I just want out ASAP any ideas on how to definitely die this way and how fast, how to prevent being rescued.  OR another way if possible.  I know this sounds crazy but being in a locked cage and pushing yourself over pier-yeah yeah I know would you have strength to do it – i dont just mean physically, but also mentally. Im north east England, anyone know of a suitable spot, or how someone has drowned and ANY INFO ON TIME LENGTH, TILL YOU BLACK OUT AND IF YOU WILL DEFO DIE etc.  Dont want posts dont do it, etc just please I want […]

I want to do something else. But i can’t access any of the stuff i really want to do, and of the stuff that’s available, i’m not significantly interested or motivated by any of it.

On the other hand, i want to do nothing. But there are all these constant, continual requirements of merely existing, which require effort and time and energy and action… but i don’t see anything of comparable value resulting from paying the cost of those requirements.

I mean… i’m existing… i’m “alive…”

But so what?

There are indeed things i see in life that i would be significantly interested in, and motivated by… but their […]

Do you want to go to heaven after suicide?

Well that is now possible, because the pink unicorn that likes to run around on the moon, will grant you access to heaven.
How? Well all you need to do is make a donation to my bank account which is AmM9238-8374839-335 of $2013.59. And make sure you add as a reference to this payment “I (insert name here) take pink unicorn as my lord and saviour till death do us part”. And i will read the unicorn bible everyday day. TEEHEE:” make sure you add TEEHEE that is vital

“So, if you’re frightened of dying and… and you’re holding on, you’ll see devils tearing your life away. But if you’ve made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the Earth.”  Jacob’s Ladder (film)

The thought lingers in my head often, more than it probably should actually. The thought of leaving and never coming back. As I am sure many of you on this forum feel the suicidal thoughts almost daily, like a ritual.

Just know you are never alone. I know almost everyone says this, these people also say “Everything is fine” and  “It’s just a phase”. These people are the ones who don’t know whats its like, to be like us. But I know, from personal suicidal experience that still goes on to this day, for some it is not a phase and it is most certainly not […]

Most of us enjoy it…

Do you enjoy it enough to live to experience it more?

For a very long time, I was in a very committed relationship. That relationship ended back in 2010, and since then, dating experience has been unpleasant… Now 2014, I am still without a girlfriend… but I guess as time progresses, I see myself less and less of wanting/needing to be in a relationship. In about two months, I will be 31, and yet, I no longer see myself as a potential husband, soul mate, or even as a father.

During the four years, I certainly went through a stage of sexual drought. I would be lying if I say I wasn’t feeling desperate at times (I was […]

Her skin is as soft as the petals of a flower,

The warm sun makes her smile with glee.

They move out of her way like she’s Moses,

and she’s parting the red sea.

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She moves with grace as she glides down the street,

Her scent is that of a rose in bloom.

All she can do is stare at her feet

as she walks onward to her doom.

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In her hand she carries a bottle;

A bottle full of pills.

In her other hand she holds a note;

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Daydreams…..

It become so easy to just switch the television on, draw the curtains and forget what the weather’s doing to the world outside. we seem content to mentally masturbate within the safe security of our very own padded plastic lifestyles. We experience communication only within the sanctuaries of our inner-selfs. Isolation, seperation of being from being is the ultimate aim of those that seek to contain us. It’s solitary confinement for surely we are all prisoners; prisoners of gender, prisoners of race, prisoners of class, prisoners of roleplay.

Give the boy a gun, give the girl a doll.
Basic training for their futures.
They’ll play […]

Why are they’re so many thoughts in my head, so many different thoughts, that almost have nothing to do with anything, maybe I’m just masking what I feel inside, even though I still feel the same way,I might be thinking different things but everythings just the same, why does this always have to happen to the people that are down, that have felt alone and sick in this world for years on end, haven’t those people suffered enough, can’t they just finally get a break, can’t we finally feel a little happiness, or is there no happiness left, why is the universe like this, a […]

I have spent along time on here. As i have been here, desperatly trying to fix myself while trying to keep myself going, while trying to help others, i have always seen little progress. Believing I have done nothing to help myself, that all those things i have tried have failed and left me worse off. I cannot believe it took me so long to reaslise what someone said to me to be true. A good while back an old member by the name of Amakua said something that im only recently beginning to appreciate. “One hundred percent better…you almost speak English now…hahaha…jk You were […]