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Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

It’s happening again ….

by meris 3/17/2014

written by meris

Okay so on 3/5/2014, i was admitted into a mental facility and this is my story of being in it (YOU DON’T HAVE TO READ)

Okay so mine was because i had well attempted suicide, my friend called the cops on me after she found out and this crisis lady gave me an option which by the way was stupid. she said if i didn’t talk to her…i would have to be admitted …but truth was, that I was going to have to be admitted anyway because I had attempted suicide and like the only way, i wouldn’t be admitted was if she thought, i was […]

3/17/2014 4 comments

My Life So Far

by iliveinsidemyhead 3/17/2014

written by iliveinsidemyhead

Hey,

So this is my story of my Depression and search for help.

I live in London and when I made the transition to year 7 it was very hard for me as I’m not great at changes and my aunt died of cancer recently, so I started seeing the school councillor. So it was all going well and helping with the death of my aunt, but after about two year when I was in year 9 another of my aunts died this time it affected me hugely so my mood dropped, so with this I started self harming. So I kept up with the self harm. […]

3/17/2014 5 comments

The Downward Spiral

by AlmostDead 3/16/2014

written by AlmostDead

OK.Â So after 20 odd years of becoming progressively more miserable & incapable of participating in everyday life suicide attempts are bcoming more common.Â A year or so back I filledÂ a mug with a cocktail of every drug in my cupboard, including many of the different anti-depressants I’ve tried over the years & took the lot.Â I slept anÂ entire dayÂ & awoke incapable of moving without collapsing in spasms.Â Spent the next 12 hours in hospital being constantly prodded & kept awake.Â Told I’d taken enough pills to kill most people & was lucky.Â Seems this method isn’t gonna work.Â A short time later tried a […]

3/16/2014 2 comments

My life crumbling away

by MonsterInside 3/12/2014

written by MonsterInside

It started when I was really young. I started writing suicide letters to my mother at the age of 5. Â Around age 7, I wasn’t very smart and I attempted to choke myself with my own hands not knowing it wouldn’t work. Around age 11, I took sleeping pills and then took a bath lying on my stomach, hoping I would drown as I slept. Since then I haven’t attempted suicide but I have frequently thought about it. I started cutting myself last year. I never ever cut deep because it scared me but I enjoyed the pain. I started cutting because I truly hated […]

3/12/2014 2 comments

Dont you dare give up on this life

by audreyk 3/11/2014

written by audreyk

As a child I started hating everyone. 2 years ago it got worse and i stopped going out, i didn’t go to School anymore, I stopped eating and never left my room. My mom started worrying but she didn’t know what to do so she just argued with me before she called a psychiatric and a lawyer which said that they will hospitalize me in someÂ time. I had to wait about 3 Months before the could take me, they said. I was glad to be free so far although I was just sitting in my bed all day. Then I decided to end this pain. […]

3/11/2014 1 comment

A weird and fucked up life

by missingryanandericand... 3/10/2014

written by missingryanandericand...

I start most weekends with drinking a bottle of wine, then I have another one and then another. I take a few Xanax and a Vicodin or two. Next thing I know its Monday morning and time to go to work again. When I don’t do thatÂ I do meth so I can forget about my life. Yet every Monday I get cleaned up and go back to my job that pays me 300k a year. Three of my friends have killed themselves. I have tried at least twice. Now days I rather dull things with liquor and Xanax or meth. So I can get up […]

3/10/2014 5 comments

Alive

by -E- 3/10/2014

written by -E-

So I guess I’m staying alive… For her. I told her about it and she started freaking out (which is normal) and made me promise I wouldn’t kill myself. What made me agree though, was that she started crying when she realized, if I did kill myself after the next band concert, we would have less than 10 days. And she doesn’t cry in front of people so that was a big gigantic sign that she cares. So I’m stayin’ alive

3/10/2014 2 comments

The nightmares I’ve been having have arrived

by hellblau 3/10/2014

written by hellblau

Visions I’ve been dreaming are coming down. They’re changing my future.
Visions I had buried underground. Returning to abuse us.

3/10/2014 0 comment

For you and only you.

by hellblau 3/9/2014

written by hellblau

There’s blood on my hands, and the killers not my enemy.Â It’s all for the sake of love, it’s all for you.

3/9/2014 2 comments

im a fuck up..

by Honey_bee00 3/7/2014

written by Honey_bee00

so far im my life i have screw things up!
relationships
friends
parents
family
to them. im just a piece of shit.
i have thought about my suicide again. it stopped but has came back in every way to hurt me.
i thought suicide was just a phase for me of what i was going through when my dad treated me like shit.
now it has came back. and i screwed up again. one of the most important thing to me. the happiest thing i have ever felt. but i screwed it up. and now all i can do is cry and feel like. nothing.

