I don’t understand
I say when you walked away
I thought you cared
I say when you turned your back on me
Why?
I ask when you don’t turn around
What did I do so bad to make you leave?
I yell when you have walked away
I love you
I whisper
But you never and won’t ever love me
I sit down and cry
You were there for me when no one else was
I am completely shocked
Wish you were here
I sigh and pick myself up
But you never were
I cut one more time
You were never really there

Hello.

I will be around for the next hour if anyone wants to talk. I don’t mind what it is, I just want to listen and advise. No judgement.

<3

I will refresh page every 5 mins.

I don’t have any magic solution or words of wisdom to save anyone.
All I know is I wanted to die. And now I want to live. It is possible. please don’t forget that.

SA

Lonely

The word that will describe her forever

It’s carved into her mind

It’s carved into her wrists

Unwanted

By people

By guys

 By family

Makes this person slit a vein

Used by

The guy she loved

The guy who hurt her

The guy who lied

The guy who taught her how to fly

Suicide

Was what ended her life

Suicide is an ugly word. I just read an article about how assisted suicide is legal in Switzerland and they allow for dignity in the process. Switzerland gets it. After reading this article it came to me that we are Peace Seekers. This is usually what we are seeking.

My life has sucked since a young age. I’ve cut since I was 11. that sucks. my dad always brought me down and my mom said i was a mistake. Every night I hear them scream at each other. My sisters and brother hate me and arent afraid to say it. Im bisexual and have homophobic parents i can never tell. i have 3 attempts but none have worked obviously. i need it to work..i can take my dads gun once i find the courage too. nobody cares..i really want this.

Hey.

I’m 23, trans, and recently diagnosed with thoracic and a rare cervical scoliosis. It’s not so extreme that it’s noticeable with clothes on but, in a way, that makes it worse. Without clothes it’s fairly easy to spot if you know what you’re looking for. I’ve known about the asymmetries for years, but I didn’t realise they were part of a  bigger problem, just “bad posture”. My parents never noticed it because I hid it (secretly I was ashamed of it). Everytime I brought it up with my parents they’d tell me “stop slouching over the computer” or “stop carrying heavy bags”–implying that I was […]

There are no miracles; I can’t get through this storm.

I can’t even leave my house (again) to do anything useful today. I am totally useless (completely). Perpetual limbo on repeat- between a dead life and death.

I’m that blue (brown) eyed whore. I am that little girl. I am her. There’s no one to help me through this storm.

Here is PJ Harvey on Autoharp, lovely version of Down by the Water.

I lost my heart
Under the bridge
To that little girl
So much to me
And now I moan
And now I holler
She’ll never know
Just what I found
That blue eyed girl
She said […]

I’ve come here to this site, as I do to many sites about suicide, because I am what has been coined a suicide survivor. My grandfather killed himself with a gunshot to the head four years ago this October. Although not close to the family due to extremely traumatic events caused by this same family during childhood, I was devastated by his suicide. He was one of the few people in the family I cared for. I was the person delegated to clean out his room with his blood and brains still everywhere. My father had not done anything to […]

Hi everyone. I am new so I will introduce myself but I’ll try to make it short. I’m a 23 year old woman who was diagnosed with depression and bi-polar at age 13 . It has been an ongoing struggle for me ever since. I frequently self-harm and have attempted suicide three times in the past. I also suffer from bouts of binge-eating and anorexia. Through the years it seems that when great things happen to me, they always end in disaster and I end up in a worse spot than i had been before that good thing happened to me. And each time it […]

I want to die I am so sick n tired of life I really need someone to talk to… 🙁
Maryam_bi@hotmail.co.uk

does any one know of anything i can take that will let me sleep forever? i dont have nem(can’t afford it) and would just like to be able to in my sleep painlessly. i can’t fail.

something for laughs and joy.

8th grade was when it all started. It started in the middle of that year. My dad & I were fighting. He told me that the reason he tried to kill himself was because of me. At that time I started to believe it was me cause of the way I treated him. His mental health issues at that time were up & down. In previous years he was overdosing with his prescription meds which led to him getting into a car accident with me & he also fell down the stairs. Some other things happened like he ran into a tree with […]

just siting here. blade in hand. unsure wether or not i WANT to feel that great release. that’s different. to want something. I’ve never wanted to, just had to. and now I can decide.

Does anyone have so much hate against the world that you wish a great big flood or some kind of natural disaster to just wipe off all humans from the face of the Earth?

I’m not sure what I really expect anymore.
A couple months back, September to be specific, I found myself in a hole. You know it, the black abyss that you stare at day in and day out. The one that never seems to end. I had been looking into, getting lost in the darkness for too long. Years have past since I can actually remember being happy for a full 24hrs. It seems so surreal to even imagine I used to have fun.
Anyways, I tried to take my life. I really tried… pills, alcohol, the whole deal. Fortunately or unfortunately ( I haven’t decided […]

There Is one thing that will keep me here and It’s pretty pathetic.Well actually two.Getting back with her will give me the “want” to wanting to live cause I’d live happily with her.The other thing Is the number one draft pick.(Feel free to laugh haha)If the Texans don’t pick Johnny Manziel I don’t wanna go on.This reminds me of the superbowl last year.If the ravens didn’t win,I didn’t wanna see tomorrow.Being from Houston and being a huge Aggie fan,I would love to see Johnny touchdown In a Texans uniform not no damn Teddy Bridgewater or Jadeveon Clowney.For the record Matt Schaub Is my franchise qb […]

I’m a disturbed individual, but what else is new.

lately, on my worst days I’ve been fantasizing what would happen to my corpse.  I don’t want to rot in a box to turn into some lifeless fossil, nor do I want to be left as dust in the wind.

All my life, I’ve failed. I don’t deserve a noble burial. No one should cry for me in a church. I don’t deserve nor want a blessing or ritual.

my only request would be to be a useful corpse. Lab geeks and scientists can pick at my organs, nerves, or bone; or my molecules and their electrical charges be […]

I have both antifreeze and OxyContin that I am able to use. Will the two together work? And if so will it be quick?  Any knowledge is greatly appreciated  Thanks.