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my mind is alone

by fakingit 7/15/2012

written by fakingit

lately, my mind has been on its own. what i want is not what it wants. i want to be happy, carefree, an no longer adding heart ache to others cuz of my complaining. i want to be the one that people go to. i want to be the one everyone talks bout in a positive way. i want to say im not depressed. i want this and that but my mind is addicted. addicted to the sadness ive felt for so long. it always thinks negatively either upsetting my friends or causing harm to myself, sometimes its both. i wish to wake up one […]

7/15/2012 5 comments

Day 4/5 Hunger turning to irritation

by Kain 7/15/2012

written by Kain

My sadness is turning into anger, I know that the lack of food is contributing to my irritation but I can’t help to feel abandoned. Out of all the people that said they love me why has no one called? My parents don’t know about my decision to stop eating and keep pressuring me by shoving food in my face and eating my favorite things in front of me I even tossed a slice of pizza out the window and tell them I was eating just to get them to stop, every smell is powerful and temptation is painful. I know they only do it […]

7/15/2012 7 comments

Giving up

by gabe 7/14/2012

written by gabe

I’m 24 years old and have been depressed since i was six.Â I was raised in a family where i could never be good enough no matter how hard i tried.Â I was always compared to my older sister because she did well in school, and was grounded pretty much from first grade till high school.Â I have tried to commit suicide several times, usually with something going wrong (or right according to some people).Â In high school i started cutting myself to deal with my depression as it became worse.Â When i went off to college i met this girl who was popular and […]

7/14/2012 8 comments

Important Discovery

by fromthisheight 7/14/2012

written by fromthisheight

I know a lot of people have issues against drugs, and especially illegal ones at that. However, the simple fact is without drugs we would be less of a productive society, but it depends on the drug of course; some drugs make our society worse. Â We know what they are, but I think we all can agree that some drugs have important application. Â If you’ve ever been suicidal (who hasn’t?), we know that something causes this reaction in our mind to give up. Â It’s due to ourselves unequipped to deal with the pain or failing to find the answers that got us to this point. […]

7/14/2012 4 comments

so fed up

by recurrent depression 7/14/2012

written by recurrent depression

I’m just so bloody fed up! I’ve quit drinking, smoking weed and smoking cigarettes, these used to take me away for a bit from the heavy depression i’m now feeling all over. Today I got rid of my best friend once and for all because they were just bad for me and made me feel like shit most of the time.

Although I’ve done this, I now have no one as I don’t trust anyone and find it very hard to get close to anyone.

A friend of my family committed suicide a few months back and the damage they caused!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But I can’t help thinking how lucky […]

7/14/2012 2 comments

Why can’t I tell you no?

by Darkpheonix 7/14/2012

written by Darkpheonix

Why can I not find the strength to say no to you? Why do I keep letting you in to my life even though I know when you leave it will hurt and destroy me.

Yet again you text me asking to come round and yet again I said yes. I promised myself that I would discuss my feelings and talk to you this time but it didn’t happen. You put on a film and sat there texting all night, whomever it was I don’t know but I caught a glimpse of the message and it hurt me deeply. You then asked if we could go […]

7/14/2012 14 comments

Happiness isn’t a choice

by RJo 7/14/2012

written by RJo

I hate to say it but I’ve heard it from so many sources. Just be happy! Maybe there’s something horribly wrong with me but I can’t push myself to be happy. I should be though-from the outside my life kind of seems pretty fucking OK. Nowadays I feel guilty and anxious because I can’t bring myself to enjoy it. It’s there, right in front of me but forcing myself to be happy?

That only deepens my anxiety making it so much worse. I tried to ask for help, to make people understand me but they can’t. Now the plan switched to: I’ll off myself if I […]

7/14/2012 17 comments

and it all goes downhill..

by Me myself and time 7/14/2012

written by Me myself and time

Everything was good, I was happy.. Maybe I just convinced myself I was? I just don’t know what to do, how to help myself.. I hadn’t cut in like three days.. Now I’m watching it pour out of me.. So now I’m going to drink myself to sleep with a bottle of vodka, maybe ill add a few pills and finally finish it to fuck!

