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Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

by Stiggymoloch Demon Hunter 11/5/2025

That is a lot of days. One thousand, six hundred, and seventy one.

I have nearly killed myself accidentally by self medicating. I have almost been killed, and I have never quite carried through with plans to kill myself. I have chosen life 16071 days and that is something to be proud of.

I chose life on the worst of days. I chose life on the best of days. I chose life for whatever reason, but mostly because I loved a person/s so much that I could not inflict the level of pain I felt onto them, because I decided to stop choosing life.

And the worst fear […]

11/5/2025 0 comment

What Day Is It

by Muddlewarcar 9/10/2025

written by Muddlewarcar

Today a man told me about how his life spiraled out of control due to an injury that affected every aspect of his life: family, work, finances, physical ability, and mental health. He sought help from a mental health unit and seemed surprised when I told him that I am glad he sought help and that he made it. He expressed appreciation.

Traditional “help” had been forced upon me in the past, but I don’t think that I could give myself over to it willingly. Trust issues.

That man has my respect.

Tomorrow is “R U Ok? Day” and “Make Your Bed Day” among […]

9/10/2025 1 comment

Him

by FindingHopeAgain 8/31/2025

written by FindingHopeAgain

I’m usually really good about being able to write out my feelings and right now I’m at a loss for words. I think because after so long i finally let someone in. I let him into my life. I let him see the darkest parts of me. I let him hear about my abuse. My love for pills. My severe depression. My anxiety. My hate for myself. For once I wasn’t sad I wasn’t fearful of being alone with a man. He didn’t take advantage of me. He didn’t scream at me for my fuck ups. I only ever asked for one thing and that […]

8/31/2025 1 comment

I’m so fucking angry

by Rex079 1/30/2025

written by Rex079

Something learned today: the professional ‘help’ that exists out there, no matter how kind and genuine the person offering it may seem, is not help to actually solve your problems, or support you practically in the ways you need, or console you. It’s help to keep you alive, even (and especially) if it’s against your fucking will, and to stop other people feeling guilty/BEING HELD LIABLE for your death. That’s it, nothing else to it. Your life and the question of its continuation is between yourself and God, and I think that’s how it’s meant to be. What I was looking for, have always […]

1/30/2025 2 comments

my effort isn’t adding up

by journey0810 12/26/2024

written by journey0810

at 3:52pm on august 15, 2024, i attempted to commit suicide to flee from the foul words that escape the mouths of vile people, to flee from the troubles i must push through every day, to flee my imperfect body and personality affected by my severe depression so i can transform into another being. i, however, failed thanks to leaving my computer on. the pleading messages of my best friend were left on read, plainly on the screen of my computer. his words stunned me. he desperately wanted to know if i was okay. he cared to know if i was okay. tears fell from […]

12/26/2024 1 comment

i get on here and delete things and then post bullshit again

by FindingHopeAgain 10/22/2024

written by FindingHopeAgain

I only get on here when things get really bad and surprise things are really bad again. I feel safe on here hiding behind a screen. Strangers telling me it’s going to be alright but I know it’s not. 23 feels so young but i feel like I’ve lived a lifetime and a half.

Today i was driving to work and though one small turn of the wheel and I wouldn’t feel pain anymore. But I can’t leave my cats. That’s stupid isn’t it? Staying alive for cats. My therapist says anything that keeps you alive isn’t stupid but i beg to differ.

Being in this relationship […]

10/22/2024 2 comments

I promise it’ll get better.

by avulturepoet 7/5/2024

written by avulturepoet

I love you. Sit here and just think of your future. Your future if you don’t do it.

I don’t know what you’re seeing right now, but I can tell you that your future is amazing. How do I know?

you are the one who decides what your future is.

you.

you can fight for any future you want, any future you need.

It’ll take work, I can’t lie about that. But I’m proud of you if you do work for it.

i’m proud of you

i love you

7/5/2024 4 comments

“Inconvenient body” (Don’t give up)

by LeaveMeAlone. 11/13/2023

written by LeaveMeAlone.

https://youtu.be/BVt7mXJ8fJM?si=Kn-3V5ptqap7Tcpj

I told my therapist about this video one time. I haven’t gone to therapy in months, I feel a lot better. Today I thought about this video, and it appeared on my youtube feed. The title of this file in the game it’s from is “inconvenient body”. I used to think my body was inconvenient, but now I like my body. I am working to become stronger. My life has never been better than now. About a week ago I felt suicidal one time, but I went to confession and I felt a lot better. I am happy. The problems I had […]

11/13/2023 0 comment

I am a Suicide Survivor.

by Melancholic Mage 9/19/2023

written by Melancholic Mage

In 2015 I lost my father to suicide.

My life was irreparably damaged because of his decision, and to this day the pain he left lives on in my own heart and fuels my own Depression daily. The lives of my family were changed forever.

No matter what you think, what you believe, what you may see as evidence to fuel your decision, you will be missed. You will hurt others. You will make a void in the hearts of those around you. Your absence will be noticed. And mourned.

I live with C-PTSD and can barely work because of constant […]

9/19/2023 13 comments

There is no meaning of life

by niki 9/15/2023

written by niki

There is no meaning of life. We just exist, and die. And life goes on, and on, and on. For million, billion of years, etc etc etc.

We are just a speck of dust in the vast universe, in the grand scheme of things.

Of course, 90% (or 99%?) of people (human beings) will always try to find or give ‘meaning/purpose’ in their own insignificant lives, because the reason is simple: it’s survival instinct. Human beings (people) will (usually) try to keep living, keep surviving, no matter what. It’s evolutionary. It’s in human nature.
Even if it means people (humans) will create anything as their toxic positivity […]

9/15/2023 8 comments

Dear younger me,

by Ophileon 8/13/2023

written by Ophileon

Dear younger me,

I know you’re hurting, I remember how it felt to live in the chaos that was our mind. You’ve been through way more than a kid ever should, and you’re scared. The people you call your parents let you down, time and time again. I know it breaks your heart to not feel loved by them. I know it hurts when those kids at school call you names, ignore you or hurt you. I’ll be honest, it still haunts me sometimes.

