The truth is she’s a mess. Once so well put together. Once was that happy girl that smiled twenty four- seven. The girl that had great friends and was nice to everyone. She was complete with joy. That girl faded. That girl doesn’t exist anymore. A gloomy depressed girl now exists. Battling for her life every day. Battling with life. She went from going out with friends to staying up all night crying. She shut down. No words spoken. But she woke up the next day and painted that smile on her face. Look in her eyes and you will see a world filled with […]
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My Suicide Note
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Two hundred fifty four days since I first made my decision. I went out that day with my rope to a nature trail that is rarely used nearby my work. One solid tree in the secluded woods was all I wanted. It was my birthday. I began walking down the trail, but slipped at the end of a wooden bridge, wet with the Autumn rain. I touched my head. Blood.
Weighing my options, I pulled myself up and headed back to my car. Where I fell was clearly visible by a nearby parking lot, so instead of risking the possibility that anyone that might have seen […]
I want to end this
i want to suicide so bad
but apparently i cant
i just cant
Just because of
Christianity
They say you’ll go to hell
Thats just so stupid
why cant we end our life
its ours
The police puts u into a
mental hospital if they catch u
trying to attempt suicide
well maybe o shouldnt be afraid
this might be the last thing i write
so
im not scared anymore
so bye
I’m not good enough for anyone to just love me. It’s all I ask for in this life, I just want someone to love me wholey and honestly but I guess I just don’t deserve that. I guess god thinks I don’t deserve to be happy. I hear the voice in my head everyday that tells me over and over “you’re not good enough, no one really loves you, you’re a disappointment to everyone, just do the world a favor and end it.” And right now that sounds like a good idea. I want to die, slowly and painfully, none of this quick and painless […]
It’s been almost 7 years dealing with the same routine. Dealing with these thoughts, emotions, and temptations. I’m just so tired.
And the thing that brought be to the edge, once again, is completely ridiculous!
My father and sister think I’m gay. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to bash on those who are homosexual or bisexual, but I know that I’m heterosexual.
It’s just that recently I’ve been staring at girls for a while. Not with romantic purpose, but instead I’ve been constantly comparing myself to every single girl I see. I see all of them and they are all much prettier than I am, […]
Honestly I’m ready to end up my life this time. Its very hard to let myself keep survive and put a side for all the issues I had in my life. Its make me always felt hurt & cries everytime I look in myself.
When 10 yrs ago, if my first time suicide succeed, probably this time I’ll no need do more cruel action on myself. Absolutely this time I’ll no more use pills and its was right taking pills could not put in death. What a waste action, but this time I’m surely my 2nd action for suicide and die will be success.
I’m […]
Hello. My name is Django, that’s really all I’m willing to share. For as long as I can remember, I’ve been highly suicidal. I once threw myself at a mugger with a box cutter, knowing I’d probably die, and he only got my hand. *****. Ive had people look me in the eye, tell me to die, I go to do it, they save me. Ive never had a good relationship, ive ruined every friendship ive ever had. I work about 16 hours a day and that doesnt stop the thoughts. My ex girlfriend and I had a child together, and she despises me, and […]
hello! As you can guess from my name who i am..yes i am broken..i have lost everything in my life.
i have a pretty much hard and pathetic life uptill now and i have always fought back..i am a warrior..or maybe i was one…
i really don’t like breathing anymore ..it has become suffocating now.. i just feel like running away ..and the best way to run away is to die..i still have hopes that maybe there would be a magic and everything would be alright…but i think i need to quit…..
I want to die. No, I want to be brutally And painfully tortured and murdered. This is how much I hate myself. Everyone else pretty much feels the same way and there’s a reason for it. I’m a completely unlikable person. A mess that could never be loved, pity is not even reserved for people like me. I’ve even turned the person I love more than anything in the world, my best friend, my ally, my partner, completely against me. He can’t even summon up any type of positive feeling for me. I feel so lost, I don’t even know how I’m still alive. He […]
I don’t think I want this, but what am I saying? I never did.
