I have brilliant friends who are basically family but i cannot tell them what i am feeling and what i do to myself, they wouldnt reject me or anything im sure they would understand but i do not want them to act differently or take pity on me. im the person they speak to about their problems not the other way around.

How come when I set the goal to kill myself and begin working towards it I have this feeling of drive and passion, but when I set any other goal and work towards it, it feels like a waste of time.

I’ve begun taking inventory of everything I own. I’m building a simple website to list everything so I can sell it. The idea is instead of placing a million classified ads, I just post a few and link back to my site for a complete list of what’s for sale. The money earned should help me correct my finances. I don’t want to leave any […]

SHUT THE FUCK UP I HATE YOU MOM I HATE YOU DAD CAN YOU BOTH JUST SHUT THE BLOODY HELL UP I HATE BOTH OF YOU SO. MUCH……

Since I was in grade 8, I’ve contemplated suicide. I think about it almost every day, the thing that triggers it is so stupid, too.
I’ll be reading a book, and there will be a scene where the mother is really nice, loving and close to the child.
So, then I start thinking about my mother, thinking about how she’s never said those beautiful, kind, loving words to me. Ever.
Then, it escalates more, I start thinking about more painful memories or thoughts.
And sometimes if I’m lucky, the emotional pain turns slowly into stomach pains, I don’t even know how that works… but it […]

i am a type 1 diabetic who has scoliosis of the spine. I am actually allergic to insulin and it is extremely painful to take also i have my back condition which causes me severe pain. I am 16 years old but i have suicidal thoughts everyday i have attempted to commit suicide numerous times but stopped at the last minute the only thing that stops me is the pain i feel in that moment. I self harm alot as it stops the thoughts for just a second, i break my bones now.I used to abuse my diabetes as its the easiest way to cause […]

Hi everyone,

This is my first post. I came across this site while looking for advice and read previous posts. I’m in such a bad situation I cannot see a way forward and I have  no one to turn to.  I’m trying to condense the whole story because without the back story it’s hard to get the full picture across. I apologise in advance for the length of the post.

I’m from the UK and I’m 26. I’ve had a lot of things happen throughout my life. I was brought up by my grandparents and have a mother who would come in and out my life as she pleased. She […]

the pills I take deflect the pain. but it’s only temporarily. the darkness creeps back in eventually. it’s causing me agony.

the withdrawals are so bad

nobody takes me seriously.

when I cry for help, it’s just for a hug. I don’t want your pity, I want your warmth.

the pills saved my life you fucks – they maybe the reason my life ends soon but

they did more for me than any person can

Not really in the mood to delve in the whys and where-to’s. About a month ago, now, I decided that perhaps it would be best to end my life. I’m setting into motion what I feel should be done before I leave, and it will take me a while. I have a lot of student loans, and if I die, I’m sure the burden may go to my family. I still need to find out how true this is. I also would like to help my mother pay for her house and get it together; she needs a few new appliances and perhaps I can […]

Feeling more hopeful now that I have a community where I can write anonymously, and where I can help others. I don’t feel as alone anymore. I don’t think I’ll feel like a burden to others here, either.

There are people wanting to pull the trigger just like me, but I feel better now. I feel like I have a purpose now, and reading and relating to others has been surprisingly helpful. A few kind words. Thank you. I’m alive tonight. I started out doing research on the quickest, most painless ways to die, and ironically when I was ready to go, I find y’all. […]

Do you ever feel that the nicer you are, the shittier your life will be, and that the crueler people who have no problem walking over others succeed easier?

I’ve always hated the phrase, “It’s just business.”

No it’s not, you asshole. You’re taking the humanity out of the company and possibly ruining peoples’ lives.

Do you trust when you  shouldn’t? I mean, are you naturally trusting, and do you never learn? Is that a flaw in a personality?

i think i have sleep apnea. im excited, cause if i do, i might be able to get my life back! even though im frustrated that i took medicine that i didnt need,and they damaged my body, but that might be reversible. i hope this works. i need it too. its either this or suicide….

To the death
My only fear
I need to find
A place to fall

Give me freedom
Even if
I have lost
But how

I am the entity
Of death
I just made the
Whole house shake

Grandma with
Her eyes close
Listening
To the ghost

Prayers of death
Repels you
Go to sleep
Time of quiet

I do apologize
But none to hear
Sudowoodo ran
Never came back

Hell is a suffer
Burn me to death
The monster
Is not coming back

Monster of hell
Reptilian
Go to sleep
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