I don’t want to die. I really don’t. Except everyday I go to sleep I wish this is the end. I wish I wouldn’t wake up. And every time I wake up I’m disappointed I did. And then I feel horrible about wanting to die when there are so many people who would give anything to live. So maybe I do want to die, but I just don’t want to kill myself. It’s why I had to stop the cutting, if I kept at it I would have killed myself.
There is a pit in my stomach and I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because I […]
I just can’t deal with this anymore! For how many years I’ve been plastering on a fake smile and drifting through life seemingly happy, but deep down I just want to scream every time somebody thinks I’m okay. Years ago when I was 10 I was physically and mentally abused, I was beaten down and made to believe that I was a monster, a problem, a waste of god damn space. I tried to tell people and they didn’t believe me! People who were meant to protect me! I believed I was a monster because these people seemed to love my abuser more than me […]
I didn’t mean to do it but i did and i am sorry. It hurts but it makes me forget. I am sorry i let my family down. I promised them i would not do it and i did, I thought i out grew it but i haven’t. I thought i was strong enough but i am not. I am sorry Love you Brice, hope you can forgive me.
I’m stuck in my life. I just got into a fight with my parents and they told me I stink. They’ve been hinting that they don’t want me living here a lot lately. I could hair get a job and move out but I’ve ruined my life at 19 because I have drug charges against me. I was smoking weed on campus and I got caught. Actually I was smoking because I thought the weed would make me feel better…. It doesn’t btw. Weed makes me feel even worse. I hate me man.
I’m not a stranger to happiness, I’ve experienced the sensation on a multitude of occasions, but those were obviously short lived. Everyday, I witness at least one individual who seems outwardly pleased, happy even. These people are usually middle class or above, with clean clothes, nice teeth, smiling faces, and an excess of money that they intend to spend on those things that make them happy.
What kinds of things make me happy? Well, right now all I can think about is food. But who am I kidding? I can’t afford that shit.
There are just some people in the world that won’t live happily, mainly because […]
I’ve tried to kill myself about .. 7 times. I’ve tried hanging.. Ended up blacking out and waking up to Demond’s and evil thing coming after me. I’ve overdosed 3 times. That ended with throwing up water and sleepless nights with ringing ears and sweaty palms. I was recently in a psychiatric hospital. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and severe depression. They put me on 3 different medications.. But I don’t take them. They make me foggy. I feel like people can read my thoughts and control them. I hear a man talking to me all the time. His name is 6. He leaves mean […]
First of all… I’m not going to censor this. YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND. I NEED SOMEONE. Listen. Please, just hear me out! I can’t take being ignored anymore! So please, please just see what I have to say! Your the lucky one…all of you who are not me…all of you who you don’t have to ask for your own mother’s affection. Those of you whose own sister isn’t always planning to bring you down. Those of you who’s father actually spends time and gives a fuck about you. Why can’t I be you..? You don’t have to pretend to be someone you’re not over social media […]
I’m not sorry…………………………
This is more or less a  suicide note that will never be read because I’m a ***** to put it simply.
But if I ever grow the balls to correct the mistake God, nature or what ever brought me made. But I wanted to finish this shindig on a high note.
And this is quite possible the first and last time I’ll ever mean this sentence.
I’m not sorry.
To the wonderful father I have and the mother that was never bad but I always resented.
I’m not sorry.
To my amazing family I do nothing but complain about because I can only hate someone who values me over […]
Just because I don’t want to live, does mean I don’t want a good life, I don’t want to sit around an wait to die, funny the things you randomly ponder
i’m trying hard to keep my mind under control, with all these silly thoughts, and the frustration that builds up over things that aren’t that important, and also trying to ignore the temptation I’m having lately to drink
As I sit here typing this, I feel like such a mess, an I realise how far I’ve fallen, and how fast, even though I didn’t have far to go, I set the scene as a crazy […]
I am happy my family pushed for me to get a dog. No matter how bad of a day I have or how stupid I act sometimes, my dog will always love me. Zelda Is my life line. Â You can talk to them for hours on end and they will never judge you or talk back at that. They are the perfect listeners and it seems they can tell when you are having a great day or a bad one.
