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I have had enough, I have had enough, I have had enough. The impulse, always strongest in the mornings, is overwhelming. My mind is shattered, my thinking process broken, unhinged thoughts abound and the pain is relentless. I jUst want to die.

I suffer from borderline personality disorder and have a lot of difficulty dealing with it.

I don’t know if any of you can help I am just very suicidal at the moment and I have noone to talk to.

The one person I used to speak to passed away last year and my boyfriend, who knew but didn’t understand, broke up with me yesterday.

I feel so lost. I just need to know that someone else feels/has felt the same?

Being in this dark hole with nobody around me and with no way out in sight. Is there somebody that will talk or maybe even be a friend? If not, maybe it’s time to end it. Email: codymorello@yahoo.com

I don’t believe I’m saying this but I’ve actually considered one of those hotlines… just wish they had it set up so you could text instead, I don’t want to talk to anyone. Not to mention I run the risk of family finding out if someone wakes up or comes home while I’m on the phone.

I need some advice. I am a 17 year old girl attending high school. My life should be amazing, I have been ranked top in my class for the last 5 years, have won numerous awards, play for several sports teams, tutor, part of student government etc etc. But it’s not.

Everyone thinks my life is perfect, but I am dying inside and I don’t know where to turn to. You see, when I was 12, I was looking for my camera in my mom’s room when I came across a box. Of course, being curious, I opened it and found much more than I could […]

When darkness is near,

We start to hear our doubts and flaws,

We silently cry,

We want to die,

It’s clear we aren’t loved,

Abondoned by our parent’s,

Adults lie to us,

Tell us the worlds fine,

That’s a lie,

The world is full of evil and cry,

Critisized by the ones we trust,

Ostracised by people like us,

Im walking in the dark no direction,

Waiting for my ressurection,

We start feeling insecure,

You say you love us we’re not sure,

You say you want us thoughs are lies,

Lies that are crushing my insides,

We’re a disease you can’t cure,

All the lies we have to indure,

Until the day we realize,

There’s no point,no point to cry,

Just disapear inside yourself,

Invisible is how we […]

I dont know how i could explain anything to anyone. Its like: waiting to die. Life, is fucking miserable. I cant be happy on my own. There is no hope. Everytime i think there is, It’s crushed, demolished, fucking annihilated. Always being back to sq 1. But what I dont understand is, when an opportunity arrives, I turn it down. I dont know why. fear? Maybe I’ve finally just said fuck it. fuck friends and being social. I dont want to be shut down. I dont want your hurt so I choose this pain. I guess, all I can really say is: they made me […]

I am just fed up  with every aspect of my life i just want to end it now.

i can’t do this alone.
i’m only 14 and all i want is death.
no one cares about me.
i know how stupid that sounds any everyone’ll be like, “oh your parents love you and care! so do your friends!” but it’s not true. my parents are hardly ever around and i have a 24 hour nanny. as for friends, they’re all suicidal. they’re all temporary. just like i am. all i want to do is talk. but there’s no one to talk to. yes, i cut. i’ve been baker acted once before due to a sever cut that was supposed to end my life. […]

Latley all i do is cry every one tells me im to young to cry well i right now all i wanna say is you dont know whats going on. My uncle just died in the war my dads in prison, my moms about to kick me out and my boy friend just dumped me after 2 years. im lost alone and confused the only thing coming to mind is death im all out of breath and words i was so close to being happy.  Well my life is fucked!!

You hear the cry

You see the motion

But you don’t proccess it

You see the blade coming closer

Smile

It’s almost over

All of the sudden

It becomes something else

And you realize

The cry was yours

The motion was yours

Lie down

And hold on to that thread

That thread that waves

Tantalzing

Out of reach

Gone

My phone is dead so I can’t ring samaritans. Family hate me. Getting divorced. No friends. Can’t take it.
I don’t want to be here. I hate myself.

I hope you are ok… x

I know people have it worse off than me. I know that.. but still I just can’t take it anymore. I just can’t. I’m fighting a battle that I can’t win. I’m sorry I’m so weak and a burden. I don’t even know why I’m typing this. I need to die soon. I need to do the world a favor right? I’m nothing more than garbage. Garbage needs to be thrown away. So I just need to get up the courage to throw out the trash myself.

Never mind, I’m not going to do it right now anyway. I just wanted to talk to someone, I feel really bad.