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You are a “rich”…That is the reason. Good bye ASU!
I’ve lived my life, every day now is harder than the last to keep going. Depression is worse than ever, mood swings getting more wild. Just want to ease from this world to the next, my wife still loves me but with my mood swings won’t be long till I wreck the one thing left. Want to leave before I destroy her life as well as my own. Want her to remember me as I was not as I am.
everyone wants there lives to be like on the movies. the people on the movies have…. perfect lives. perfect friends. perfect relationships.
not only do we adore them and envy them. but we despise them for having everything we dont.
youll find the movies you love the most, are the ones most distant to your life.
but do we ever think… maybe there lives arent ridiculous fantasies, but just SMALL snippets of their livese where all became good… maybe they had a shit raising too.. maybe at some point they too hated life. hated everything about themselves… just maybe… all of us will have an amazing snippet in […]
I don’t know what to do anymore. I have so many questions that are unanswered. One second I’m happy and then one little thing could go wrong and I would be pissed off and sad for the rest of the day or week. I hate having these depressive mood swings. I have very low self eesteem and confidence in myself. I don’t know if I should open up to my friends or not. Somedays I want to be alone and somedays I don’t. I just want godamm hug! Just an out of blue type of hug and for that person to say ” I love […]
I’ve been living like a ghost haunted for my whole life…we are different…we are not them! We are human. We have hearts, feelings, we are not robots. We are not the wrong…we are the right…why should we die as they assemble! I have lived lies for so many years I am the warring chamelion. I have had very few people see me jump ship and see me for what I am…a situational human…a changling. I will be whatever you want. I will make you laugh as I cry. I will wander the depths of this estrangedness forever…there is no end. There is solace in that. […]
I’m 16 and I’m in my junior year of high school. My only true friend, that I’ve known since 2nd grade has moved unexpectedly to god knows where and I have no way of contacting him. I’m also failing all of my classes, I’m constantly mocked, I hate the world, my parents don’t listen to me, and I’m bipolar. There is so much s**t wrong with me and my life, that I’ve lost all hope and faith in my life. Please help before I do something stupid.
Its comforting to see so many other people feel the same way. And if there’s this many replying, imagine how many more people feel what we feel but never say anything. I always find it irritating when I hear people say “suicide is selfish”. Really? If you know someone who’s utterly miserable and just plain wants out, why would you want to keep that person alive? Now who’s selfish? People spew out that statement about suicide being selfish because they hear it from other people but they dont’ THINK about what they are saying. We euthanize animals when […]
Suicidal and Depressed:
How I Feel…
Over the years I have tried everything for help: psychotherapy, antidepressants, mental hospitals, religion, meditation, vitamins, exercise, subliminal tapes…
I am now hit with the worst depression of my life. I am hanging on to life by a thread. The suicidal thoughts are excruciating, lethal, overwhelming.
I know there is nothing anyone could say that will change how I feel inside. I am angry and tired of struggling to stay alive day after day. The pain of living is unbearable. I have made up my mind, in no uncertain terms, that if I can not find a real, life […]
I have seriously had it with everyone. They say they care about me and all this other bullshit, but do they? Fuck no! I give everyone and even my so called ‘friends’ hints that I want a hug, but I never get it. That’s all I want. I just want someone to hug me and say ‘I love you’. And not even in the intamite kind of way just a care/love hug. I am noticing myself getting more pissed off everyday. No one gives a shit about me so why should I give a shit about them? Maybe I’m going crazy. That’s your opionon to […]
They think wash towel bible is the best bible & nobody else can go to the heaven but them.
They said God doesn’t celebrate his birthday, so they never celebrate their birthday & Christmas. If God doesn’t have breakfast, they won’t have breakfast.
Their full jobs are studying wash towel bible, part jobs are spies. They have hackers & wiretap.
There enjoy old things, they love musty food.
They asked me a lot of smart questions. “When will you go back China?â€(Over 10 times), “Do you know how to solve the problem∛216 ?†“Which car do you drive?†…
When they prayed for me, they said to their mind: […]
When i was a little girl i almost drowned at the beach i was almost gone but then my father grabbed me and saved me…..I wish he had let me die then i wouldnt hurt like i do everyday and my family would be over it by now….why couldnt he just let me go? i think it was god’s plan for me to die cause my life has been hell every since. Ive been depressed my whole life now im 27 and extremely tired i just want out….thats all
I would do anything to kill myself.