This isn’t the life I ever wanted to live. I used to have so many hopes and dreams… And now? There’s… Nothing. Just broken remains of the buildings of my hopes and dreams, shattered by those who thought lesser of me, as if their cruel words could never hurt me. But not just them. The family never helped me, if anything, they made it worse. This isn’t where I should be starting though. The suicidal feelings, the depression, everything like that, developed at around the age of 7. […]
Okay so here it goes…
So, I’m Angel and I absolutely hate my life..
My entire life, my parents would get into huge fights and let’s just say a lot of cops knew my name and where I lived. My older sister would always scream at me and punch me and just constantly make my life miserable, and even today (she’s 18 and has a baby) she continues to do just that. In fact it has probably gotten worse.
Even though I am the youngest, I am ANYTHING but spoiled. I have to clean the house everyday while my sister goes […]
I think I will finally end it all today. This will be the second time I try to kill myself, but this time I’m not going to take some pills. I have a razor blade next to me and plan to get in the shower and cut myself open. I just wanna tell my story to someone and anyone who is willing to read this. This is not an impulsive thing I’ve been in pain for a very long time and am so tired of trying to hold on. I was bullied all of my life, and no I’m not exaggerating, ever since I started […]
I hate my life. I’m so depressed.. It all started about a year ago. There was this guy I had liked for a while and we finally started talking. The first few weeks, everything was great. We texted just about everyday. Exchanged the finest words. Things were perfect. Then suddenly one day it’s like he just forgot about me. He started tweeting about this other girl and it made me feel invisible. Once him and her stopped talking, we started again. Then another girl came into the picture. I hated seeing them flirt at school. Anyways, he’d flip flop back and forth between her and […]
It was midnight nobody was at home…. i picked the keys of my car … i locked my room and i moved to the car…the time was 2:30am …i started the moved on…then i went to a nearest mountainn…… i stopped the car and realizing all who dont care abt me … who betrayed me…And then i started the car again and i was incresing the car race and then i took my foot off from break and the car move soo speedly …And then i ijumped into the mountain with my car … I closed my eyes and praying to my lord […]
I’ve decided it. I’m going to die. I have a bottle of pills right here beside me. I just wanted to let somebody know. So that I wouldn’t be alone. Not more than I already am, anyway. I thought about posting on Facebook, but I wouldn’t want the two people who would actually see it to worry.
I suppose while I’m at it I might as well tell my story. Don’t worry, it won’t take very long. I’m 16 years old and female. My name is Lucy. I was born on April 18, 1998. To think at that moment in time I had no problems in life. […]
I think that I’m the type of a good girl, I have never talk back to my parents, not even when they crushed my dream of becoming a ice skater, not even when my mother forgave me from seeing the love of my life, but actually she is over- protective just with me, I have 2 bigger sisters, but the only one that my parents don’t allow to go out at night or even with my friends on a Saturday is me, I really can’t live anymore in this controlled life, they are making me do all the things that they can’t do in their […]
Today instead of driving straight home I took a long detour around my town. I went up and down streets and stopped occasionally on a hill side. I pondered whether or not to hit to gas and keep going. A small accident maybe, they would say. But it would be okay for me. All that pain and stupid shit would be over. All the worry about being so fucking different and not normal would be gone. I wouldn’t spend the rest of my life locked up somewhere. No, if I were to be punished then I’d rather die because I’m already living in hell. I […]
“I’ve walked through this life never having the intention to hurt anyone or to anger anyone. I’ve walked through this life trying to make friends, not enimies. I’ve always tried to put a smile on everyone’s face so they will never have to know the pain and suffering I went through. I went through this life thinking that if I seen someone that looked like they were going through what I was, I’d do anything to make their day better. Because I believed that I should do more good in this world than the evil I have done. I feel like I accomplished that. There […]
You think your days are uneventful, and no one ever thinks about you. You think your days are ordinary, and no one ever thinks about you. But we’re all the same, and she can hardly breathe without you.
I don’t know your thoughts these days.
We’re strangers in an empty space.
I don’t understand your heart,
It’s easier to be apart.