Please someone, Anyone….Help me….I wanna die so badly right now, and i have no one to talk to…Please… Just Please….Talk to me…Don’t leave me alone….I don’t wanna be alone anymore…
Just when I thought that my life was perfect going just right 2 people from my college dare to make me look like such an idiot to my BEST FRIEND! How can they make her choose between me and them, she is my best friend. Now my best friend wants to keep our relationship undercover, how can anyone live like this???? These people do not even know me at all and all of a sudden think that they have the right to judge other people…no one is perfect, especially not them! I feel like my life is crashing down right now and I feel betrayed! […]
31 years and still nothing but wasted potential. Â A jack of all trades and a master of none. Â Still no purpose no sense of worth, a burden at best. The worst kind of person there is a liar, a thief, a disappointment, a complete fucking waste of life and space. Â A coward with the face of a bull the mouth of a lion and the bite of a tiger, Â for loved ones only of course. Â Who else exists my world is a small one. Â Ruled by vices, hopeless, hopeless, hopegone.
I am a waste…
The sun and the trees have life,
The people walking by infectious of there media ridden minds have life..
The sheep of the masses
Do they deserve to be slaughtered due to ignorance?
Or should they be applauded for enjoying life?
These decisions have not been left to me nor do I want to make this choice.
The only choice I want is to end my pain and suffering
A lifetime of addiction and hurting others is all I’ve managed.
I am the American Psycho watching others pass by; testing the boundaries of reality.. what if I fell off this bridge onto these cars?
What […]
I am obsessed with death and suicide. In my mind, it looks like a beautiful way to go.
I picture myself in the final hours, preparing my own wake and the steps I take to my final sleep.
The only problem is, I feel that there are two minds inside my brain, both want to die, but one is still sad and urges me to seek help first. The other is evil and wants me to scare and push people away by becoming this dark and morbid girl, it wants me to die.
My belief is that they were whole once, feeling the same emotions of hurt and […]
I feel like i love this person, and its impossible, because they will never love me back. this is eating me away and i dont know how to deal with any of it. i just really want to talk to someone about all of this. the bad thing is, im afraid if i admit it to someone, itll be so much worse. i know i need to talk to someone, if not, ill just explode. either way, this is slowly killing me.
I feel so alone all the time, its killing me. Its  like i look around and see all these things going on and i just feel so distant from them. Im turning 18 and graduating next week, yet i feel no excitement whatsoever. Ive been going through so much lately, mentally and physically its really wearing me down. I dont know how to cope with any of this because i have no one to talk to. if i tell my best friend, she will just worry, if i tell my mom, she will worry. i cant worry about someone else worrying for me. it sounds […]
Hi all,
this is a guy who is alive only because he’s not got the courage to commit suicide so far.
You may say I’m a weak person only to have such a thought in my head, but I’m sure even if I tell you the story you’ll not understand it, but know it.
I’m 19 now, freshman in college. I have let go of my studies for months now though I used to be one of the bests back in school.
I have always been lonely in my life, even during the short periods that others thought I was not anymore, I felt that loneliness inside me. I […]
My kik is prefectlybroken504. I need someone to talk to before I walk out my house and go to the nearest bridge and jump. I’m lost and broken and need help picking up the pieces. I don’t want to live but i do. I think my thoughts are getting the best of me. And I don’t know what to do. I’m 22 years old. I’ll be 23 in a few months if I live that long.
It’s almost 2AM. I’m in my room alone. Crying my eyes out wanting to die. I haven’t felt this way in over a month. I look at my scars and notice them fading. Why are they leaving me I don’t want to see them go. They’re such a big part of me, I swear they’re my closest friends. I’ve tried everything to clear my mind, but nothing seems to work. I’ve tried snapping a a rubber band, I’ve tried drawing a butterfly,I’ve tried all I can think. I don’t know what wrong with my mind. all I know is that it’s back. The urge to […]
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