I’m not sure if this is the right place to be posting this, but i’m not sure where else to ‘rant’ about it.
So I started University just over a month ago, and since about a week after I arrived I have been in something of a downward spiral. My flatmates are all nice, there’s lots to do and lots of people to meet but I am becoming increasingly unhappy.
I can fake it around others, act happy and interested but I can’t stand doing so. I shut myself up in my room for days at a time, not being able to leave because the […]
Note: This is my personal experience and I tried to explain everything I could, I could explain better but I’m not a writer,I’ll write whatever comes in my mind and sorry for the English grammar mistakes 🙂 So, let me show you how to die without pain, it works 100% and I know it is going to be a long article (may be) but it worth reading. 🙂 I’m not here to waste your time or make you feel bad, I want to show […]
I just want my dad back Well im new here, as you can tell this is my first note? Story? Im not sure what these would be called on here, i just know that i found this site for, I’m not sure but some reason, and i feel the need to finally get my feelings out somewhere. Well i don’t want people to feel bad for me or anything, just that i need to let this out, when i was younger i had a great life, well i did but the bad things where always covered up so i never knew what was […]
I’m not afraid of being laughed at. I just think that, even if I do my best now, I still may not be able to reach my goal. No… I know the chance of success is way too low. Knowing that, why would I even try?! Why don’t I just living my life like this ’till the end?
Hello, there. I know life has become so bad, but we can be together forever. No one cared about you but I’ll care for you. You’ve gone into a deep depression and I can help you to get out of your depression and I can make your life happy 🙂
I need a girl’s friendship. I’m just a normal boy looking for someone special in my life! I don’t know if I can find someone to talk to. Even if My life was perfect it was like mess for me, I was depressed too but I learned to getup and change my life. My life is […]
I just want it to end.
EVERYTHING.
none of it will stop. I feel everything telling me to just do it already!
its not like I’m worth it.
i need to Do it. Or I need to completely Ă‚Â start over.
which should I do?
I am so sorry for wasting your time with this, but I have to get it out. For the past seven years, I’ve had problems hiding things and lying to my parents. Now, my dad is so upset with me that he refuses to talk to me. I didn’t realize what I was doing at the time, and how much I was hurting them. I can’t help but think that if I commit suicide, it’ll make all there problems go away and they’ll finally be happy. They once assured me this was not the case but I can’t help think it anyway. They’ve talked to […]
I want to die, and not because I’m going through some ‘rough times’ or whatever, I’ve felt this way since I was at school.
I’m in my 20’s and I have mental health problems, manic depression,Ă‚Â insomnia, amongst other things, I never have any energy nor feel happiness.
I feel like life isn’t for me, it’s all too hard when I think of it all, it’s soĂ‚Â daunting and I just don’t have the energy for it. I can’t hold down a job because of my insomnia, so what’s the point of living? I’m not wired properly to ever be happy and I’ll always have problems doing normal […]
No one sees me falling
No one sees me dying
No one sees me crying.
Not even the rain.
Just a poem I’ve written today which is I think pretty recognizable for people who cut. It’s the way I feel about it.
The first time,
it feels so innocent.
Just a small scratch.
But after a while,
you know that first cut wasn’t that innocent.
It was the beginning of an addiction,
that’s hard to beat.
And addiction that’s getting worse and worse.
There’s nothing left of that first little scratch.
The cuts you make now are much worse.
While you’re cutting,
you can see the skin tearing apart.
You can feel the stinging pain,
of your knife that’s cutting in your skin.
You […]
It could’ve been a lot worse. I could’ve had a life like you, and you, and you…
What is it?? Do I really have a warped mind? Am I sick? Do I need someone else’s help? Am I simply ungrateful? Lazy? Stupid? Ill-intentioned? What is wrong with me?? Why am I this way???
I’m tired, overwhelmed, uninspired, afraid, hurting, uninspired and I don’t know how to get past it. I might not even know what it is I’m trying to get past. I try something new only to spin my wheels. I’m living my life on repeat, with the same worn out patterns and themes playing again and again.
Have you ever realize, you are facing something that you can’t get away from it, you can’t do anything to get rid of it even you can’t ignore it, all you can do is just walk with it, until certain point of time your head tell to your self that ” i hope it will get away soon” but it won’t, it just keep dragging you to the bottom of the pit that maybe already make you felt hallucinate, and then you try to spell it out but another opinions tell you that it was something that makes you……stronger happier you name it or “hang […]
At first, I thought there is something wrong with me, then I found out why but no ones care and I realize the real problem.
I should have one of those fairy tail lives, I come from a good family, always went to good schools, I always got good grades, but it’s never good enough. I’m a college student at a decent college, nothing amazing. I played division 1 sports on one of the best teams in the country for 2 years and quit as of this year. No one in my family supports my decision to quit. I didn’t quit because I’m lazy, I quit because I’m a math major, I make the deans list frequently, school is what is important to me, but my classes didn’t fit with […]
Birthdays: supposed to be a day whereon good wishes help one to have a better day than usual. I am in trouble this year, today has been awful.
Everyday I wake up, go to the gym then to work, all the while trying to forget how lonely I am and how people do not help me feel less lonely. I get invites to other people’s birthdays and various nonsense, on mine, just like every other day, nothing. People Have no problem telling me what they need from me and criticizing me when I don’t provide it.
I am […]
Is there any way on how to be a good writer?
I’m tired.
tired of existing. I feel like I am a zombie. Like my life has no purpose.
is there a god? I don’t know. Actually, I do. I believe there is a god, but I don’t know who he/she is.
I’m tired.
tired of not being good enough. Of trying my hardest to achieve and failing again and again.
im tired.
Tired of watching the same thing happen around me over and over again without being able to do anything about it.
I feel like I’m screaming and no one can hear me.
like I’m behind a pane of glass, and while I can see everyone, they can only see the outside […]
My health, my youth, my dreams, my potential, my opportunities, the blessings I have had…
All wasted. I don’t even know why, I truly don’t know why. I don’t know why I’ve been wasting myself. I don’t know what I’ve been doing or thinking.
If, and, but…
Maybe, can’t, no…
Should’ve, would’ve, could’ve…
The beginning of the end is almost here, I hear, and I don’t know what to do now.
I am new here, both the website and the desire to end it. I am a seventeen year old male in the 12th grade. I have read many of the stories and thought it best if my story is out there somewhere, for when I am gone(even if no one I know reads it).
I have had a great life, that makes the feelings I have more confusing, both to me and the doctors. I move a lot and have little amounts of friends, but I am ok with that. I am very smart, especially in mathematics.
My life started its bitter collapse in May […]