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as some people would say, “i stooped low enough a month ago to write my sucidide letter.” i did write it..did i stoop low? no…..
its actually really touching xD
and i have this whole notebook where i write what ever the hell i feel like…it has a lot of quotes and lyrics and stories and questions from myself or others….

today my friend took to writing “we ♥ u celia!” all over my books and papers….yea right….
she tried to take my notebook, but im a blackbelt, so dont mess with me….but she failed and now i have to look out…
she also said at […]

I really wonder what’s beyond our lives and what happens next. Why people act in a way they do and why some deal with their problems better than others. There isn’t a day that passes by, that I don’t think about kissing a gun and putting a hot bullet through my noodle.

Somewhere, sometime, something went wrong in my life. I used to be happy, I used to smile, I used to make people feel better, and I used to make myself feel better by making others feel better. Perhaps I was just charming when I was younger? Now, I’m merely a cynical person, whose dreams and […]

I feel so trapped in this life! i want out i dont care anymore. i just wish i could be alone for 5 mins so i could kill my self and just end all this pain. my moms a *****. my dads an asshole. and my family just dont understand me at all. someone please talk to me! i just wish i could be gone and be out of everyones way. not to bother them anymore. Damn why cant i make up my mind on how i want to die! i have this feeling that i should die because im just a person in everyones […]

so please i ned someone to talk to please. I beg of you i need someone who will talk to me and well things havnt been going to good so please some one help me

After attempting to seek help on numerous occasions through the use of therapy, medication, and even religion, I’ve decided to pursue that “final exit”. I’ve thought about it, and have decided to definitely go with the helium method, only I won’t incorporate a hood. Instead, I plan on locking myself in the trunk of my car (the idea is to become trapped in a small, closed area, so as to be overpowered by the helium), releasing the helium from the tank inside the trunk, and handcuffing myself in order to prevent any possibility of me waking up later on and attempting to shut off the valve, or open the […]

my dad isnt getting it…..i wanna quit tkd, i wanna quit bass, i wanna quit skiing…..
he wont let me do any
everything i do is to make someone else happy….
and i keep having to lie of why i wont do something…..i cant just tell my parents im suicidal………thatd be like asking for hell.
and theres no way i can talk to them………..

you have to let go of the thingsthat make you feel bad about yourself…Forgive yourself and learn from it. The fact you can’t face yourself shows you are doing things that are not really you.. But there is a good person inside you and you have to let them out. To each person their worst day is the most they can relate to and it’s the worst they’ve ever felt. You have a conscience and that’s more than 80% of the population anymore…Let go of what’s bringing you down.. Isn’t there 1 person in the world that knows you are better than u […]

I can’t fucking stand every day I have to deal with shit. Nobody seems to help or wants to really help and those who do just say “It’s going to get better”. It can’t get better. Some shit can’t be healed just like that. Some can’t be healed at all. And right now it’s like a dagger being slowly pushed into my chest deeper every day.

I’m completely stuck here between killing myself and letting go of all of this for the sake of my own being, or keeping a few select people from hurting because of it. I really can’t decide, I don’t know what […]

The blow set into my cheek bone. A bone cracked and I fell to the ground. She stood over me with her fist still clenched. I tasted blood as I tried to stand up. My brain wasn’t working; she had hit me too hard. I cried, I had nothing else to do. I was small and helpless. My own mother was beating her me, just a ten year old girl. She cursed and came at me again, “No” I yelped. “You freaking *****, you ingrate,” she yelled as she slapped me into the wall, “You think you can interrupt me when I’m in the middle […]

my mom….she got mad at me…and yelled and swore at me…..she said she hated me…she called me a *****…she doesnt wanna deal with me……………and then i said.something….and she swore more…..she said other things too…..
im under so much stres….im compared to my sis a lot….i dont have time for anything…
and i do everything to make other happy….

my views……im pretty liberal….if you agree with this or have strong opinions of the enviromet or government…can you comment on, or email me, isthereanyhopewellsurvive@yahoo.com

im starting my own orginization for this….please help me…this really messes me up..it makes me mad…one of the reasons i wanna leave…

WE HAVE 50 YEARS….50 YEARS BEFORE THE WORLD BASICALLY IS DESTROYED BUT ITS REALLY HARD TO LIVE…NO ANIMALS…PEOPLE IN PAIN AND ON THE VERGE OF DEATH…FIRE EVERYWHERE….OIL EVERYWHERE…..FACTORY SMOKE EVERYWHERE….HARD TO BREATH….TRASH EVERYWHERE, MOUNTAINS OF IT…NO PLANT LIFE WHAT-SO-EVER….JUST TOTAL HELL…..I DONT THINK WE WANT THAT…BUT WE HAVE 50 YEARS, 50 MORE YEARS LIKE THIS ONE, AND IT’LL BE […]