I feel so sorry for what happened to you when you were 12. He broke your trust and left a mark on you […]

8/13/2023 0 comment

Exercise!

by oldscull 4/16/2023

written by oldscull

When someone has a simple (singular) problem, usually and logically there will be a simple solution. For example, there’s something in a person’s nose, they’ll sense an itch or tickle and naturally sneeze.

If that doesn’t resolve, they might next try self-help such as over-the-counter medicine.

Eventually, if their remedies fail, they will seek a medical professional, and then the medical care will bring healthy closure. But let’s say it gets worse, first prescriptions fail, then chronic sinus infections, etc. Usually, a doctor’s last resort is surgery—because of the inherent risks and not guaranteed final results. If all fails, then ultimately the health problem will lead to […]

4/16/2023 0 comment

My Story

by ceramicboy 2/16/2023

written by ceramicboy

I am a 22-year-old male. I grew up in an abusive house and was never shown what love really was. I did everything I could to stay away from home but was always pulled back by the threats. My dad said he would hurt my mom, my mom said she would hurt herself. Everything was put on me. I had to hold my entire family together while I was already falling apart. When I was eight years old I went walking down the street to my friend’s house (just a few houses down, not like my parents cared anyway) and the cop that lived across […]

2/16/2023 4 comments

Maintaining My Mental

by Itscolourlife 1/16/2023

written by Itscolourlife

trying to maintain my mental health thru someone
someone that love me and know my story
weve been together since 2010
from a friend to best friend to love
from cheerful to depressed version

started to
loving myself
grooming myself
looking into the bright side
trying to be better

but i
afraid to be in relationship
relationship is a frail thing
break like a glass
cant be forever

and what makes me scared the most
what if i dont love him back
what if he develop depression too
what if i fail you?

just like today
when my parents trying to take the mental health stability i earned and […]

1/16/2023 1 comment

Is it worth it?

by savaiina 1/16/2023

written by savaiina

lately every time i take a step forward, something throws me back 3 steps. [background; long story short, my father killed himself when i was 5, i blamed myself, mother got into an abusive relationship and got on drugs. when i was 11 i moved with my aunt, (somehow got even worse) ive had drugs pushed on me the whole time here, lots of drinking and fighting, lying to police, etc.,, i was treated like a slave and belittled by my cousins for 4 years. so so much more that i cant even begin to explain.] The first time i tried to kill myself was […]

1/16/2023 2 comments

My own box of lie

by Itscolourlife 12/31/2022

written by Itscolourlife

I thought telling myself im getting better
Telling you im getting better
Will actually make me feel better
But its not
Its just makes me feel lonelier more than before
Trapped in my box of lie coating with happiness
Im so sorry i choose to left this way
But even if i ask and scream for help
You wont help me
You wont be here
Only my smile and cheerful side makes you happy
Makes you closer
Guess everyone loves the sunshine
But forget about the rain in the same sky

12/31/2022 0 comment

things can get better

by bell3 12/18/2022

written by bell3

Hello 🙂

Im not here to vent but instead share my story in the hope that i might be able to help you if you need it.

During the past three years i’ve been incredibly depressed and suicidal. I used drugs in an attempt to numb the pain but instead i came out of my addiction with more trauma than before. I went to extreme lengths to numb myself to avoid truly feeling the overwhelming feelings that i knew might swallow me.
However despite all that i’m still here today and doing better than ever.

Thats not to say i’m happy, i still crave drugs but i’m 10 […]

12/18/2022 1 comment

HELP: Should i go to my friend wedding party with my condition?

by Itscolourlife 12/7/2022

written by Itscolourlife

Hey hello you there.. if you see this post may you keep reading.. i really need your help.. SO

There will be a wedding party around 2 weeks from now. The groom is one my best friend and the bride is a fake friend/ a witch/idk what i should called her. As you guys know im battling my depression for 2-3 years and i just getting better this month, struggling by myself without medical, parents, or friends help.

Now i am fatter like 10kg more than before. Ive been locking myself all these years and doesnt want to meet my friends. One of the reason why […]

12/7/2022 5 comments

Gratitude is overrated

by niki 11/23/2022

written by niki

Gratitude is overrated, like many other optimistic/positive-thinking advices. Not everybody can do that. It’s unrealistic, and honestly full of BS (bullshit)

Gratitude has become today’s current hype which everyone seems to be doing, and even keep posting about it constantly on social media. Everywhere you see people always talk about gratitude (& with all other optimistic/positive stuff usually).

It becomes irritating however when gratitude is forced and shoved down our throats, as if everyone should (or must) do that. In reality, you can’t just force other people to keep showing gratitude constantly. Things happened, shits happened; problems, pain, & sufferings happen to some people, which is ridiculous […]

11/23/2022 0 comment

Connect.

by Thanatos.Nykthos 10/14/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

Healing.

That’s the word we keep using.

Healing the inner child. Healing the past, Healing and moving forward. Moving with each other.

Special.

What we have is clearly special.

It’s not like we love each other, but we care. We keep using that word, too. Care. I care for her. She cares for me.

…

Pact.

We made a pact together.

We would be alone with each other if it helped and also avoid self-isolation.

Her mind. Font. Her Font. She is so similar to me. She calls it OCD and Anxiety.

I am afraid to speak before her.

but my words

become easier as they leave me

when I speak with her –

i feel heard. After all. Somehow. […]

10/14/2022 2 comments

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