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talked it over and decided it was a good idea to get some outside help for a few days. Â I’ll probably be off the grid. maybe it will help…maybe at least get some sleep.
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The scar as dark as a bruise, been burnt so deep to the skin.
Left is a mark forever, to haunt is a feeling within.
This memory with sudden pain is this scar that I can not hide.
All that I can remember is being alone with no one by my side.
So this scar seeks its own attention people see its not my fault they care.
But this scar is a burden forever because forever it will always be there.
But the scar does remind me of this no matter where I may be.
This scar is Bold […]
Hello. I am 15 years old boy, already depressed from life.
I am sad person.I dont have any friends… I had one but he betrayed me in the most cruel and obnoxious way..My parents are poor and so is my life. I tried to make friends but I couldnt, all of them felt my sadness and rejected me….. Should I suicide?
How should I do it? reply please..
Me and my friend gabby have decided today that we are going to kill ourselves. We dont know when but we both are going to go together. We just feel that no one cares enough and that no once would mind if we were gone. My boyfriend would but i barely see him anymore and being away from him is killing me but just incase someone reads this after i die.. he is not the reason for my final act. if anything he kept moving the date farther and farther forward. I just feel like i cant see a future with me in it. almost […]
I unambivalently want to die. I’m 32. I’m getting married in five days. I have been diagnosed with a mood disorder as well as a personality disorder. I have sacrificed so many things on the altar of mental illness: serious relationships, a career, contact with family, financial stability, dignity. Few people know how horrible I feel most of the time. I work in the mental health field & should take better care of myself. I don’t take any meds or do many of the things that I could do to help myself feel better. Sometimes I think that I’ve become so inured to the pain associated […]
i am alone. All my friends dont understand why i come in to school everyday with a new scar, or always hide my arms. my dad saw one and said “Come on now, your nearly 17. dont be starting “that shit” “.
that shit? that shit ruins my life, it hurts, and i like it when it hurts. im punishing the outside for what its doing to the inside. but you know what, go fuck yourself. be happy with your comfortable life and ill float through mines wishing every day that it was my very fucking last. im tired of being here, im tired of being […]
I dont cut. thinking about it. I dont do any self-harm. i think about it. a lot. I only attempted suicide once. I took a whole pill bottle of idk what. but i failed and just got super sick. i felt like dying. wish i did. Let me go.
I messed up so many times with the same damn people. They once cared for me. I ruined their love and care for me. I hurt them, let alone, myself. I lost what i had. I dont deserve anybody in my life, therefore i should be alone. I hide EVERYTHING behind a joke and i’ve been considering that I AM A JOKE. I already been told that i should “die already!” by my own sister. She hates me because i joke too much. I hate how i am. I am untalented, hopeless, useless, unsmart, and worthless. I am NO advantage to anyone, not even my family. […]
here i am. holding scissors. i have just gone through my pencil case for the 2nd time looking for something sharper to cut with. what’s wrong with me? i wasn’t like this a week ago.
Hey. I’m the Knight of Flowers. I’m Hungarian, 23 years old and have a great job which comes with superb salary. My problem is I can’t stop thinking about who I was: a f’in poor guy who worked for anybody just to earn the money to pay the rent, buy some food. Now I’m rich but I don’t want to be successful because there are people starving or get killed for no reason. Wait, there is a reason: human’s cruelty. We live in a world where most people are evil, only act when their action results in benefits. You can be lucky, have a great […]
Just read an article about this guy daveonwheels. David Rose. Very inspirational.
Today I felt so alone
No one around to call my own
I weep I plead I cry I bleed
All I want is someone to love
Someone to hold me
Someone to trust
But it’s okay I’m used to the feeling
The life I hold I can feel it ending
I cut all night and just can’t sleep
That last cut comes down way to deep
The scarlet blood trickles down and hits the floor
It keeps coming more and more
This time I failed once again
I lost my hope I lost my plan
My plan to leave this hatred place
This dream of mine […]
Im fighting a losing battle.. And im tired of fighting 🙁
So we are all on here for a reason right? Right. Either we are thinking of suicide or know some one who offed themselves. Or those random oh so kind hearted strangers who just want to help those of us who feel alone (how nice)..not. Im here because every day i want to die. I want to fell the way it feels to take a last breath. I want to look death in the eye and greet him with a smile. I need more time to build up the courage to pull the trigger. When the bullet and my temple finally meet as forbiden lovers.
I’ve felt this way before…a few times. Â maybe more than a few. Â sobbing uncontrollably with no tears to show for it. Â or tears streaming profusely with a face as calm as death. Â my insides are heavy and hurt. my feelings raw and burn. Â it will take as long as it takes, i am just so sick of enduring it. Â it could take weeks, i wish I wasn’t alone in this room.
anyone needs to talk? i’m here 🙂
and if you’re hesitant, thinking you don’t want to burden me, then trust me, it helps me too. it gives me something to think about.
There comes those points in your life where you just want to walk away from it all. When you feel like you’re nothing, like you have nothing, like you are worthless, when you have no one. You just want nothing to do with anyone, or anything. You just want to leave it all. You want to go away to where you can be perfect and no one will judge you. There’s times you want to just take everything back, every mistake you’ve made, you just want to take it all back. Yeah, we are humans, we make mistakes. But there’s those mistakes you know you […]
I’m lost. What do I do now?
I am scared.
I’m lost.
I never knew it would get this hard.
When you get that evil person who is out to get you.
And destroy’s your happiness.
Every ounce of happiness I had. Was lost.
Now I’m lost.
I’m in a dark room.
I can’t find the light.
I can’t escape it.
Wouldn’t someone like to help me..
Mom?
Dad?
Grandma?
Family?
Best friends?
How can they help me?
I’m not willing to let anyone in.
I can’t let anyone in.
All people are good for now, is judging me, hurting me, leaving me.. and putting me down.
It’s like I’m a worthless piece of trash.
I see the blood running.
I don’t even flinch at the pain.
The pain […]
I don’t know what to do, this year is the worst thing to ever happen to me. My so called bestmates turned on me. I’m over feeling like I’m not good enough for anything anymore. it’s like I get happy and somes like shes happy lets ruin it!
I haven’t posted in awile as i don’t like bothering people about my proplems but if I could get any advis i would greatly aperachate it.My “down fall” of this year and my recent mental breakdowns have made me result to an almost errrie feeling i used to have when thouse thoughts enter your head.You know the one’s that weigh you down and the one’s they clame antidepressents can help with but even i myself amit i’am no role moddle for having a 215 medical marajuanna for my depression and isomia.
I guess i’ll start with October 27th of last year becouse that’s when I first […]