7/14/2012 19 comments

rite now

by f00l 7/14/2012

written by f00l

Im about to do it rite now…..please help

7/14/2012 15 comments

WARNING:

by Nolentwohundred 7/14/2012

written by Nolentwohundred

Warning: If you are one who still has faith in god and/ or government, do not watch the following link and/ or movie:
Zeitgeist the movie

How Science save my soul

7/14/2012 2 comments

DON’T TRY AND FIX IT!!!

by Nolentwohundred 7/14/2012

written by Nolentwohundred

So far, society has made an attempt to “fix me” with non-applicable laws, jesus, Zoloft and a host of other inventions to keep the masses from free-thinking. I guess society was hoping that one of these things would “take hold”, but I’ve had too long to think for myself. I’ve had an epiphany. I’m not the one who’s FU(K!NG BROKEN! Now I’m a problem. I feel justified in my thoughts and actions. I cannot be easily controlled. I question everything. I insist on relying on my own research and take nothing at face value. This is […]

7/14/2012 3 comments

Anxiety

by TheDisturbedOne 7/14/2012

written by TheDisturbedOne

As my anxiety grows, so does my appetite for death.

7/14/2012 2 comments

Alone?

by UnknownAngel 7/14/2012

written by UnknownAngel

The thing is i’m not quite sure i know who i am any more and I dont really care.

I had a breakdown last week at a school trip. I Â sat somewhere away from everyone else. I knew no one would come andÂ checkÂ on me because they don’t see me as their real ‘friend’ because I’m too different from them. So I sat alone as my mind reminded me of everythingÂ that’sÂ gone wrong and the reasons for them. I remebered why my friends left me. I remembered why I almost killed myself last year. I couldn’t think straight. Then as i’m about to cry who else to come […]

7/14/2012 5 comments

i dont no, im in a haze

by birthright 7/14/2012

written by birthright

numbness of the mind
rots inside its self
begging you to be kind
only to yourself

i want what i cant have
numbness makes me aware of this
another threatening stab
killing whats left

god why?god why? god why?!?!

7/14/2012 0 comment

by plagued4 7/14/2012

written by plagued4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud4HuAzHEUc

7/14/2012 1 comment

What the hell is wrong with me?

by unluckystranger 7/14/2012

written by unluckystranger

What the hell is wrong with me? Am I an unlikable person? *sigh* I try you know I try to be friendly but why is it that in whatever I do Im just ignored. Im currently in art school and I try. try hard and I am decent at what I do yet I get no attention in any thing its like Im invisible and it just makes me hate everyone at school.school I HATE that too I enjoy the learning yes BUT I HATE THE PEOPLE THERE …I just hate people in general ? I didnt use to be like this I wasnt so […]

7/14/2012 2 comments

Fighting the urge

by silent survivor 7/14/2012

written by silent survivor

Lately i’ve been having this urge to self-harm again and i honestly don’t know why, i mean it’s not like im depressed or anything i actually believe im quite happy with myself right now. The thing is, everytime i look at my wrists they just look so…empty and alone an idk it’s like i miss the pain,i miss feeling like i was alive again.. I don’t know what im supposed to do, ive gone months without self-harm and i dont know if i would enjoy the fact of relapsing for the fourth time thi year. Idk and its just not cutting anymore now i just […]

7/14/2012 1 comment

Rock bottom

by soalone4321 7/14/2012

written by soalone4321

I’ve hit it. I’m a 19 year old gay male and i’ve been crying my eyes out for so many nights now. I want to just end it all..I am so miserable and lonely. I’ve brought most of this on myself I guess…i think I have herpes and it fucking disgusts me. I hate these fucking sores on my lips…why did I have to do this to myself? I feel like such a disgusting whore. I miss my exboyfriend and I wish i could have done more for him..instead I fucked up. I fuck everything up. I don’t know why I was brought intothis world…both […]

7/14/2012 2 comments

Into Hell

by Rain 7/14/2012

written by Rain

Hopelessness…black like filthy oilÂ rainsÂ from darkened skies and gray clouds. My chin pressed to my scarred chest as my hair, dirty blonde acid conceals a marred face. I’ve done my best. A 3 year battle. The mud beneath my feet still warm with fresh blood. Rusted chains bound bloodied hands behind my lashed back andÂ I feel my wrists bleeding. Four heavy steps more and the heat burns more than my skin. I will not look at those ebony gates because I know..the same gates that have claimed my soul since the beginning of the battle. So thirsty, are the gates of Hades. Rising into the sky […]

7/14/2012 0 comment

i dont no how this works..

by alexis_leigh2495 7/14/2012

written by alexis_leigh2495

im 17.. i feel like such a little kid around every one.. they all treat me that way.. little things mess with me really bad. i have borderline personality disorder.. i haven’t had a very good life and i understand that.. i understand that there are people out there who have had it worse than me.. i just don’t no why all this has happened too me. if there really is a god out there then why are all of these good people having bad things happen to them..i was raped by my brother and my little sisters brother from the time i was 5 […]

7/14/2012 4 comments

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