“The leader and figurehead of the opposition and main target of vilification was Leon Trotsky. Serge left Vienna and sped to join the struggle for the soul of the revolution. Discussion, not to speak of opposition, was stifled. Votes were formalities, forced through by the newly created majority – the Lenin levy, 250,000 new recruits to the party who owed everything to the party apparatus. Poets, worker militants and intellectuals were committing suicide from despair. The other side of repression was corruption. By the winter of […]
Stories of Hope
Only I stand in the way of a glorious reunification of the Korean Peninsula. My actions have been evil, but I am now prepared for my execution.
Please send instructions for my surrender and extradition to: changeling7110 [at] gmail [dot] com
I was thinking back about when I started to self-harm. It’s not really clear to me, but I think it’s a long time ago. I’m now 17 and I can remember that at an age of 10 I was already self-mutilating. Things like bang my head against the wall when I was not feeling well and hurting myself by means of abusing to myself, provoking quarrels and so on. Maybe I started earlier, but at an age of ten I can remember it very well. Therefor I can remember I was nail biting, but not other things that can be specify as self-mutilating behavior. The […]
There’s a light. The other way. (Don’t read it. Banal stuff)
Hi people out there.
I read some of your stories – and I do find some of them similar to mine. I’m so weak sometimes, so sensitive and lazy to cope with real life. With that awful life out in the big world, all it’s demands, all that efforts we have to make to indulge it and what it wants from us really isn’t little.
Life wants from us to be normal. To be like anyone else. But sometimes, we just can’t.  Know why? Because we are all so different. Any of us. Any of the other people too who pretend to be normal… All that people we’ve […]
Why can’t she see that I’m not alright?
Why can’t she see that I need her?
Why can’t she see that I hate myself?
Why can’t she see how I feel about her?
More importantly, why do I have to feel this way about her?
Why do I have to love her?
Do you know how often I hear people talk bad about gays, lesbian, and bisexuals? I listen to people go on about how it’s “Immoral” or “wrong” and I just have to sit there, clenching my fists, wanting to punch them all in the face. Because if they knew. If they really knew, then I would never be accepted. […]
It wasn’t violent, the attempted rape. It was mostly tearful, with me pleading for the man to stop. And sick and disgusting. It smelled gross and dirty. I could smell his sweat, I can still smell his sweat. I will never forget it. I will still remember the scent after he got done, after he realised I want going to let him. I fought in my drunkenness.
He had told me that he wanted to talk to me.
William Triplett was his name. He was an ex of mine, and I had just turned 16, and he was 25. I was desperate to find someone […]
I can’t believe it.
She’s gonna die. She hasn’t died yet, but she’s on the brink.
My BEST FRIEND who has cancer is going to be gone forever. I just don’t know what to do! I can’t help her because I’m not magical, but I can’t help feeling that I’m supposed to do something. Seriously, I’m just lost.
She has an overall positive attitude about it, on the outside. But if you have a best friend, you can tell when they are actually fine and when they are scared shitless. She is scared shitless, and who can blame her?
She has less than a year to live. What am […]
By any means, I am not a ray of sunshine. I can’t help it. I’m only a teenager and I’ve basicly given up on life. I have no hopes for the future.
I used to want to be a journalist. I wanted to move back to Ireland and write about everything and anything. I wanted to get married and have a kid or two. I just wanted something out of life, but now I feel nothing. I feel numb. I just don’t know what I actually want. I had plans to do marvelous things with my best friends. But now, since one’s dead and the other […]
A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they’d be asked the “half empty or half full†question. Instead, with a smile on her face, she inquired: “How heavy is this glass of water?â€
Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz.
She replied, “The absolute weight doesn’t matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it’s not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I’ll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, my arm […]
this all actually started a long time ago , in my first grade they were lots of kids who hated me for no reason they called me names they were spitting on me and once almost hit me but i ran away.
it was like that for a long time and since the 6TH grade i started cutting they stopped bulling but i started cutting i was in a depression  i felt lonely like nobody loves me.
everynight i cry myself to sleep
now im in 8TH grade […]
I’m a 17 year old girl, and I’m depressed and  have anxiety issues.. Apparently it is quite common to want to die but it isn’t a good enough reason to actually kill yourself. If you do, people will be seriously hurt. If I didn’t know anyone at all, I would probably do it, but I do know people. So I have to stay alive.
