December 9th, 2013, I woke up in an ER. This was literally the last thing I had wanted. When I downed a bottle of sleeping pills the night before I had taken precautions to make sure that was the last thing I was ever going to do. For a while, I thought that was the last thing I was going to do. There had been a real beauty in that thought. A sense of release, the logic of consequences no longer applied. I was going to die, and not have anymore worries and problems forever. True, there would be no more happiness, but there also […]
my step sister is sooo fucking annoying! I hate her soo much sometimes!! I went downstairs and come back up to find her snooping thru my computer!! what the fuck??? so I came in and saw her closed the door behind me and she was like mortified like I was going to kill her which I did.(jkjk I didn’t kill her I wish tho) and I started screaming at her I look at the computer and shes looking at my fucking history on the favorites bar….I wish she would just grow up and move out! and she only fucking 10 years old!!!omg I might die […]
We’ve got retreats, haven’t we? Well I was just wondering whether there’d be a suicide retreat ever in the future?  you go there, commit your act and its over! no lawsuits, no ethical concerns, no human rights advocates, nothing of that sort! I mean after all shouldn’t we be free to choose membership of that sort..
I’ve been reading these posts for a little bit and I feel compelled to write something to see how I feel after.
For the majority of my life (I’m 20) I’ve always felt lonely, unimportant, useless, forgettable, and other synonymous adjectives that will most likely describe how I’ve felt. Â I’ve grown up with a life most people would envy; a caring family and friends, food, shelter, education, income when needed, support for the things I do, everything.
Despite living a comfortable life, I feel so hopeless regardless of any efforts to better my life. Â And I must stress I put in considerable effort to better my life. […]
Don’t give up!!!!!
How will this little pain you feel compare to ETERNITY?
Ever since I was 4 or 5 years old I remember telling my dad I was going to kill myself. Ive always suffered from depression and started suffering from severe social anxiety probably 7 years ago. I’m now 23 years old. I’ve never been truly happy. It’s not about the tangible possessions that I have/don’t have, nor is it about money. I just hate who I am as a person, I have trouble with the most simple tasks. Recently I found my gf of 3 years was cheating on me with multiple different people. she was the only thing that really made me somewhat content […]
I don’t want to die. I don’t want to give up, but I cannot continue living in agony and have the one person who is suppose to be there for me, protect, and show guidance; put me down and make me live in constant regret of my mistakes.
I have one possible chance at getting out of this hell of an environment. However, it seems unlikely that it may happen due to the lack of response.
How can anyone stay positive when you’re constantly put down?
You know I can’t afford to leave otherwise I would have done that already. But you threaten me regardless. You take advantage […]
Why mustn’t this website support suicide? Suicide can solve all of your problems and many problems for anyone you know. We are each a burden on each other, so why not remove that burden by killing ourselves? In fact, if you are reading this and you are suicidal, I encourage you, just for starters, to stop listening to what people have been telling you by thinking about all the people that would miss you if you were gone and start thinking about all the people who would benefit from you being dead. If you’re a teenager, your mom can finally stop making you food that […]
another user – missmisery posted a quote which ended with “And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.”
It was an absolutely perfect summation of why we take that step.
I have failed my exams, repeatedly, and watched lesser people pass. This recent one pushed me over. I had given it everything because knew full well I needed to pass but as usual when I didn’t see my number up there. I gave up. this life of failure […]
My life is just becoming more and more difficult anymore, more then i feel any person should have to deal with. I have survived through alot. Two house fires where i have lost everything. my mother having 3 diffrent types of cancer beating them all just to die to a cardiac myxoma. Leaving me at the age of 19 on my own. But the hardest thing has been most recently, i decided to date after a horrible breakup, only for it to halt my life completely. While dating this girl she ran a stop sign and got into a car accident while i am glad […]
My New Years resolution is to rise above all the fuckers that have brought me so low and then laugh at their pitiful way of living.
