General

next few days… probably….

I’m scared of getting up in the morning. I’m scared of pain. I’m scared of failing suicide today. I’m scared of embarrassment. I’m scared of being raped or murdered. I’m scared of being judged. I’m scared of being forever alone.

Sticks and stones may brake my bones but words tare my skin apart

Suicide isn’t cowardly. U wanna know wat is cowardly? Treating someone so bad that they want to end their life.

The light was to bright so she hid from the sun. In her dark place she held the gun. Tight in her hand. She closed her eyes, held her breath waiting to face death. She had been teased and taunted for to long.. She couldn’t stand it anymore.In perfect position, the gun    Well     loaded. Raising the gun to her head running from life, family, friends, enemies, choosing death she pulled the […]

How can someone feel beautiful?

Do ugly people know that they are ugly?

How do I know when people don’t lie when they say “You are beautiful”?

Who can tell me if I’m beautiful or not?

Why beauty is so important to the world?

Why it is important to me?

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This is what makes me happy. If only it would come true.

Angel: (Her Story)

Angel lost without word had fallen into the woods. Broken white wings and a half cracked halo, she meets a fallen angel. Fallen Angel afraid, not knowing what to do, instantly carried her.

Fallen Angel (His story) After Accident:

She meets him, he met her, as they both walk into the bright path, he grabbed her hand so she wouldn’t be afraid. Not knowing they both received wings and golden light crowns. She didn’t see what had become, but she realized that it was the man. He turned and threw the crown back; waved […]

I HATE REALITY!

IT IS FUCKING TORTURE!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N9eN9h00h94

iv got one to many skeletons in my closet, they are all falling out as things burst at the seams
another cliche “rescue me”up
im so messed
yes you know to much
which ends my chances at not being pitied.
i want more than your pity

When I come back.

I wont care, I’ll just be me.

You hate, then hate.

I don’t f***ing care anymore.

You want to push me away then fine. Push me away.

You want to talk bout the past.

F*** You!

You actually really care, then convince me.

If not, then pretend you never knew me. Stop wasting your precious time.

Then just leave me alone.

Just be like everyone else and turn into strangers. I tried; I always try.

You didn’t even give me a second or third chance.

Why should I tell you my story? If I told you the story then okay, if not, then I really don’t trust you.

Mind your damn f***ing buisness.

Seriously, I aint ganna be too nice anymore.

I […]

I’m having a hard time being at work right now. I feel depressed and just sad, I’m not sure why… I just want to disappear.

I’ve attempted suicide twice in my life… I’ve been thinking about trying again allot recently. Just the other week I was fantasizing about jumping out of a window in this 20 story building I was in…

How does everyone cope w/ day to day life? I try the best I can to put a smile on my face and go about normal life – but that is getting really hard to do.

Okay well, I guess were supposed to vent and tell our story here. It all started in 6th grade. I had no friends in 6th grade. I thought everyone hated me. I would go home and cry because of how bad the school day was. I would have to wake up then go to school where i thought everyone can give two shits about me. But at least i got through it. Then 7th grade came, i thought everything started to get better. Well, turns out i didn’t. I started to change. I became more depressed, had anxiety, and became so stressed out i couldn’t […]

My name is Jeremy, im a 25 year old man and I am going to end my life today. For 25 years, all I have given to this world, to my family and friends, is heartache, pain, misery and lies. Ive been labeled something im not but thats beside the point. I heard my mother today tell me that she was done with me, she wants nothing more to do with me. My father also said this. I have the most beautiful girlfriend named Chelle, we are apart right now because she lives in Colorado and I live here in hell.We lost our baby not […]

I hate your kids.

After going through a rough patch of hard shit already, the second time round does not get any easier, even with experience. I feel like I can’t put up with another load of DIFFERENT bullshit all over again. The first time was hard enough, but this time I just seem to have the floor below me, falling through, just like my ability to cope. i don’t know what to do anymore. The situation’s don’t matter, it’s just the factor of me not being able to have the strength to deal with this hurt and crying and shaking and pain and guilt anymore.

I need help but […]

I’m not shaking. I’m not crying. I’m already not there anymore. This isn’t happening.

My soul has been killed. And tomorrow my body will escape. I will not use any fucking poison, bag or cord. I will not jump, I will not shock anybody. Do you deserve such a dramatic death? You? No, tomorrow my body will be gone very far away, on the other side of the ocean, he will walk and nature will kill him little by little, his murderer will be the one who gave him birth. I’ll die into the wild.

I’m not a bad guy. But I’m not good enough. Because I […]

“People always think they know other people, but they don’t. Not really. I mean, maybe they know things about them, like they won’t eat doughnuts or they like action movies or whatever. But they don’t know what their friends do in their rooms alone at night or what happened to them when they were kids or if they feel f***ed up and sad for not reason at all.”
― Libba Bray

“It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never […]

I’m totally broke and some a-hole stole my bike I freakin need to get around. God dam, I’m pissed, sad, angry, bummed-out, helpless, oh-ya, Screwed !!!

It’s really hard not to think about this all day and night, shit, shit, shit

For the second time in 3 months my 16 year old son has attempted suicide. The first time was with pills and this time which was just yesterday he put his car into a telephone pole. Its been over the same girl both times and I dont know what I should do.