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My life was perfect, I had it planned out until I was 100 yrs old. I found the perfect guy, the perfect house, I made myself the perfect person..then, he cheated on me…I moved to Canada to marry him & there I met his mistress. She was nothing like me. She was tattoo’d & brash. Terrible language, rude, un-kept. What in the world did he see in her? So, I left him, came back to America to re-start my life but there is nothing in life for me here anymore. I hate myself. I hate where I’m living, I hate the people around me. I […]

can anyone help me tell my parents that i think i have recurring deprresion and sucidial thoughts i feel like if i do that they will think im crazy or screwed up. please help

I just wanted to write in response to your “not posting here anymore” post..

And just know that you’re not alone.. Theres always somebody here for you.. And you’ll find them by not looking for them, but by them finding you.

Im tired of trying.im tired of being “perfect”.”im tired of dance</3.Im tired of my family.Im tired of my everything” But the most of tired of is my life.

i cant handle it they keep doing more and more to me at lunch i was eating and someone threw food at me :'( adn guesse what that someone use to be my bestfriend adn the worst part of that all was i saw my ex looking at me with sadness in his eyes but he didnt do anything he just stared.</3

I am going to flunk out.

I suck at dance.

i am so fucking ugly

im done thats it i […]

im never posting on here again…

Haven’t been on since Lucy4 was beinq well herself towards me.People I’m on suicide forum so why In the hell do you care about my qrammer?Did I mention that I don’t want to live anymore?So yeah everytime Lucy4 finds It necessary to say do you fear the letter g.First of all arn’t you Shaolin qumby?You know that asshole that says the exact same thinq you say to me.After the thinqs you said to me on Teenqirl’s post,I couldn’t take It anymore.I cried.I cried cause you won’t leave me the fuck alone!!!Even tho Teenqirl makes me want to live,you made me realize that It’s just not […]

Allowing myself to drink a little is probably not the best way to make choices. But its been another one of those nights. The kind you find yourself reading the back of prescription bottles, and the kind where you mosey on over to Suicide Project and look for someone hurting who can be helped..

In this case all I have reverted to was reading the suicide letter I wrote over a year ago tucked under my bead. Still there, still unchanged.. Still reads…

“I want to thank everyone for the world they’ve built around me. And unfortunately its not a world in which I feel ever had […]

Everyday.

Everyday I feel like giving up.

Why don’t I just give up right now?

Because,

Something, or someone’s holding me back.

Who? Or What?

That’s a good question..

That I wish I knew I had the answers to.

Does anyone know how to contact “foreverasleep”?  Their last post didn’t seem too healthy.  If anyone knows them personally, please contact them and tell them that some of us ” DO notice” when they leave and would prefer that they return to discuss other possible options, because I don’t think that any of us had a chance to say our “proper goodbyes” and perhaps pleads for the reconsideration of their future actions.

I’m broken.

I can’t be fixed.

A girl can only take so much..

I can only take so much.

I’ve had enough.

I want to give up.

But I have to stay strong.

For my family & My friends.

It doesn’t just affect us. It affects everyone around us.

So i had a boyfriend. i was only 12 going on 13 at the time and was not thinking straight. we started dating when i moved back from texas and this is what happened. So i had alll my friends over for a welcome home party and everything was going amazing but one thing. my best friend gina was depressed because her and her boyfriend broke up, but the thing is she broke up with him. i was playing around and started to flirt with him not thinking anything was going to get serous till my friend emily stepped in and say we should date. […]

This is a trailer for a movie that is free on netflix.  I just finished watching it and I would recommend it to family, friends, anyone.

I’m seeking a little gang on here I was talking with a couple of Saturdays ago. One was name Ratkity and she was a scientist and was having trouble with her medications. I am the one who was having surgery on my ankle. I’d love to chat with you again if you happen to see this. This site is one of the craziest to navigate I’ve ever seen. Anyway Ratkity, hopefully you will see this at some point, I’ll try again tomorrow if you don’t. Maybe we can set to exchange emails or something….I can’t keep up with the […]

Night is rapidly falling upon me. My night is here.  My thoughts are shaking in the dark. Here is my dilemma.  I guess it’s not really a game of russian roulette when you load the gun completely. Maybe if it doesn’t go off in my head the first time, I’ll take that as a sign and as another chance for another day to live.

I hate when evangelical christians and their political allies say that they are      pro-life.If a person says they are pro-life he or she should work dilligently to make this fuck-up world better for the rest of us.

lately all i can think of our positive scenerios..which is a good thing duh! but then why? im a negative person thoughXD my life is hella negative..some positives of course but it really sucks. so here is my idea? i live? i die? one positive and one negative. which one is which? who knows. some say death is positive some say its negative. thats not the point. then what is? thats up to YOU. if we all live? look at what we learned? A LOT! if we all die? what did we learn? we learned we had ENOUGH and we took a stand and put […]

i am going to go take those pills i am going to soon. after our last volleyball game. i am going to i have no purpose anymore