I just found it today. I don’t know you have read it or not yet… hope you enjoy it

Here is the full article:  http://shakeoffthegrind.com/emotional-health/free-yourself-by-letting-go-of-what-you-cant-control

have a nice day!

I’ve been acting for my entire life, and I’m getting tired of it. However, every time I try to stop, people immediately begin criticising me and start comparing me to other, better people. I’m not useless. I’m a bad example. I used to be the person that everyone wanted me to be, but now I don’t know. I don’t know whether or not I should live. I don’t know whether or not anything is worth living for. I don’t know whether or not this is a bad dream and I’ll wake up soon. But mainly, I don’t know if I’m strong enough to face this. […]

I tried killing myself on valentines day I took Zoloft (antidepressants) but I only felt like I was going to pass out and my dad found out a few days later when he saw there were no more pills left.He was mad at me and said that what I did was stupid and was kinda yelling at me and said if I went back to the (Lakeside) mental facility that he would just let me stay there.Yesterday I went to the store and got some sleeping pills.Everyone is acting like everything is all my fault like my dad is mad at me for wanting to […]

I’ve been through so much only to reach this point again.
Got through my mother hating me my whole life, I get she has problems but not letting your 11 year old participate in family anythings, I mean what the hell. And then I was still expected to function like a normal child while my savior, my dad was sneaking me food. I’m past that now, she did horrid things to me but I’ve forgiven her.
Wow, forgot to mention the fact that my parents were (father occasionally) raging alcoholics put on earth by satan himself, thanks man.
Got through my dad beating me later […]

I have cheated on my ex drunk four times.

Yet, I feel I love him i feel like he’s the only one who cares.. but I was bad and I don’t know how to fix what I’ve done. I feel like he could save me from myself but, I’m too proud to ever tell him I’m going to kill myself.

he broke up with me a few weeks ago, I got a new boyfriend 5 days later, to make him jealous, for obvious reasons it looked like I was just a psycho. And that I really didn’t care. If  I really loved him I prolly wouldn’t have […]

I have so many regrets in my life after I graduated college. I have many friends but I feel depressed at times. I am the youngest in the family and my parents are so over protective to me. I should be home before 8PM. Rules are rules. No boyfriend after college. No drinking of alcohol. No smoking. They are over manipulating me. I am not a robot. Especially my sisters, they always control my life. I hate living anymore. I had a boyfriend. I met him at my work, he’s my co-employee. We’ve been together 7 months from now. He’ s my first boyfriend, First […]

I’ve cut myself off from almost everyone. Nothing has really happened for me to feel so drained and lost. I can’t tell anyone how I really feel. I think about ending everyday. I’ve fooled the best of them denying my thoughts of self harm. Yeah it’s a permanent solution I just want out. Anyone that looks at my life wonders wat the fuck I’ve got to complain about I have a man that is wonderful he’s domestic he certainly doesn’t need me or my negativity. I just want out no one can help me. I’m in cairns Australia I have no friends no one I […]

So i’ve started hurting myself again in my sneaky way
all pain
no lasting scars

But now it doesn’t seem like enough and I don’t know what to do
I want my emotions to go away so i don’t do anything drastic, but ugh it’s just so confusing

So i guess that was the rant  for today

hello everyone

so i am only 14 years old, in the 9th grade

my anxiety, depression and depersonalization disorder is getting out of hand; mother took me out of public school so i can get home schooled.

the problem is, is that we haven’t gotten anything down. we can’t find any of the right websites to help, and we’re both a little lost. my mother and father found it like we HAD to get me out of public school because how it reacts on my anxiety, depression and D.D. which i do not regret, public school was hell but my mental health has not changed one bit.

i feel […]

I graduated from college and have a Bachelors of Science. I thought more doors would be opened for me but now ten month since graduation… this does not seem so.

I held a position in manufacturing 6 months after graduate just to make some money but did not take long for me to feel dissatisfied, unaccomplished, and severely depressed. I woke each morning feeling unmotivated, miserably, and wondering why I cannot launch my career. I had no problem quitting the job. The job put me to sleep (literally), the pay sucked, the hours was pitiful, no one appreciate the volunteered overtime and… most importantly, I want to dedicate […]

maybe I can’t, maybe I don’t want to, but the cutting isn’t going to stop this time. not after today

“I swear I hear your voice, it’s driving me insane”

Some days are better than others. My bad days though, they shatter me. On my bad days it feels like somebody has opened up my chest, taken a handful of my heart, and ripped it out. Some days I don’t miss him, but when I do, my entire being misses him. He wasn’t just my boyfriend, he was my best friend. I know.. how cliche right? Well it’s the truth. He knew how to handle me at my worst, he loved me unconditionally and wiped away all of my tears. He took it when I screamed […]

So I went for my weekly visit to speak to my psychiatrist, and did he ever have the greatest advice ever….
“What’s the rush in dying, we all die anyways”

Thoughts? Anyone and everyone who has ever been told that or felt like this, please respond.
My mind is still trying to wrap itself from figuring out what I am supposed to do with that oh so helpful quote.

Suicide on prom night anyone? Lol

Would you come to my funeral? What thoughts would go through your head as you gazed at my cold, pale body? Would you feel bad about everything that you did? Would you miss me, years later when you’re married and have a family of your own, would you even remember my name? Would you cry for me? Do you miss me at all? Is there ever a piece of you that wishes you hadn’t made the decision to cut me out, freeze me out of your life? Will my name ever drift into your mind, years from now? Will you even know why?

I am so close to having every thing I ever truly wanted, so why do I still want to kill my self….why am I rejecting life

i’m like the expired never opened bottle of milk standing in the back of the fridge and soon i will meet my demise

What do you do when you feel like you have no way out of your hell?  My life is miserable.  I wish I could just off myself and end things, but then all my years of struggle and suffering would have been for nothing.  No, I am not a young teen with a possibility of a real future.   I am not young anymore and I am not physically healthy anymore.   I regret that I did not do it decades ago when I was 7 and life was hell (I was abused) and really had the mind to end my life back then.

I just […]