I don’t have close friends because I push them all away. I’m never comfortable, even just sitting alone in my room away from everyone, I’m on edge. When I actually go out and do things, I have to constantly take deep breaths […]
I don’t quite understand why it feels so much easier to write about my problems then to say them out loud I suppose it’s like my thoughts are my own little secret I mean that’s what your mind is for right? A space where you can detach yourself from reality if only for a few moments and go somewhere.. be it a memory or completely make up.. But no amount of day dreaming will save me from myself, Let me start off by saying I am now 19 years old to be 20 in August and have suffered from clinical depression for 4 years, I […]
Im new here so im just going to start with family, as they say family comes first.
The 11th of november 1995 was the day I was brought into this world. Being 2 hours born and taken away from my parents by a case worker. They say it was for the best, she was a drug addict aswell as an alcoholic and she couldnt look after herself or even support herself so how could she look after me? So I was taken away and put into a foster home not even a day old and straight into a complete strangers house. I obviously didnt know what was going […]
hello world iv see you about now after a life of deth filld torts and me whanting to leve this place i can look you in the eye and say
last look
keeping me sane
last look
dead men stering with cold eyes
my last look
i was being bulled and beten
and now i can say why
now i can say if the sky falls ill be the ferst to here it crack and bend cos i feel like it
hanging by a tred not willing to let go but whanting to
cut to sreds by my own hands and my blood falls in a flood
like you sky im alone with only the sun and the […]
So as some of you may know, on October 16th I tried to end my life but survived. Well Now it’s been nearly 5 months and I’m healing. I went to a therapist last month and that really helped. I’m happy again, finally after all this time. I live in a town where we have lost 6 kids in the past year alone to suicide. It’s pretty tough. But now our town is growing together and helping each other get better. We started our own suicide prevention and help page and everyone is sharing stories of survival and triumph and struggle. Prayers are being shared […]
I used to look up into the sky and smile because it was such a great blue day.. but as the years passed on and as friends began to leave.. I began to just hate the blue sky so much.. it made me so angry that there were no clouds.. or it was always blue.. I remembered that it made me so mad I never looked at the sky ever.. One day.. I looked up and everything was white. the cement, the sky, the clouds, and the dying grass. I never looked up and began to resent what I so much loved. I never had […]
It has been nearly a year since i was last on this site…..wow. My situation has changed drastically……..but not improved. Now I am just more experienced. I have a fiance! he is the only reason i haven’t died already, so a short message for you folk, find someone- they will keep you alive
I haven’t told anyone this just because it’s hard for me, and no one has really cared to ask but it’s okay. I’m only posting this here because we’re all alike and we don’t judge each other.
I never really have been a kid with friends, not until this year. Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t because I was antisocial. I was and still am the exact opposite. always making people laugh, smiling, and talking to people, but other than that, I was pretty much always ignored, and I was “the girl who most people like but doesn’t have any friends.” And let me tell […]
Just another battle I’m going through in my head. My head and my heart don’t know what they want…I’m tired of all the pain. Please God don’t let me wake up tomorrow. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Just take me out of this world and give my life to someone else who deserves it. I’m tired of living. I’m just in bad shape. 🙁
drop and give me 20
pull up and give me 30
sit up and give me 40
THIS IS NOT TRANING THIS IS PUNISHMENT
“shut up you in my head your not my sargent”
yes i am im all youv got left
“true that”
your nothing
“well if i wasnt i woudent be talking to you”
true that
“didunt i just say that”
yer but it was witey
“”will you both shut up””
thers too of you up ther
“yer she thinks you shod live and i think you shod diy so your stuk with us”
“”no more like you askt me over and shut the door and lost the key””
why are you a girl
“”dont know its your minde””
true that
“ha now your […]


