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…so I’m stuffing my face with food to comfort myself.  Sadly, this comfort is so short-lived, while the bad feeling is so constant…

My parents will never let me be Laycies mother! They will always keep her away from me like I’m a monster! They are getting together a case and calling a lawyer to gain full custody of my daughter and said that they think it’s best if I move out and we all tell Laycie that she is their daughter. They are taking my baby girl because of my borderline personality disorder even though I go to therapy and take all my meds and I’m doing better. There’s nothing I can do about it either. I can’t live without my daughter. I won’t live without my daughter. […]

They just pretend to care

They’ve never been in your shoes

They don’t understand

They just want to take your money

If they cannot handle you

They’ll just tell you that you’re crazy

They’ll just embarrase you

Tell your parents and family that you’re insane

I trusted a stupid therapist just once

and where did it lead me?

I told her to never told my parents

but what happened?

She called them up

Told them

Ever since then my parents controlled my life

They told me that no body cared

They told me that I am alone

and that made me afraid

Afraid for my future.

Mother always told me that father was just wasting his money of pills that would never work

And now […]

suicide or living?
suicide: hurts others
living: hurts me
god fucking damn it i cant win. please let me die i cant go on with life its too painful. i neva once thought this is the life i’d get iwould do anything to not be miserable..so what will it be..friends have been silent all day..but i still dont know. suicide a no go? i may try but chances of success…i actually doubt it. im stuck here in hell. LET ME OUT!!!!!

I don’t want your sympathy. or your attention. I’d really rather not have you watch me suffer. I don’t want you to look at my ugly scars and feel bad for me. I don’t want you to tell me to stop. I don’t want you to tell me you get me, because you don’t. I don’t want you to comfort me when I cry, you were never there before.

why are people so rude?? i mean we are here for the same reason for somebody to here our stories, our pain, our anger. but when some of us try to help them they get mad and they say what do you care about my life i just want to die?? OK they sound soo stupid if somebody really wanted to die they would of done it along time ago but if there posting it up here is because they need help am one of you guys trust me i want to help i wonna read your story i want you to know that there is […]

looks like family life is about to get hella intresting. my, i cant stop the panic AAAA not ready for this, aaaaaarrghhh. im going to listen to music, sleep and maby in the morning i wont be so panicked, but still AAAAAARRRRGGHHH!ill update tommorow

the big things that really make me resent life have just become kind of numbing. their problems are still there everyday but i guess f’ed up is the new normal for me. so now its the little things that decide to kill me or not. out of soap in the shower? kill yourself. all stocked up? you live another day. nobody answers your texts? kill yourself. get replies? you live. its a sick little game i like to play…

It all began on a monday morning at 10:23 October 10th exact my grandma died.Ever since then I’ve been through depression anxiety and self harm and bolemia. I haven’t wanted to die more in my life. I was at my friends house that day i haven’t been to that exact house since. I felt like it was meant to be. I never wanted to go to that house again! All of my friends noticed cuts on my arms bruises red eyes and depression was i was with them. I’ve gotton hate and being told to die and kill myself and im used to it. But […]

we don’t get to chose when we come in this world, so shouldn’t we at least get the convenience to chose when we go out?

It’s haunting me

The person you believe

I could be

I’ll only weigh you down

I’m paralized

Laying stuck to the ground

What if the night gets too long

Are you still sure mornings ever going to come

I don’t wanna trap you while

I’m escaping me

A year ago, I was the happiest married man on the planet. I didn’t think that I had a good marriage. I thought that I had an amazing marriage. My wife was the center of my life for 29 years, and I loved her (and still do) more than my own life. I knew that if everyone in the world betrayed me and let me down, she would still be there. I knew that she would never betray me, never lie to me, never cheat on me, and never leave me, and I knew that she would always love me as I loved her, then […]

I’ve been going through severe depression for several years, causing me to lose everything I had ever worked for – my marriage, my profession, and many of my friends. I’ve been in treatment, which doesn’t help. When I was at a particularly low point, right after I lost my job and my marriage collapsed, I reached out to my best friend of almost 20 years. We’d been very close since we were teenagers. I told him how horrible I was feeling and that I was scared I was going to die. I asked him to come see me. I wanted help. I was thinking of […]

So, I talked to a therapist today. Decided on the spot to just bawl out everything, lol. She signed a confidentiality agreement, so she can’t talk to ANYBODY without my prior approval, not even the state.

So, anyway, after I spew my guts to this woman, she sits there for a minute, dead silent, and then she goes, “You know what? You don’t need a therapist. You need a time machine and a shotgun.”

O-O

I think I love her, lmao!

She’s closing my case next week. Her only recommendations are to move as far away from my sister as possible, change my phone number, and call the lawyer […]

well my therapist person iv been seeing for over 2 years told me that she is leaving the service in september so we either dicuss going on to another person or i stop having indiviual therapy sessions, im not sure about this. part of me thinks that this is a natural end to my individual sessions as i missed a few then just didnt have one for a while and things got a bit better but then again im scared because i dont really want to have another therapist afterall isnt 2 years long enough for me to not need one anymore? i dont know, […]

I think about dying everyday of my life. I cut my wrists but was found and went through a long surgery and was taken to a mental hospital by a judge’s order. I only had to stay eleven days because I learned quickly to say and act like they wanted me to so I could go home. I caused such grief to my family that I hear about it every day. I was trying to be honest about how I thought about dying all the time. Now my family is tired of me being this way and my husband finally screamed, “Just do it and […]