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It’s Christmas the happiest time of the year and I am just sitting in my bed crying. I am upset that I will spend Christmas alone. Why Can’t I handle this why can’t I want this more, I just want to give up. I hate myself. No one loves me and no one ever will. My parents don’t understand me they send my away to a therapist to get me to understand the value of life and how I am supposed to be. The guy who tells me he loves me can’t even make it to my Christmas, because his brother tells him all he […]

Have any of you ever tried to persuade one of your friends or relatives that it would be best if you were dead?

My story? I should be happy, mid 40s, a job I like, no money problems but deeply deeply unhappy inside. A failed relationship and overdose attempt 3 years behind me, no children. My problem from as far back as I can remember is an inability to trust others. Not blessed with a naturally outgoing personality I struggle in social situations. I can put on an act for a while but inside I have thoughts of mistrust, negativity and paranoia. A nicotine addict and negative self confidence.
Lonliness now drags me toward the edge and I plan a peaceful end sometime in early 2011. I have […]

Why did you leave me

you plucked the last light
that shone life for me
dimmed my last
glimmer of hope

YOu cast me into the deepest of
shadows
the coldest of pits

YOu veiled my days with darkness
and bind my life with gloom
and despair

when you left you took
the very essence of my spirit
with you.
the meaning of my existence

you shattered my dreams and
thrust me into an eternal
nightmare

You placed a curse on me
to walk the earth in torment
to search for that which could not be found anymore
for love that was unreachable
for the one precious thing
that I could […]

Hi everyone.  I’m sort of new to this site and I was recently contacted by Suicideistheonlyway97.  I noticed she was recently in the hospital after a suicide attempt, and she told me yesterday that she would try again today.  I have been trying to reach her and I can’t, so I was wondering if anyone has heard from her or if anyone who has her email could try to get to her.  She’s only 13 🙁

i used to look forward to this day for weeks. i used to get excited and be over caring and friendly (because your meant to at christmas i guess) but what was it all worth, if now christmas feels like just another day in the sad lonely life of a teenager.

now that all those good christmas’ are dead and gone, all that they have achieved is giving me a memory, and great memory, and a memory that makes this christmas so much worse.

they say every cloud has a silver lining. but what if i dont want the fucking silver lining or the cloud. cant i […]

hey everyone its me again i have improved. i know myself better now but the problem is it now seems  since i am satified with myself i find that i am not with others. no one understands me. they think im simple and just meander threw life. but the fact is i am intellecual. i think about almost everything life, love etc.. i am a 19 year old single guy in an area with bitches for girls and tools for guys. if anyone wants to talk my email is bftdodge2500@gmail.com i can use a different person to talk to.

Do you remember when you were a kid and the idea of Santa driving a sleigh through the sky around the entire world through only one night being pulled by nothing but flying reindeer made your eyes light up with wonder?

I do, because it was the only time during the whole year when my mind could focus on something other then the fact that my childhood had been ruined by a rapist; it was the only time where I still believed magic existed.

Every year it was the same, I would stay up as late as I could just waiting to hear Santa’s sleigh up on […]

It’s been raining hard for the past few nights and Its actually been Uplifting. It’s like I want to run outside & Scream to the top of my lungs, Until they Burst with all the Feelings Ive been having lately.  Feelings Of Entrapment, Rage and Hurt. I want to explode, I want to rupture sometimes U know?, Disappear… ….into  wht? Nothingness… Disapper into…. Another Person? Another Life? Another Damn Family? i’m not sure.  I’m tried of being Treated Like a little Fucking Kid, When Clearly, I’m a Mature Young Adult. I Don’t want to be treated in such  way of Disrespect, and Annoyance.

But It got me thinking….. Why am I […]

i dont know why i do this
i just know i cant stop
the rush is exilirating
and makes alive.
watching drop by drop slip out of my skin
atleast i know tht part of me is free
and if i for once get the nerve to cut deep enought
i wont be unhapy, for i shall be gone

i don’t want to die because i will miss the people i love, the problem is that they wouldn’t miss me. i wonder if they will care once im dead.

im 48 years  old and want to die soon hope to find a good way to end my life soon

How can I bandage a 4 inch cut thats diaganol across my stomache? i need to know cause the blood flow refuses to stop.

I STILL NED HELP FOR MY ORGANIZATION TO STOP SUICIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF INTRESTED PLEASE CONTACT @ rosealcorn@live.com . NEED A LOT OF HELP STILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i trieded putting a bag on my head and dieing that way but i chickened out cus it hurt. i know alot of u have plans to go i just want u to share. i cant get a gun so thats out and i dont no how to tie a hangmans knot thing so thats out i cant get helium. i have scars on my wrist im not afraid to cut them is that my only option? please someone share and help me

imagine being trapped in
a nightmare
and the is only one way to escape
just one parmanent solution
you hate the pain
yet you are not sure
of what lies beyond the nightmare
you are somewhat afraid of the unknown
you get used to the anguish
Everything becomes hopeless
the only hope is leaving the nightmare
and every day
you wish to find the strength
and the courage to do it.

I’m at my very end now. I have not cared about my life for quite some time, and in not caring I let my finances slip. I voluntarily quit my job because I just didn’t care. I lived off of loans from family for months knowing the money would be used up. I half-heartedly looked for work to “continue” but just stopped caring. The money got lower, and the unpaid bills started to stack up. I’ve been sued by one credit card company for non payment. My utility bill in my apartment was past due and the power to put out. I have missed two […]