It’s not that I don’t have the guts, but I can’t do that to my family.
I’ve tried before..and lets just say, our insurance didn’t pay for it, so it cost them a couple grand in hospital bills.
My parents don’t have that kind of money to spend. In fact, they don’t have money, period.
Raising four kids is tough enough, but when two of them our in collage? They own a small business, but with the economy being so bad, they’re lucky if they get two or three paying customers a day.
So if I did die, […]
They think wash towel bible is the best bible & nobody else can go to the heaven but them.
They said God doesn’t celebrate his birthday, so they never celebrate their birthday & Christmas. If God doesn’t have breakfast, they won’t have breakfast.
Their full jobs are studying wash towel bible, part jobs are spies. They have hackers & wiretap.
There enjoy old things, they love musty food.
They asked me a lot of smart questions. “When will you go back China?â€(Over 10 times), “Do you know how to solve the problem∛216 ?†“Which car do you drive?†…
When they prayed for me, they said to their mind: […]
They think wash towel bible is the best bible & nobody else can go to the heaven but them.
They said God doesn’t celebrate his birthday, so they never celebrate their birthday & Christmas. If God doesn’t have breakfast, they won’t have breakfast.
Their full jobs are studying wash towel bible, part jobs are spies. They have hackers & wiretap.
There enjoy old things, they love musty food.
They asked me a lot of smart questions. “When will you go back China?â€(Over 10 times), “Do you know how to solve the problem∛216 ?†“Which car do you drive?†…
When they prayed for me, they said to their mind: […]
They think wash towel bible is the best bible & nobody else can go to the heaven but them.
They said God doesn’t celebrate his birthday, so they never celebrate their birthday & Christmas. If God doesn’t have breakfast, they won’t have breakfast.
Their full jobs are studying wash towel bible, part jobs are spies. They have hackers & wiretap.
There enjoy old things, they love musty food.
They asked me a lot of smart questions. “When will you go back China?â€(Over 10 times), “Do you know how to solve the problem∛216 ?†“Which car do you drive?†…
When they prayed for me, they said to their mind: […]
I’ve been feeling extremely depressed for the last 3 years of my life, and I can’t help but feel bad because it’s my fault that I feel this way. I’m introverted, quiet, and a bit shy. Everytime I’d try to open up and be friendly, it always seems to back fire on me. I haven’t changed much since then.
I try to grin and bear it, holding in all my feelings, but it’s hard. My family claims to have tried to help me feel better, and they’ve gotten frustrated with me. They want me to reach out to people, to go out with friends like my […]
It’s about time there’s a place like this, because the truth is, friends and family don’t want to hear your pleads; they especially don’t want to hear about your latest overdose, cut, burn, in attempts to escape reality.
People don’t always understand depression, anxiety, pessimism, why simple tasks can be so heart breaking for some. They tell you to get over it, stop it, life will get better bullshit. They don’t know how to help, or how to face you.
I use to talk about death all the time with my best friend, she’s heard seven years of my pain. This year, I realized she had enough, […]
Hey there. Let me tell my story for you guys. I’m a 16 yeard old girl and yesterday, I was on twitter just poking around when I accidentally found this site: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
Since I have had those suicidal feelings I started to read it. Next thing I know I was crying. A lot. All because I really wished someone had done it for me, but I never told anyone so… Then I found The Suicide Project website. At first, I tried to read some stories keeping a straight face, but then I just couldn’t handle it. I started to cry again. I was crying like a baby […]
Behold them, my soul: they are truly frightful! like mannequins, vaguely ridiculous, terrible, singular as sleepwalkers, aiming their darkened orbs who knows where.
Their eyes, devine spark gone, as if gazing into the distance, re-main lifted skyward; you never see them let their heavy heads sink dreaming toward the pavement.
so they traverse the illimitable dark, brother of eternal silence,
O city! while all around us you sing, you laugh, you bawl, smitten with pleasure to the point of atrocity, look! i drag my self along also! but, more bewildered than they,
I ask, All these blind people, what are they looking for in the sky…
I’m just an over emotional guy surrounded by people who cant even call them selves my friends because they don’t know me at all the only reason I’m still alive is because i couldn’t make my mom cry like that i dont really know how to put my feeling down as words but I’m trying i may not need help or even support but im just hopping putting it down will help.
I’m 17 and not sure what to do about my feelings it is just so illogical i cant find anyway to help my self all my “friends” are girls who basically use me as an […]