For general topics related to the site.
I would also suggest:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ddsz9XBhrYA
I am incredibly busy Riley, but I will catch up with you on the Korn site in the next few days. Stay safe.
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I would like a few moments of your time to further attempt to explain my views and concepts. While the views and concepts are my own, many are heavily based on others teachings and practices. There are however, some points that make them very unique.  I believe in the big bang. I believe that everything came into existence with a monumental explosion. I believe that we are nothing more than remnants of that explosion. Alan Watts put it best by comparing the concept to throwing a bottle of black ink at a white canvas on the wall in “The Nature Of Consciousness” The […]
I’m new here, I don’t really know what I’m doing here. I probably shouldn’t bother, I should just do it. All I know is I just feel so alone. I don’t have any friends. I’ve never had many friends because I’m ugly and boring and everyone that used to be my friend hates me now because they don’t understand how I feel or what I’m going through. Even the one friend I thought I’d have forever doesn’t like me anymore, she doesn’t open up to me or trust me. She thinks I’m weird. Im a girl, I’m 6ft1 and ugly and people just look at […]
I don’t know why I have felt bad all this time. I don’t even know why I’m currently feeling so down. Looking at my life, you would say that it’s a really good life. Yeah I do have my ups and downs, but I come from a rich family, I have straight A’s in school, I have tons of friends, I’m usually always in a relationship, whether serious or not, I’m an outgoing, friendly person, I get invited to parties, and I’m really athletic. I play basketball, tennis, soccer, and swimming weekly and If I’m not exercising, I’m hanging out with my friends. So why […]
Hello guys. Been a few days since my last post. But I just wanted to ask if any of you knew some good songs to listen to when I’m feeling down. I want sad songs please; something I can relate to. And thanx <3 <3
so i tried killing myself for the fifth time yesterday…but did it work? no. it never does. i guess in a way im glad it didnt work…i dont like to hurt people(on the off chance that it would hurt someone). but i cant help but wish that it did work. i dont know, maybe i should just stop trying….i just am afraid to live.
hey guys just joined up, my story is about my failure to die.
it doesn’t begin in any fancy way, just with a girl, why is it always a girl? it’s been 10 years since i fell in love with her, both of us were nine years old at the time. but there never seemed like a time for us. for years we remained friends, best friends, but as close as we were it just never happened, i could never say how i felt. then she started seeing those guys, just in it for her looks and her body. she was clever enough never to […]
I have always been very attached to friends and a few years ago I fell for my best friend, we are always together, study together and will probably work together once we graduate. However he is now in love and will probably marry a childhood friend of mine. I have tried so hard to forget him, but its hard since we are always together, ive told him how i feel but i think he just enjoys having me around, he says im like family. He tells me things about her that make me ache inside and I know it sounds cliched but I dont think […]
I just dont care about anything anymorr, and i dont have a date set but i have lost everything ive ever wanted and have no reason to keep living, so time is all it takrs.
sometimes i hate life so much… sometimes i wish i didn’t have to deal with it… and now is one of those times
People think I’m happy, but I’m not. I never tell anyone about my feelings. So i just wanted to share my story here, and say what I don’t have courage to say to people around me.
Apparently, I have a really good life. I have a loving family and lots of friends who care about me. I’m shy but I always try to be nice and people tend to like me. I’m a university student and get good marks, I have a part-time job and I still have some time for my hobbies. The problem is, I’m not happy with that. I don’t know why I’m […]
I am going to die- something I always think about yet never do. There’s no one to talk to, no one to rant to, no one that truly understands me… Not that anyone needs to- if you’re going to care, don’t leave me. a majority of people I told eventually left me- why? Was i too crazy for you? Didn’t you understand me? You didn’t want to associate with a suicidal, depressed, freak? Is that it? It is absolutely the worst feeling in the world. i can’t connect with many people- you can’t just TRY to relate something to me -or even LYING – just […]
I love him. He could never love me. I wish he did. I hate complaining. But sometimes I need to.
Every morning, no matter what, I wake up feeling pain. Even if the previous day was great, Â I wake up with sadness. Â I suppose this is just the nature of depression, but I wish I could at least wake up feeling hopeful, even if the rest of my day is terrible.
After all the bullshit, the hospital, etc. I felt no more ‘better’ than I did before all of that crap (read my other posts to find the other shit I have been going through). I actually feel much much worse than before (this post explains most of it).
I was trying to find just one reason to stay alive, and figured I could make one with my XGF. I figured we could try things again. I figured I could stay permanently, and make the kid’s life better. Now that she has no chance, the poor kid will go through “father” after “father” after “father”. She claims […]
Note: I am home now, I wrote the following earlier this evening.
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I am glad I did this test run. I encountered a few issues. Technology related issues. I had hoped to make this post on site, but I think I have broken my phone. It won’t tether to my laptop. :\ I will have to get that fixed. Then, there’s the little issue of very sketchy mobile coverage. I am basically in a hole in the ground.
I am writing this on site and saving it to upload when I get home. I am listening to my final mix tape. The first track, “The Other […]
I’m tired of hiding behind a fake smile. I’m tired of having all the panic attacks. I’m tired of dreaming of you every single night. I’m tired of waking up each day, hating myself for losing you. I’m tired of this 5 month long depression. I’m tired of living this unhappy life. I think tonight will be the night. Just remember, not a second has gone by that I haven’t loved you. I’m sorry about being that egotistical jerk I was in the past. I’ve changed, but it’s just way too late. I just can’t do this anymore, I’m surprised I’ve lasted this long. This […]
i am a year 12 student, whom for background knowldeg did have depression for most of my highschool years, had constant thoughts throught daily life of killing myself. I have also been through 4 different situations where someone has told me they are going to commit suicide and they have basically thrown it all on me and i was fighting each time hysteric tears, because a couple were before i even thought of such horrid things and then the other couple were after i had gone through with massive grieveing of my bestfriend who commited suicide. i didnt even have the chance to save him. […]
Cherry flavored pain killers, how you tempt me so bad
In your plastic, cylinder container
You sit on that shelf just above the kitchen sink
Taunting me, calling for me
Whispering in my ear “Come, come for me”
A whisper that only i can seem to hear
A whisper so subtle only the sick minded and neglected can understand this strange dialect
You hypnotize me with those reassuring words “You know you want to” you scream as i attempt to resist the urge and walk away with my head lowered to the ground
Cherry flavored pain killers, how you tempt me so bad
In your plastic, […]
It may be sad, but its my only way…
They told me to move on. It took me awhile… but I finally put the puzzle together. It was so frustrating… I was so clueless. I tried so hard to fight through it all. I tried to save friendships. I tried. But I really got tired. I didn’t want to surrender. I thought there would be at least a little faith, a little hope a little miracle… a little light. I thought we were best friends… I thought… we were still… at least… friends. But instead, I embarrassed myself again. I lost control on who I was. This was why I turned […]