3/7/2014 1 comment

I’m tired. :(

by rainbowtenshi 3/6/2014

written by rainbowtenshi

Hey…Can somebody help me? 🙁

I’m sorry if I’m bothering any of you…I’m new here

Ok so, where should I start? :/ I’m 15 years old… I have everything, a loving family, friends…I shouldn’t be complaining at all. I’m sorry, some people don’t have any of that. 🙁 The thing is…I don’t have anyone to talk to about my problems, it’s like no one is listening. Â I love smiling…and laughing, but sometimes it gets too hard and I want to leave, disappear. I’m a failure, I fail at everything I do. I feel so sad when I look at my mum, because I’ll never be the daughter […]

3/6/2014 22 comments

Whose Voice?

by Matthew1926 3/5/2014

written by Matthew1926

As we contemplate suicide or even go about living our day, allÂ kinds of thoughts and “voices” clutter our minds. It is important to ask yourself… Whose Voice are you listening to?Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Watch “Story 2013” on YouTubeÂ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CNbKbMIjLvU

3/5/2014 0 comment

WHERE DID ALL THE GOOD PEOPLE GO

by law 3/5/2014

written by law

Seriously, where are you at? Reply!Â Let me know people can actually care about each other unconditionally.

3/5/2014 8 comments

Intense Pain!!

by Matthew1926 3/5/2014

written by Matthew1926

Have you ever felt likeÂ you were surrounded by darkness? A darkness so deep and pain so real that you just want it all to end? Have you ever felt like the world would be a better place without you in it? How about that you are so worthless thatÂ if people really knewÂ who you were they would hate you as much as you hate yourself? Do you have a plan to end your life? Have you given up all hope?Â I have! Depression is real and the pain is intense, but there is hope — Â Watch “Story 2013” on YouTubeÂ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CNbKbMIjLvU

3/5/2014 0 comment

real problems

by law 3/3/2014

written by law

I have no bonds with people. I’ve been abused and alienated. Deep depression, constantÂ migraines, always tired, can’t concentrate or think straight, memory issues. I’m chronically stressed.Â People are just rude and hateful and judgmental and prejudice.Â I’m in a town with very little opportunity literally just a dozen different places to work, with no transportation.Â I’m living in poverty which means basic needs go unmet. It sucks everyday is a struggle. Nobody to help me out, don’t qualify for state benefits.

3/3/2014 0 comment

I don’t know what to do

by Nicole246 3/2/2014

written by Nicole246

I’ve bin confused lately all i can think about is whether i should kill myself or not i’ve bin so depressed idk why though i feel like im nothing all i feel is pain i can’t stop watching suicidal videos cannot stop thinking about it before i even go to bed i’ve tried i have sharp nails so i scratch myself with them it’s the easiest way to help me instead of cutting myself with a knife. Please i know it sounds stupid coming from me … but if your thinking of suicide please i beg you don’t you have meaning and life in this […]

3/2/2014 1 comment

Doctors…

by H0peless Wanderer 2/27/2014

written by H0peless Wanderer

So I went for my weekly visit to speak to my psychiatrist, and did he ever have the greatest advice ever….
“What’s the rush in dying, we all die anyways”

Thoughts? Anyone and everyone who has ever been told that or felt like this, please respond.
My mind is still trying to wrap itself from figuring out what I am supposed to do with that oh so helpful quote.

2/27/2014 7 comments

Why?

by H0peless Wanderer 2/27/2014

written by H0peless Wanderer

I’m not sure what I really expect anymore.
A couple months back, September to be specific, I found myself in a hole. You know it, the black abyss that you stare at day in and day out. The one that never seems to end. I had been looking into, getting lost in the darkness for too long. Years have past since I can actually remember being happy for a full 24hrs. It seems so surreal to even imagine I used to have fun.
Anyways, I tried to take my life. I really tried… pills, alcohol, the whole deal. Fortunately or unfortunately ( I haven’t decided […]

2/27/2014 2 comments

You mean the world to me.

by SelfAM 2/23/2014

written by SelfAM

I stumbled upon this site, and felt a sudden pang go through me.
These new posts are from today.
I realized there are people posting right now, feeling incredibly suicidal with no one to talk to.
That scares me. It makes me sad.

Guys, a year ago I was in your place.
I promise you, it gets better. You must have heard it a thousand times. You must think it’s bullshit. I did. I never thought it — I — could get better.
But it did. I did.
I promise it can be like that for you, too.
I promise.
You just have to hold on.

2/23/2014 5 comments

My Neverending Story

by Adam-Grizzly-95 2/22/2014

written by Adam-Grizzly-95

I could lie and say that everything gets better and life is amazing but that wouldn’t help. 3 Days ago I made a decision to take my own life, I bought a bunch of painkillers and vodka and thought I wanted to die… it didn’t work and I spent 2 days in the hospitals poison ward attached to a drip with a needle sticking outta my hand, I had to listen to my families reaction over a phone call and it killed me having to hear what I did to them, I will never forget the sounds of my mum crying, not knowing what happened. […]

2/22/2014 0 comment

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