every time I shove myself forward four steps, I fall backwards nine. I convince myself to do something and all I see in myself in the mirror is self-hate. I went out to a prayer group tonight, and by the end of the group I was already back to hating on myself. I have no self-esteem. I think I am worth nothing. I don’t want to exist anymore. There are moments when I think that maybe I shouldn’t kill myself, but mostly I just want to end my life. Then I come on SP and […]
haven’t posted on here in forever but I guess that’s good. I don’t know.
This one guy who I had a thing for last year but never really talked to (it’s a rather long story) well he sits a few seats over from me at lunch. and my friend spilled my water all over and he was cleaning it up and the guy asked me if I was going to use my paper bag (don’t ask me how that would help clean up the mess I really don’t know.) then he quickly added “I mean besides suffocating yourself. I know you want to kill yourself […]
And the girl said I really like you
and depression said no she doesnt nobody likes you dont trust her
and the guy said I like you too
and the girl said I dont like you
and the blade said i can make you smile.
Would anyone care? If I were to kill myself? Would anyone? I feel like no one would. Scratch that. I KNOW, no one would care.
And knowing no one would care sucks.
It makes me feel worthless and empty.
Unwanted, and useless.
Stupid and ugly.
Lifeless and uncaring.
No one would care.
And thats why I must go.
It’s finally time.
Today was ok school went by like normal kids being harsh and judging others on things they know nothing about. Get home its fine…until dad comes home and him and mom start. Money, money, money thats all its ever about with him, then he takes his anger out by screaming and ordering me to do everything he doesn’t want to. Got in trouble for eating again so maybe i just will stop eating tomorrow…really need someone right now feel so alone…
I’m 16 and a junior at high school.  I have been suicidal for a long time and I have yet to talk to anyone about it. I used to do terrible things to my friends and family. I would lie, cheat, and steal from them. I don’t know why i did it but i did. I realized that it was bad and I stopped. I’m better and happier.
Just recently I heard my friends talking about themselves and saying that their fat and that they need to lose weight. It didn’t used to affect me but I started to believe it. Me  being a thicker and wider person i thought ” well if […]
Today I took approximately 20 extra strength acetaminophen, 10-15 regular advil, 2 extra strength liquid gell advil, and 2 extra strength liquid gel midol. How long will it take me to at least get sick? I had a awful head ache for like an hour after taking it all but other then that nothing has happened..
Everytime I get with my friends, they start to “joke” around me. They would insult me or say something about me. It really hurts even though they are do not mean it. But sometimes, I feel like they do mean it. When they say something like “you suck at everything” and say it is a joke, I feel like they really me that I suck at everything. They would also get angry with me if I get confused or suck at playing a sport (I’m male). I don’t fight back because I really don’t think that adding fuel to the fire helps. They already […]
Hi there.I’m a girl with an ambition to be a listening ear for any one who needs it.I promise to check my email every single day.It’ll be no problem helping.My email is shanecia.anthony@gmail.com
Fuck this. I’m done. I ruin EVERYTHING. I should just go die. NOW.