If suicidal thoughts are to be replaced with thought of life, a new thought system must be utilized; one with a new focus and a new goal. Such is A Course in Miracles. It is flexible, in that, it sees you where you are, as you are, as well as where you could be without the thought of death. It provides a workbook of lessons to train the student in how the shift of perception can be made. It does not force, but enables. It does not appeal to everyone, though it has a profound effect on those whom find it appealing. Here is the […]
A little story, maybe a little hope.
Hi. I’m sorry for my English. I’ll try to make myself understandable. The reason that I’ve came back here to write this is that I’m feeling well. And I want to share this here.
Since my youth, since I had 8 or 9 years, I have suicide thoughts. Jumping was always my “favoriteâ€. Like the way it looks, flying for freedom, forever freedom. I’m, obviously, an atheist. Don’t believe in anything that will punish or save me. I’m all by myself, I was born naked and lonely, and I live and always will live naked and lonely, despite of the […]
I’m at the point where I can’t make a difference between right or wrong since I fight the urge to accept that controlling someone’s else life is a right thing to do.
What if this were true?
“Forgiveness is the key to happiness.
Here is the answer to your search for peace. Here is the key to meaning in a world that seems to make no sense. Here is the way to safety in apparent dangers that appear to threaten you at every turn, and bring uncertainty to all your hopes of ever finding quietness and peace. Here are all questions answered; here the end of all uncertainty ensured at last.â€
If this were true, there would be no more uncertainty about where to focus your efforts or how your time could best be spent. If to forgive is divine, there […]
Let’s be honest about it.  The story line on this site is pretty much dominated by the sentiment that hurting one’s self is desirable or at least inescapable. Neither of these things is true, but there is value in admitting the obvious. There is also advantage in admitting that no one, however vehement their claimed desire for death, is completely enthusiastic about the prospect.
There is a way out of this self-defeating cycle of fear, hatred and guilt. It is forgiveness.
Everyone has felt that they have suffered at some point or other. How do some manage to continue on without being paralyzed, while others never recover […]
I’ve got iron over my heart. Â They see the tattered sweater.
I’ve got a wonderful smile. They see a messed up child.
I try to understand where they are coming from. But I can’t.
How dare they make up a quirk in exchange for a good trait.
Maybe it’s all in my head.
Maybe I should let it go like everyone says to.
I can’t stop the feeling i’ve been hiding like almost a year. Is haunting me again; i thought it was in the past. But i was lying to myself, even tho everyday i think about it for a minute, is part of my everyday memories and feelings; Â it comes back at night like a nightmare. I can’t control it, maybe is a sign that, it still remains to let me know that it’s not dead at all. That i can still save it. Save us. It won’t leave my head. That’s why i stay here.
“Although depression can occur at any age, it affects teens more than younger children. Depressive symptoms may start appearing around age 13, and often peaks between 16 and 24. Yet depression can be difficult to diagnose in young people, because symptoms seldom involve mood alone. One study concluded that fewer than half of teen patients suffered mainly from depressive symptoms. More often, they developed a mix of mood and behavioral problems, for example, agitation, anxiety, attention difficulties, or defiant behaviors.”
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Dear Ones,
I, too, have felt suicidal, but I have also found hope of change. Having found it, I would like to pass it on for whatever help it may be. This is the first offering.
One of the difficulties is the lack of insight into why the nightmares come. Why? Others seem to get on ok, even thrive, but not me. I can not cope. How, if it is possible, can I come to a new perspective? If the “how†can be answered, I was very certain the why will also be resolved. A Course in Miracles has shown me how.
I was drawn to A Course […]
My friend moved on yesterday. Helium. Wish it hadn’t worked. Dammit. Of course he would be clever enough the first time. No problem. Genius. Reminded me of my failed attempt. It was a long time ago. I had no perspective. Didn’t believe anyone else could understand. Not really. But now I understand. Really. He didn’t know that. Couldn’t have. I don’t share. Why would I. Why wouldn’t I. So here I am. Sharing.
I know I’ve had a lot of posts as of late and they’ve been all covering the same thing. I don’t think I’ve fully been able to get out of my chest what I need to get out so I’m gonna try again. My life is turning upside down as of late…What I mean by that, is that the life I kno now is changing and its changing dramatically…and I am soooo excited about it, but scared….also I’m also frustrated that I can’t have things happen sooner. I am very impatient. This life altering change means that I will be leaving the only life I’ve […]
I feel like given up, i won’t fight anymore. I’m drowning. But somehow, i’m still here; and i don’t fucking know what is pulling me out of the sea.
It’s been how long now? I don’t really remember. But I do know there is some major shit going down at my house.
Specifically, Mom and Dad split up, Mom has a boyfriend, Dad has a fiance, sister’s pregnant and due in about 3 weeks.
Lots of shit.
And then there’s me.
Domino.
Y’know, I’ve been to hell and back with depression and suicide. And I was doing good too. So what the hell happened?
I might as well be clear with you all, at least the people who are going to read this. I’m a gay transboy. Which means a lot of stuff. First, I’m a boy in a girl […]
I found this online and it captures how lonely I feel.
I Miss You Dreamer
You don’t know how bad I need you here with me,
I need you more than anything more than I need to breathe
How do I last now that my heart has grown so cold,
Being without you its like my heart was put on hold
How do I stay warm without you to hold me tight,
I wish I was in your arms and everything was right
When I’m with you my body becomes weak,
I want to say I love you but its really hard to speak
I get this amazing feeling from […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHqo2FDJSU0I feel like nothing is going anywhere… nothing is getting any better. A year ago I moved to my father’s to finally get away from my mother, sister, and my mother’s boyfriend, because they were pushing me to the edge. They’ve always been “there” for me, at things like competitions for band, and driving me to school events… but that is pretty much where it ends.
My mother loves me, and I hate seeing her upset, but when my sister is around, there is always a pointless fight started by her, and I get to the point of just wanting to jump off the […]
it realy sycks not being able to trust and believe anyone ..i never judge anyone for im not God but for the love of Christ eniugh is enough Lord.it sucks having to pray every day for this world to end or just kill me and get it over with ..sorry for beingblunt but Lord im at the end of my rope and it still reaches the ground and sorry im to normal  to perfict and to real and have christ like qualities  My hands are lifted high and i give it all to you Lord  ..with no turning back the pages of time  i […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QblFiDd3lSM&feature=youtu.be
please watch it, please.
I want to say that nearly half the males in my family have contemplated suicide at some point in their life. Â For some reason, men are taking their lives at nearly five times the rate of women. Â I have had friends and family disappear, overdose or lose their life. Â I thank God for one who still lives…he became a best friend and between him and some damn good women in my life ,they lead me through the most depressing time of my life. Â I’m not exempt from the statistics of contemplation. Â But when I came out if it, I found my life back on track. […]
You think your days are uneventful,
And no one ever thinks about you;
She goes her own way.
You think your days are ordinary,
And no one ever thinks about you;
But we’re all the same,
And she can hardly breathe without you.
The days turn into nights, empty hearts and empty places. The day i lost him, I slowly lost myself too. When he died, he took a part of myself. No time for goodbyes. No explanations, no fucking reasons why. If only sorrow could build a staircase, my tears could show the way. I would climb my way to heaven, and bring him home again. I would do anything to bring him back to me. I would do anything to end what i’m going through. I would do anything to bring him back. Because if i got him back, I would get back the friend that I once knew.