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Life is shit and so am I 
I am over it and this is why 

I am tired and worn 
I am bruised and torn 

My bloods already run out 
I can’t survive another bout 

I got no place left in this world
at it I was hurled

Id rather never been born
Then my life wouldn’t be torn 

My heart is broken 
The pieces taken 

Why wont people see
There’s nothing left in me 

To hurt to live 
To broken to give

Anything but my blood 
Never anything good

And all I ever want is to
Be my own and be true 

But my hearts in so much pain
I could cry again an […]

She sits in her room with a sharpie in her hand
Writing down the words that no one understands
There’s writing on the walls, up and down her arms
Explaining why she caused herself this mutilating harm

It tells a heartbreaking chronicle of her brutal life
And it’s all there written in plain black and white
This story is for the strong, not the weak at heart
It’ll bring tears to your eyes at why she finally fell apart

For as long as she can remember, her life was always hard
At the infantile age of eleven she started her self harm
She hid her many cuts […]

stay in line. stay in step. people
are afraid of someone who is not
in step with them. it makes them
look foolish t’ themselves for
being in step. it might even
cross their minds that they themselves
are in the wrong step. do not run
nor cross the red line. if you go
too far out in any direction, they
will lose sight of you. they’ll feel
threatened. thinking that they are
not a part of something that they
saw go past them, they’ll feel
something’s going on up there that
they don’t know about. revenge
will set in. they will start thinking
of […]

Channeled by Sheldan Nidle Sept 14, 2010

Selamat Balik! We return, dear Hearts, with more to tell you! Everything on your world is now progressing toward a final conclusion. Our Earth allies and our diplomatic and liaison teams are in serious negotiations with the dark cabal. These discussions involve a number of crucial subjects, such as change of government; new financial and currency systems; and delivery of the global abundance programs. These subjects need to be formally worked out and enforcement provisions signed off on. Once this is behind us, we can fully involve Galactic Federation personnel to […]

Hi,

I posted a while back called ‘mine to decide’. There were just one or two brief replies but one I notice was someone who is 12 called me3333 and hates their life. It made me sad and then worried that something I said would be having an effect on someone so young. I am 37 and physically ill. I can remember being 12 and also feeling a sense of dread at how long life was etc… But I did have some wonderful years after that that I would never have imagined possible  until I got sick and I wouldn’t have missed them for the world. […]

I know my time here is coming to a close. and my ultimate goal is not even close to being fulfilled. So in case you don’t hear from me in a while, i bid you farewell. You won’t remember me, but i don’t expect you to. I just wanted to be polite and say adieu.

Hi every one haven’t been in awhile i don’t know if thats good or not but i’m having problems again. Please read through it all even if you think its a wast of time…

I hate my mom still, i have no life to look forward to, i dont feel like i’m in the right place right now.
I have few friends and i’m in the bottom of the pack, were not like those annoying girls that make the duck face of there annoying boyfriends, my friends are those people who like to draw and dress kinda weird, some people say i’m emo, but i’m […]

Every since I was born (for what I remember) everything for my family has been going wrong, I feel like it’s all my fault. I’m the middle child in a family of five. I’m the only girl child in my family, and i bet everyone knows it the hardest to be the middle child. Well, it’s true in my family.

When I stay away from them, They get mad because “I’m not with the family” and when I’m with them it seems that I’m ALWAYS the cause of the problem. my first question: What the fuck do I do? I hate always being the odd one […]

It’s always nice to hear from readers that is, those that can express themselves without resorting to endless four letter words. Every now and then, a well-meaning reader sends me some “important breaking news” on what the light-workers all over the globe are doing. Unfortunately, reading these news items can bring on an incurable headache.

If you haven’t been exposed to “textual mind pollution” before (other than a newspaper) a sample of it is provided below. Try to make sense if you can of this small extract from of a multi-page dissertation received in November 2007, on everything from time milestones to the Andromeda Galaxy.

It contains […]

Hi All,

I’m a guy, but I need to be a girl to be happy in life.  Think about that for a second.  I didn’t say I wanted to be a man with stubble in a dress.  I said I needed a uterus, and a period, and the ability to have children.  I said I wanted a life where wearing a dress would be good, not humorous.

If your body is the wrong gender, killing yourself is the only way out, right?  I’ve tried being a transsexual ******, but I can’t crossdress and expect to have a job, so it’s a no-go.  Suicide is it, right?  Additionally, I […]

I’m going tonight, should have done this a few weeks back but I’ve been lingering for some reason. I’ve tried so hard not to do this, but I think my life has been pointed in this direction all along, so I never really had a choice. I’m  slow hanging with cushioning, this method appealed to me after tons of research.

I would like to say something about this recent post relating to starseeds;

http://suicideproject.org/2010/09/im-a-starseed/#comment-45717

This post encouraged me to create a profile. I am very knowledgeable about starseeds, I have been writing about this for 3 years. I feel I must say; this post makes me feel uneasy, I have a strong sense it is either a fraud, or someone taking advantage of you group of people. I have read the other thread that involve this subject on this suicide site, and they are wonderful. This one has pricked my suspicions. Alluvion is wise to ask for a fb profile.

There is a slim chance I am wrong, […]

Hey Everyone Hope your all ok?

Hey Everyone how are we all feeling

I have suffered with suicidal thoughts and memories for seven years of my life. I’m finding a way out. I have now set up a 100% confidential email to help people. Any request listened to.. wether its to contact someone you darent. To just listen or to help move on.   Babycake@gmx.co.uk

This person posted the video about feeling suicidal, that said it was the devil that made you feel that way. Now they are denying that they are even religious! They have deleted the video post now if course, but I’m sure it’s still remembered in here as many took great insult to it. 

They are also commenting to themselves on thread such as this http://suicideproject.org/2010/09/to-soft-creation/#comment-45699   where they have a number of profiles under different names. These are some of the profiles this ONE person has SoftCreation, brusty, outsidein, PlayDough

I wouldn’t bother posting this but this person has been on here posting all kinds of shit for ages […]

It is nothing more than insulting to people who are seriously suicidal on here, to have to read some of the ‘advice’ given from do-gooders. I call them do-gooders, because they give those with real ability to understand and help, a bad name.

Obviously some people think that because they may have had suicidal thoughts at some stage in their life, this gives them the qualifications to tell others what they should do. 1 in every 3 people have thought about suicide more than once, it is not the same as someone who has felt suicidal for a very long time, it is not the same […]

Here is how suicidal I was 3 years ago:

1. Every night I was thinking that I have to commit suicide, “as I have no other choice”.
2. My emotional suffering seemed to me intolerable.
3. Every single thing to do (like washing clothes in a washing machine) was … extremely painful – it’s best word to describe how I felt.
4. When I was looking at my kid and realizing how my emotions affect him – I was understanding even better that I absolutely should not live.
5. When I was alone and had nothing to do, my thoughts were killing me, I had desire […]