This is a request for advice from those who have had a family member commit suicide. I am attempting to finalize my funeral arrangements so that I can prepay for the services. I have already purchased a burial lot in the small town where my father is buried, about 2 hours from my home town. That town is about 4 1/2 hrs away from where all my in-laws live. I have some distant family members who reside near where I will be buried. I have little contact with my family members in my hometown, and no friends who will miss me. I will soon have […]
You ever get tired of listening to advice that leaves you stranded on your own, doing battle against the pain in the darkness? Advice like “you gotta do it for yourself and not anyone else”
“no pain, no gain”
Even phrases like “have faith” can be conflicting, lonely and long if you are truly left on your own. Depending who you are of course.
People have been shoving that shit down my throat my whole life. “Don’t do it for anyone but yourself”
“You gotta live for you”
I don’t need to explain to some of you out there, that sometimes doing it on […]
i realised that my days of being treated like crap by half of my friends ends right now. They don’t give a shit about me.. and guess what? i don’t give a fucking shit about them either
they can all fuck themselves.
in other news, i’ve been listening to the smiths basically non-stop and right now my life is just a blended mix of anger and pure sadness. idk for some reason for the past 3 days i’ve just had this unspeakable rage.. and there’s nothing exactly that has caused it ?
i don’t really know if this is better than the “being […]
Life is Hell. I was raised Christian, and actually believe there is an entity out there who created all, yet I struggle to come to any other conclusion.
What’s the saying? “Life sucks, and then you die.” No, life sucks, and then your dog dies, you accrue a mountain of debt, struggle to improve your career, lose your job, spouse leaves you for someone more ‘interesting,’ get cancer, accrue more debt, break a hip, suffer the hate from people for being “old,” then you, at long last, die and remain at peace for all eternity.
To add insult to the injury of this hellish life, we are […]
TL;DR
I did something stupid today
How is it, that we just can’t help doing things, we know, we will regret after, be it little or big things.
Even things from the past, that we should learn from, we always manage to do again, despite knowing we will end up regretting it badly.
Not a big thing, not like other mistakes that have been made, but still.
I went to the store today, don’t know why, didn’t really need it, knew it would be a problem, still did it.
First 50 yards wasn’t bad, then as I got near, and the people started to appear, I could […]
Today was a horrible day and I tried hanging myself and I did for a bit, but I fought. If I want something painless then The Golden Gate Bridge is my only option
“Taken My Whimsicality To The Death, Albator”
Falling in my realm
Will you be my friend
Whom that it come along to
Can I sing
But most of all, can you know
I can sing, no more
Keep on looking, keep on searching
For a better way, for a better day
Forever
Can I bust another, deepen, sunken
Into the realm, an astral that canned
Dead, he wears the skull and the card
The spades of the world overtaken
Obliterated into your abyss
The neon to the lost veil
In life there is a battle of all
Albator and a Cyborg
I will fall into, the singularity
What […]
I came on this site a LONG time ago and actually met a friend through here… we were both considering suicide three years ago and we are both still alive… We’ve graduated high school, and made it to college, and our colleges are only 30 minutes apart.
But that’s not why I’m posting… I have come back to those thoughts… Well, they never left. But they’ve kept from suffocating me for a while… Until now. Suddenly, these past couple of weeks, I’ve come to the conclusion that I should self harm again and have been. I have been wanting to kill myself but am not sure […]
No matter how bad your life may be right now. It seems to always get better. You just have to keep your head up. I’ve went through it all. Never thought I would be where I am today. Thanks to my mom and the help I got. Know that you’re not alone. We all have problems. You don’t have to face them alone. If you ever need help im always here for anyone that needs it. You’re king, you’re a queen. Stay beautiful. Stay strong. <3
Tonight, I had a close friend to me decide that he hates me. He decided I wasn’t worth it anymore, and he told me to f**k off and kill myself. I’m not gonna lie, that hurt me terribly. I wish I could just disappear and never come back. I’m feeling so guilty.. What if I really am the problem? I’m starting to think I’m the problem. I mean, can you blame him, our anyone else, for walking away from me? I’m a *****. I’m stupid. I’m pretty ugly too. I’m fat, I’m mean, I’m prudish, I’m snooty, and I am a terrible person. I’m a […]
My name is Zach, I’m 15 years old, and I can’t tell you how many times I’ve tried to kill myself, because I lost count. I know that what I’ve been through is nothing compared to what others have been through, but I feel that doesn’t make it any less valid or painful. My parents got separated Christmas of 2010. Before you explode with the injustice of that date, don’t worry, I’m not Christian, so it wasn’t THAT bad. However, it was the first time something actually went wrong for me. A year passed, and I didn’t really get over it. I started thinking about […]
i had a stereotypical evil stepmom that hated me undercover for decades.
she did all the evil shit evil step-parents did
emasculated me constantly
framed me for destruction around the house (in addition to the regular mess a child makes)
did interesting food experiments on me (any one with cooking roots to a specific culture knows what im talking about)
and generally made me regret any supposed favor she would do for me
…
i thought when i finally started to hate her, that she would stop
she would regret making the child she raised hate her
but what i didnt know was that
she hated me first
she hated me for longer
she hated me more […]
i hate the bad thoughts i have about myself.I mean,i know i have a wonderful life.I Have very worried and caring parents and frinds,my family is wealthy,i dont have any health problems etcetera.but I can’t stop thinking that i am too dumb to go to med school,that i am to damm uggly to be interesting, that i lack social skills compared to my frinds,that i dont make my parents proud and that i am to selfish.I think it is why i want to become a doctor,so it would help me stop worring with such ridiculous shit compared with real people’s problems.i just […]
Have you ever had one of those nights. When you have it up to there with everything and you just wish you can just put a gun to your head and pull the trigger. Tonight is defintaly one of those nights I’m so ticked off to the point that i cant even concentrate on my work. Well guess I’ll go listen to some music on my headphones till i black out.
Hope you guys are having a better night than I am.
Peace!
My name is Jadaen, I’m 14 and I’ve attempted suicide three times. I’ve been bullied since the age of 6 because of my weight and how ugly I am. Im in the 9th grade and I have 2 “friends”. I’ve been beat up to the point where I’ve needed to go to the hospital for a broken rib and a concussion. My teachers don’t do anything about it. I’ve self harmed for 3 years now and my parents called me an attention seeking ***** because they found out about it. The first time I attempted suicide was when I was 11, I had swallowed 5 […]
I have this friend who has been clinically diagnosed with severe depression. I have only known her for a little over a year but within that time period we have become so close that now I can call her my best friend and my rock. I have not told her about my depression though, but I think it is better this way. I am afraid to tell her how bad I am because then I am afraid that she will think that I am only making it up to be like her. I am not a conformist nor do I ever plan to be, but […]
Is it weird that I feel like I don’t love my boyfriend….well, he’s my first boyfriend and….I’ve never really loved someone..
What are you supposed to feel when you’re in love…
We’ve been going out for two months now he says he loves everything about me and he accepts me for my depression and anxiety problems…
How does one love a companion?
How does one show love?
How does one love?
What is love…and can I love?