‘Something bEAuTiFul My Hero’
I know I overwhelmed
Pure seven years all I’ve never felt
The only thing that’s beautiful
Is that I’m already dead
Zero two zero, waiting for Hiro
It’s going to blow, never adorn in my robe
True law is all I’ve even spoke
It’s not a love story, it’s a sad one
There’s no plan
There’s nothing I can
The earth keeps
My cage thirteen
I can’t untie me. Uh, oh…
I feel tired. And emotionless. If I can’t feel joy, fine, I’ll choose pain as a close second. Most times I have to smoke or drink in order to feel that pain. It’s almost cathartic.
I go about my days wondering why the fuck I’m still here. The way I think, the way I do things just never seem to match up with how the world works. My personality isn’t exactly the most pleasant which holds me back in almost everything, including job opportunities and relationships. It scares me. I’m not doing anything, not contributing anything… not enjoying any part of this fucked up sedentary lifestyle. Let’s […]
before my deployments started i was good for 80k plus a year i was not teh most liked guy in my workplace but I did ok. Teh war taught me to really appreciate what I have and to treat my “clients differently to appreciate their human qualities and understand it wasnt my job to make them miserable instead it was my job to ensure they were safe and in custody. You see I was a Correctional Officer, and an MP. i was my institutions go to guy i worked OT 6 to 8 months a year solid 16 ours a day 7 days a week. […]
hey im new .
im emily and im always feeling lonly and i did stop cutting cuz it wont do nothing . I have so much feelings bottled up in me and i dont knoe who to tell bc mostly people dont really care but i found this site . My voice well be heared and thats all i really wanted so if u need help or anything im here for u and everyone else . So i guess go follow me on instagram @emily.guilbert .
Bye .
probably gonna sound stupid or whiney or that i should mind my own business but this place is for me to get my emotions out right. so hats what im going to do.this isn’t aimed at anyone person in particular. im just torn up about a post on here
i felt better this last so many days i thought what i have been saying was true. but was it. i mean how come he had to wait nearly about hour for a reply, no one even tried, i replied too late what if i could of helped what if he’s dead.not a single person. […]
cutting and starving and breaking hearts and wanting to be accepted into someone elses heart
these are my only actions that i can comprehend
and they are all so hard to do
and i kinda want to die
but i wont
fear holds me back
and tori pushes me foward
and nelson holds me back again
so i just sit here
cutting
and not eating
for
another
week
I know a lot of people ask for “peaceful” ways to commit suicide, but honestly as this point I don’t care. I just want to die… anyone have thoughts on antifreeze? I can’t take it anymore
I don’t know why, I told my wife that I hate her. I do t hate her at all, it’s just easier to push people away so taking your own life will be easier. As I’m writing this I’m looking for a long enough extension cord in my garage so that I can hang myself. I’m going to make it easy on my wife and call the police before I kick the stool out from under me so that they find me and not her. I’m not an abusive husband, I work very hard to provide for my wife and son. I just think it […]
If anyone takes the time to read this I really do appreciate it.
Well I feel as if the best place to start is as a child in my childhood I was a last born child having two brothers older than I my oldest being fathers one and only care and the second my mothers I wouldn’t say I was abused by them or ignored but when I tell other people about what happened with me they seem to think I was it was just stuff like my brothers do something they don’t receive punishment and I get the world thrown upon me and such and […]
It’s been a few weeks since I have posted, and have come to the conclusion that it’s everyone else that’s screwed up and not me.
I’m convinced that whilst I may have my failings (needy and insecure) I’m actually a nice person.
Intervention by my doctor and local crisis team have helped a great deal, and my meds have been increased significantly. Got a testing few weeks ahead of me but that light at the end of the tunnel is now a lot bigger than a pinhole.
Have discovered an amazing singer recently too (Blossom Dearie) and would recommend that anyone in crisis should youtube her and just […]
Is there anyone here who is sometimes just tired even of trying to die. Sometimes i just don’t feel anything anymore. I feel like I’m frozen then.
Hey everybody, first thing I want to say is thanks for taking the time out of your day to read this.
My name is Chris, I am 16 years old and this is the first time I’ve ever thought about attempting suicide. I feel like I don’t have the balls to do it though. My life has been just horrible the past few years. I just need someone to talk to. Let me tell you my story:
About 10 years ago my sister ran away to get married. I was only 6 years old. My parents, my brother, my cousins, Etc never got to see the wedding. […]
So my Dr. forced me to go to the hospital on Wednesday and I got out yesterday. I dont really know how that helped me. They upped my doses of meds. I haven’t had any suicidal thoughts in about a day. I haven’t choked myself with anything either but I still fill depressed. I really Dont know how its going to get better. It seems like I’m in an endless hole of despair.
…need help killing myself. seriously plan to do so in the future, kind of like the way mr.robin williams did. i don’t want it to be messy or showy though, and ideally inexpensive… i want to die somewhere my body will never be found as well. if it’s possible. i want to completely just disappear…
i would rant about why i want to die, but i’m not looking for sympathy, i just need some serious advice on how to get it done without a hitch. i think being able to plan your own perfect death is a wonderful thing, and perhaps it’s the only chance i’ll […]
I know there are endless threads on this topic but I can’t seem to find a consistent answer. Does anyone know of a painless way to commit suicide (either from research or from a painless past overdose)? I do not know if I will get a response and if I do receive one I am not looking for some form of moral support. I understand that there is much to take out of life and that, as the 15 year old I am, I have not yet experienced many of the joys life has to offer, but I have suffered for too long. Medications and […]
I’m just sick of this life. I don’t want to go to school and get bullied everyday, I don’t want to be poor anymore, I don’t want so many things to happen… But they do.
Cause this is life. Life sucks. Maybe not everybody is meant to wait for their ending, maybe some of us need to take care of that earlier. Which I’ll do.
Some background info. I’m 15, bad looking, anorexic (92 pounds) and poor. Been bullied last year of school in 9th grade and dropped out of school because I couldn’t stand it anymore… Now I’m into one of the worst high schools in […]
As it gets colder I had the idea of dying by hyperthermia (freezing to death). I was thinking of when it gets real cold in the next month or two of going out in the shed sitting down with a bottle of vodka while I am wet and freezing.There is no hope for me, my life is over. Thanks to hackers and the way I reacted people all over the world are in the process of destroying my life. They are in the process of getting me thrown in jail for a long time. I lack the strength to do it so I give up. […]
It’s starting to smell
Should I follow the plan
The walking feet of life
We will conquer the land
God of the sky, Zeus
Ultimate Hercules
One day when I am free
And it’s just me
Finally, the twisted curse over
I heard some weird sounds
There’s only one thing now
Gotta’ get the fuck out
Is it one month or three more days
The earth, I feel, rock of ocean
The water beats but not my mother
Nobody
It was all our curse. Bide the time.
I’ve been depressed for almost eight years now, since my dad passed away. I have 18 days to plan exactly how to kill myself on the 15th of October, which is my dad’s death anniversary.
So far, my options are getting a tank of helium and using that, getting out of the country and buying ******** or simply throwing myself off a building.
Fuck, it’s also such a ***** planning your own funeral. I’m atheist and I need to leave clear instructions so no one tries to give me a religious procession.
Do people kill themselves because life is too overwhelming? Because, personally, I find it completely underwhelming. […]
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