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If i die today…no one will notice…not my friends not my family..no one. Maybe they will when they want to use me or blame me….
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I have this rising urge to kill myself. I have a BA in English, I have a job, I’m in good health, I have friends, I come from money, and I have a loving family, so why do I want to kill myself? Good question. Lately when I let my mind wander my thoughts often turn to the concept of impressions. We all come across a certain way to people which means we all have unique character traits. It seems to me that my only character trait is that I am unlikeable. No matter what I do, and no matter how hard I try, people […]
Some people on here may know me.
if I just disappeared? Would anyone try to find me, or would they just continue on with their lives? It doesn’t matter anyway. I’ve been long gone.
I have become cynical about my own sadness now. I don’t believe it any more and I tell myself it’s just a lie and block it all out, that I’m feeding it by thinking about it. And it works, it really works. Not thinking about it makes it feel like it’s not there at all and makes me feel better, so much better. But if it’s so easily healed, I question its existence in the first place. And if it never existed, I’m just another pathetic teenager using sadness and feeding it as an excuse to avoid life. And that both scares me because it […]
Life ain’t worth living. If i could, i would brutally murder any human on the world except for the weak. (People with a psychical disorder, suicidal and poor people) People are arrogant, selfish and only care about their own interests.
Months of therapy and medication but i feel no real progress. I felt better for a few months but i miss the happiness when i was a child. People keep bringing me down and
i left my religion because god is a fucking joke.
I want to kill myself just to say to god and to the people; i fucking quit and there is nothing you can […]
My mind is deteriorating more and more each day of my miserable existence.
Hi , i don’t want to open up a can of political worms, but what’s the vibe on Obama getting back in or not, living downunder we pretty much get feed shite on this subject , sort of UNFAIR and UNBALANED ???????????
I was watching a short youtube video and the lady described dying somewhere in it. She was being choked out in a terrible situation and she closed her eyes and after a while, all she saw was white and she felt herself slipping deep into her mind and she couldnt feel any pain and she had no worries she said it was like an escape from what was happening to her. She described it as if she were dying but i knew she was just passing out from a lack of blood/oxygen flow to her brain.
This made me think…being free from my situation and the pain I feel […]
Hey. I’m Nikki! So um I’m not really sure what you’re supposed to do on here so well I’ll just tell you whats going on. My ex-boyfriend is talking smack about me. Saying that I’m easy. That I’m a dirty whore. I’ve been so stressed out about it. On the other hand My father. Yelled at me today… I know what you’re thinking. All he did was yell at you. Well here think about this. He’s been yelling at me, swearing at me, treating me like poop since 3 grade. I’m in 8th grade now. Nothings changed. Tonight at 9pm I broke down crying. 10pm […]
I really am trapped in nothingness, I have a problem where I just cant occupy myself or be active. I dont know wether its due to a neurolocal problem ive got but its like this claw is digging down in my brain, keeping me locked just to my thoughts, my standard of life is so low that my main things in it are websites and an on going conversation with the samaratans lol .. now thats some life! I did drugs again on the weekend (amphetamine) and it brought me to life, felt so much better, spent days writing lots and lots of song lyrics and […]
I rememeber growing up, I knew (or thought I did) that I would never attempt to kill myself or even think about the thought of doing that. It’s crazy how that all changed.
I had been depressed for about two months when I watched Lana Del Rey’s “Summertime Sadness” video. It spoke to me so much, and made me realize how broken I was. I rememeber watching both her and the other girl jump off from a cliff and building, and that was the first time I thought about suicide …
IÂ thought, how wonderful it would feel to be falling and feeling so free in those few moments. Free from all […]
hia all here to speak about the illness that we all share. i dont believe you are sane or honest if you have not considered suicide. the main reason iv come on here is because in the last few days iv attempted to reach out to many of my acquaintances about life suffering and the torrent of
suicidal thoughts that seem to follow any serious self-contemplation im capable of. Notability i’ve come to the realize that the contemplation of limitations lead to suicidal thoughts even if its just for the duration of one class, being bound to a desk while an innocent teacher attempts to […]
The fabric of my life.
I am a slave, a true kajira…i feel such an amount of pain for i have hidden it…. In fear of others… But why hide who i am… God this sadness hurts me deeply… I am not ashamed… Why should i be?
NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME!!!!! my mother says she does but i know she doesn’t , she is taking out all the pain of her childhood on me , My father is an alcoholic – and no matter how hard i try i cannot impress them , i play piano until my hands bruise so bad my whole hand is blue! i sing and win awards , and dance until my arms and legs cannot move. But its never enough… They think my little sister is the best things since sliced bread!!! she tells me to die everyday , and i only have one true friend […]
I had a good day with my friends and being silly and laughing at how he was messing with another friend of mine but damn the evil thoughts of cutting are strong I found a good place to cut or well I have never cut before so yeah. I sadly wish a friend would text me. He saves me all the time with out knowing he does. I mean he’s the shit there’s no one on this earth that tell me I am pretty or makes me feel specai. I wish I could say what the hell I wanna say but I keep it in […]
these pills have made me into a zombie:
numb
dead
cold.
I can’t speak,
I can’t move,
I can’t cry.
I just stare and wish someone would talk to me,
force me to open my mouth, my eyes.
This constant fear and darkness isn’t what life is supposed to be, I want to give up.
Suppose you had a plan A and a plan B. Plan A is the best thing that ever happened to you. Plan B is suicide. And for months plan A is coming along great. And then suddenly plan A is taken from you. Wiped out of existence. Then plan B starts to look nice and nicer. I mean, plan B was always there right? Always at the back of your mind anyway, so why not? Why not? And plan B has a definite date. And it’s coming soon. You have it all planned. Yet, you’re still holding on to plan A deep in your […]
I am not a religious man but, I struggle with Anxiety, Depression, and many other mental illnesses that make me feel different and inferior. Depression makes me feel empty and no one can make me happy. I think about suicide all the time, I have suicidal visions and plans but never carry them out. Before I go to bed at night I think about how to commit suicide. I think about talking to my therapist for one last time and ending it in her office so I can see her and she will care for me while I fade away. I am too scared to […]