Hi Guys,

Not a lot happened to me today…. I seriously woke up, ate food, and drove in the car for 4 hours, and then got home. I had fun this weekend, yes, but I was in, and still am, in a dip of depression….

Not much to say about the day… Sorry…

Here’s TWO poems:

being cold
being numb
not feeling pain
not feeling anything

not being fixed
not being broken
not being anything
being everything

numb
being numb
sitting there in the cold
taking the last breath ill take in my life

Next Poem:

let it go
let me go
i know its hard
but you need to
because […]

Maybe people here are not Xtian, nor of any religious persuasion. I thought one of the ground rules was ‘no preaching the gospel’.

Since my ‘time’ has finally come, its only suitable that I contribute something back to this site after reading however many posts over the past few months. Months, that’s quite a long time from my perspective, when I don’t even remember what happened a few days ago (I’m sure it was the same nothingness that every day of my life is). In an attempt to not make this dwell on for too long I’ll try and cut it short…it is the internet after all:

TL;DR: Dead now, shotgun-to-backOfThroat

As far as my childhood goes, I had a few friends here and there, got upset relatively often (like […]

ans1:  ittiam( i think, that’s why i am)

ans2: does it matter to know the truth for a brain which having peaceful life in a vat

ans3:  Either I am a BIV or I am not a BIV

if (BIV) -> the statement ” i am BIV”  is false  (  for a BIV, B&V are virtual though it think they are real;;; think as third person i.e. we observing a BIV and it saying ” i am BIV” is funny because it don’t know what is real B&V )

if( not BIV) -> the statement ” I am BIV” is false ( i.e “cat thinking i am a dog” […]

I’m a 24 year old guy who has never experienced true friendship before.

I’ve had people in the past who pretended to like me for who I am, but they would never call me to ask how I was doing or if I wanted to hang out somewhere. I use to be a nicer person in the past, but that never mattered in the slightest to the people around me. People will often lie and use you for there own personal gain. That’s how I feel about the few people I’ve known in the past. It seem like the longer I live, the more angry and […]

I feel most secure when Im reading all these interesting, similar thoughts. I’m not sure if I can help anyone else, because as much as a person can try,  everyone has different problems, but if anyone wants to talk to someone who won’t pass judgment, email bubbalamb@hotmail.com

I hate my life.  I hate the world that I live in.  I can’t connect with with anyone or anything. I feel so alone,  in my own bubble.  I need help. But no one can penetrate that bubble to help me. However hard they try. And some of them try quite hard,  believe me. But they still can’t fully understand me. Can’t understand why I need this life to end. Nothing in this world matters to me anymore. Except moving on onto some place new,  where I can start afresh and live a different life. I can’t do that in this world.

I’ve planned it all […]

Hello,

A few days ago I came up with a plan, a plan that I will try to follow as a last effort to find a real meaning in life. (you can read it here http://suicideproject.org/2014/01/ive-got-my-plan/ ).

In the meantime I feel the need to have at least my exit plan ready. I know the way, I’m not mentioning it coz it’d be against the rules, but I’ve got several issues that I don’t have answers to (and of course nobody to discuss them with) and I could really use some help.

-Make it look like an actual suicide or create doubts?

I feel that by creating doubts I’d make […]

I am feeling bad asking this question,but after 3 years of deep depression and medicaments i just have to ask it.Isnt this world meant to be a gived,GOd had to sacrifice his life to give us?,why i am just tired and would prefer to end it.why are some people so happy and others so low?.Why did God created this feeling,i related to hell.I think i did most of things well,i did many things bad as everyone,but i did many big good things and here i am with depression still,when many evil motherfuckers are happy as hell.i cant understandet,i am losing day to day my faith […]

every time I felt hopeless and just generally dejected I would cut myself and feel the pain and feel so much better! right now I cut myself deeper and longer(length of the cut) but still feel like crap! what the hell is wrong with me?

I came on here once before looking for advice and general guidance and I found it helpful so I’m back. I have a somewhat complicated scenario.

I’m a college sophomore and I have to say that the past few relationships I’ve been in have been horrible. The last guy I was with (I found out after he broke up with me) had been cheating on me the majority of our relationship. The last date I went on, my date spent the whole time ranting about how hot our mutual friend was but since she rejected him he decided to try for me instead. Not to mention, […]

what if everything you ever did was never enough for the people you loved the most? you never matched their expectation.. each success you had could always have been better or you weren’t good enough when you failed. isn’t sometimes the whole idea of life a loss-loss.. you follow, you aren’t good enough.. you dared to rebel, how can you be so bad?

that quote of being a goalie is so true.. no one remembers the penalties you saved..just the ones you missed

i just dont know what to do anymore…..so much is going wrong lately….watching a person die in front of me has really got me shaken up….all i seem to think about is ways i can die and how ive tried before…..everything is so messed up right now i feel like im in a whole other world…everything feels like its moving in low motion……i just wish i had someone that could relate #fedup #readytoendit #noonecares

when I was 13 i was living with my nan and aunt I because my father and I did not get along very well.  I when I was 14 my grandma passed away from Lung cancer and Noone in my family Delt with it very well, and sadly it never really did get better. She looked and acted so young before the chemo.

my aunty was the most effected by my nans death, she acted fine but had also recently lost her husband to suicide so I can’t imagine how she felt really. well maybe now I can but back then I couldn’t. She looked after […]

I am starting to get scared of myself. Mostly when I think about the future. There is no possible way I can live for even 5 years it seems like. My thoughts are a nightmare sometimes. I have attempted suicide once before but my friend walked in on me after I took only a handful of pills. I don’t want to live in a mental hospital, I feel like jumping everyday. I cant imagine becoming as crazy as I’m scared I might.

I live in san fran. Cal. I get hit on everyday by queers. I used to have a girlfriend. Do u exist? Please shoot me now. I just want to remember what it’s like to have a girl sleep next to me.

I am still a cutter. Only occasionally. I do it because I am addicted to it. I imagine this is how smokers feel. I get a high off it that makea me feel alive. Then there is the fun of hiding the cuts. There is one thing that bothers me though. It is the thought that I can see myself dead on ten years by my own hand. I don’t know why but I think I will take my own life. I’m currently mentally stable but I can shake the feeling that someday I won’t and that will be very bad. i honestly feel like […]

I will begin this exactly as my heading describes, where should I start? I have to check myself constantly. If I speak freely, I sound callous. I am far from. I have a five year old who relies on my ability to not be callous. I have a boyfriend who loves me and my daughter and loves the part of me that is untouchably optimistic. That being said, a big part of me is constantly pretending for everyone else’s sake. I’m always pretending to be ok. So my parents, child, and friends won’t worry about me. Almost three years ago my daughters father committed suicide. […]

well hi my name is Natalie and i’m new to this. um… iv’e been feeling kind of down.. what hurts the most is when someone tells you, ” you have nothing to be depressed about”. i bet a lot of you know how that feels. nobody really understands how hard this is, how hard it is to breath, to wake up in the morning, to wake up at all. nobody really knows what your going until its way to late… nobody will ever get it. how much it all hurts, the big decision of deciding if its the right time to say goodbye.. or is […]