I did this, you can too.
You can see positives in any situation ! Just try to interpret reality with good sides 🙂
hi.
I don’t know how to start this post…how to end it…I don’t even know how it can end. I could end up talking about puppies.
That was an exaggeration.
Ok um so yeah ok agh I really want to write but I don’t know how to put it into words.
Anyway, I’ve been through hell and back. It’s sickening how much I hate myself. I’ve had family problems for a while, before I developed an eating disorder, began to self harm, a bunch of shit imbetween (anxiety, OCD, etc.,) and just wanted to die. But there’s this saying that keeps me going.
Someone could have it […]
Hi Dudes and Dudettes… Tonight I feel like Sh.t, to much work, to little sex, Correction, NONE in months and well I lost my passion for surf …. I guess I’m just tired of all the crap, really bad weather, no time for fun, wife that doesn’t care Sh.t about me, being overweight, bp Sky high, Not getting Hi 😀 in a long time …. But Im not dying today … Im thinking about it … In a big wave, point break style (movie) but without Keanu (He sucks) …. Anyways Cheers I’m having a beer ….
I’m a panromantic homosexual, and my girlfriend knows I’ve suffered with self harm. She knows I still do and that it’s hard breaking the habit, and she’s there when I need to talk. Tonight I told her if I had never met her I would have left and that I probably still wouldn’t be alive today. We have a long distance relationship, and I can’t see her all the time, so I feel alone. Tonight though, we were on videochat and I told her about all of it. Her first words were ‘Oh my God’, and then she started crying. She talked to me, and […]
So I decided to be completely honest right now about my life.
one of my friends is constantly attempting to commit suicide.
my entire group of friends is into cutting and marijuana.
my parents think I’m the good one.
my teachers think Im the smart kid.
my siblings want to be like me.
but I hate myself.
I want to die.
i can’t even tell my friends who cut that I do too because they depend on me to be the stable one in our group.
the one who isn’t fucked up.
i don’t know how much longer I can take it.
i just want to drive and drive and never look back.
honestly?
i feel like shit
…in that time, at that moment and in every time and every moment of the future, you truly believe you cannot and will not be able to cope, that it’s all too much and nothing will ever be right and it’s not like it’s ever going to end well anyway so why not just quit now? It makes so much sense to simply put an end to a life that is nothing but painful when it feels like it will never be anything else.
And the people who try to prevent the suicide of others will often say things like “what about your family/friends/loved ones?” and […]
How many times has it been, I’ve repeatedly lost myself to the sadness that resides in my heart, an overbearing shadow that slowly consumes my thoughts and steers me towards the wrong path. Well… some would say its pretty simple, count the amount of scars, the amount of battles I’ve fought and lost against my desires. I would say I’ve lost quite a few, surprising to say I somehow haven’t lost the war yet. It wasn’t always like this, I was definitely happy by society’s definition. I had many friends in school and never suffered from any mental illnesses as I grew up. So why […]
Hey there 🙂
My name is Sara Johnson.
I just came to say, as a regular of this site, I’m in a really good mood, despite the shit I’m going through right now. I do have issues, but that’s not important. I want to talk about you. I know I don’t know you. Hell, you don’t even know me. But I think you’re beautiful. Not on the outside. Fuck that shit. Do whatever YOU think makes YOU beautiful on the outside. But I think you’re beautiful […]
Today I cut deeper and deeper into my flesh.
The deeper I went the more alive I felt.
Once I was done I looked down at my arm.
it was dripping.
drip.
drip.
drip.
all red.
All swollen.
I was hoping for death.
didnt cut deep enough.
next time.
next time though.
next time I will make it to death.
cant wait till next time.
One shot, that is all I needed when I bought this gun. This time it was real. I didn’t think about taking it too far. This was for me, to end my pain and misery. It was 1996, the year that I hit rock bottom and there was no drugs or alcohol involved. It was severe depression. It was that year as it’s said “the love of my life†and I broke up. But the worst was yet to come. My Grandfather was dying. A man who showed me things in life that never would have been possible for me to learn since my father […]
Please allow me to write some Words in German – because thats the only way I am sure, I can express myself in the most accurat way possible:
Egal wie alleine und einsam ich mir vorkomme. Wenn ich hier einige Gedanken von anderen Menschen lese, dann begreife ich, dass viele in ähnlicher Art und Weise leiden und das gleiche denken. Damit sind wir wenigstens gemeinsam einsam.
Es macht mich sehr traurig, dass es so viel Leid auf der Welt gibt. Leid ist eine subjektive Empfindung, so ist bereits auf Wikipedia zu lesen. Dennoch gibt es Arschlöcher, genannt “Freunde und Familie”, die einem sagen “Kopf hoch.” , “Leben […]
I have this weird urge to randomly smashing my head at random place and time
I am thankful for my misery when it is consistent, because I already do not feel I deserve what I have, and can only see my life getting worse.
I just found out my cousin was KIA in Iraq. I ran. I just ran for 9 miles before it sunk in. Even now, I don’t truly accept it. I just want to turn off my emotions.
Here I am again, it’s been a long time and nothing has changed. But today, for the first time of my life, I want to fight. Fight against those who want to crush me, fight for those who can’t get up. So, from today, I’m gonna run, run into the life and make my path shine like no one else !
Sometimes I just spend my night thinking how this family will function after I’m gone. Some nights I’ll cry hysterically because I know no one in this family will ever self reflect, see what they do to me, how they destroy me. Some nights I keep blaming myself for everything that happened, apologizing for not dying in the hospital after I was admitted with fever after 14-02-1994. Some nights I lose myself in every memory that was created and end up fainting, screaming in agony. Some nights I try my best to cut every flaw away, break my skin in the hope that my spirit […]
Note: This is my personal experience and I tried to explain everything I could, I could explain better but I’m not a writer,I’ll write whatever comes in my mind and sorry for the English grammar mistakes 🙂 So, let me show you how to die without pain, it works 100% and I know it is going to be a long article (may be) but it worth reading. 🙂 I’m not here to waste your time or make you feel bad, I want to […]
I just want my dad back Well im new here, as you can tell this is my first note? Story? Im not sure what these would be called on here, i just know that i found this site for, I’m not sure but some reason, and i feel the need to finally get my feelings out somewhere. Well i don’t want people to feel bad for me or anything, just that i need to let this out, when i was younger i had a great life, well i did but the bad things where always covered up so i never knew what was […]
I’m not afraid of being laughed at. I just think that, even if I do my best now, I still may not be able to reach my goal. No… I know the chance of success is way too low. Knowing that, why would I even try?! Why don’t I just living my life like this ’till the end?
Hello, there. I know life has become so bad, but we can be together forever. No one cared about you but I’ll care for you. You’ve gone into a deep depression and I can help you to get out of your depression and I can make your life happy 🙂
I need a girl’s friendship. I’m just a normal boy looking for someone special in my life! I don’t know if I can find someone to talk to. Even if My life was perfect it was like mess for me, I was depressed too but I learned to getup and change my life. My life is […]