I mean my brother-in-law told me HE TOLD MEÂ that I am poison for his household and don’t care about anyone but myself. This coming from the self riotous ASSHOLE who forgets to feed his dogs, refuses to feed the cats because he finds wet cat food disgusting, sits on his ass and plays video games all day, and picks fights with my sister because it helps him feel like a man. The only reason he told me I am poison? […]
I feel like I’m just wasting away and honestly there’s nothing in this world that’s keeping me here.
I’ve already told my-self that if my life actually goes wrong some how, I won’t hesitate to escape as quickly as possible (hopefully find a non-painful way). I’m turning 15 tomorrow, but when ever I think of my future it just feels like I don’t have any control over it. Even now, I do ok in school and my life is pretty average with good family and friends. But they don’t really know the real me, maybe I’m just lonely and want attention? But when I actually have […]
I think everyone can relate to those moments in life where you feel invincible. You are just so happy that it’s like nothing can hurt you and for that moment you forget about all the pain and all the bad that surrounds you. But just as you are in that high life strikes back bringing you back down to where you started. That’s why so many people refuse to be happy because something usually goes wrong that risk of being knocked back down is always in the back of their mind. Happiness is one of those things that can either have a permanent effect or […]
its 2014 I’m almost 28 and i’m just unhappy with the outcome of life in general. i actually went out to party and drank with the guys at work, and i forgot about my overall self and just had a good time. Everyone around me was in there mid 20’s to 23’s i felt really old out of place, but i didn’t care. i just hoped no one judged me for being to old. when its all over and done with they’re still teenagers and i’m a middle aged man. where the hell is my life going, why am i partying with people younger then […]
I cant get out of bed, my whole body hurts, food disgusts me and all I can think about is slashing my wrists…there is no one here to care or not care, I am alone, and there is no one I can talk to, not because they wouldn’t listen, but because I don’t know what to say…I have led a privileged life, there is literally no reason for me to feel like this…and still theres no reason for me to not have ended it already…into another year of cowardice and exhausting faking of wellbeing.
There is an empty feeling that resides in my soul. I have searched every logical avenue to end this horrible feeling. I have been through hell and back, and as I look back the only reason I kept going was because I had meagre problems to overcome and each time I would succeed I would experience an acute sense of joy. I suffer from anxiety, depression paranoia you name it. Whether or not it was self inflicted from my history of drug abuse, traumatic events or my family history of mental illnesses or the potentiation of all of the above, this feeling is f*cked up. […]
JUST DONT KNOW Y IAM HERE IF IAM THE PURPOSE > NOT SURE Y THIS DONT END BECUS IM SICK OF BEING A CONTARD TO EVERAE AND NOAE…………
Do you remember that feeling that everything is finally better? That you feel you have finally out ran the blade and all the pain? Tell me if you remember the day that you woke up and found that it was all a dream, that you never outran the blade or the pain or the scars? That’s how I’m feeling right now. I feel how all of my problems have been piled up so high that I can’t see anymore, that the weight is just too much. It feels like I can’t breath anymore, like my world is just crashing down all around me. I love […]
Tried it all: talking, counseling, therapy, asked my doctor what meds would work best since many could practically cripple me (he still hasn’t gotten back to me). No matter what I do, I see everything and everyone as less than perfect and therefore a burden to the universe and everything in it.
…I think too much. New lesson, kiddies: don’t think. It’ll do things to you.
Anyways yeah. Would a 20ft drop head-first be enough to kill me?
Seriously. We are each a waste of space, food, fuel, and other resources. No one has any worth or value. One person cannot possibly make a difference in this overpopulated world. Â Even if someone could, that person is not you, me, or anyone else who is suicidal. Or is it?
Those who are suicidal have come to the bluntly obvious yet highly uncommon knowledge that life is not worth living. Suicidal people want to stop pain, which means dying. Death stops all pain, no matter how temporary or permanent. Therefore, suicidal people want to die. And when they do, family and friends suddenly become depressed because […]