am i the only one that has problems and only sleep with guys just to feel loved. because you never got the love affection from ur mom cuz you where separated from her and all ur dad did was care about him self and didnt bother to buy you things or feed you. only yelled at you. cuz you where a screw up and did nothing right and felt like shit. and had everything you done wrong held over head. and then that same day . you screw up he desides to tell the whole fucking family. makeing you want to kill urself cuz all […]

“its better to burn out than fade away”

i honestly have an undeniable fascination for death. its constantly on my mind and is really the only topic that intrests me.
typing those words scares me
when did i turn into such a sad, miserable human?

There is nothing I could wish for more than human extinction.  I think so often of the great movie Artifical Intelligence which has Manhattan buried under water and ice and humankind gone extinct when their millennia of abuses of the earth finally catches up with them.  It is the most peaceful sight, water everywhere and no humans to be found disrupting anything.  Just finally peace and quiet.  No screams, no sirens, no children playing, nothing to disturb the peace of the emptiness of the water and the pretty, gleaming buildings sticking out, half buried, far more beautiful as adornments to the water than they ever […]

hey everyone ! So in my previous press, I stateted that I was in CPS well I am…but we went to court and by the end of December my baby sister will be getting to come live with me! after so long..im extremely excited(: thank all of you for all your help and please comment if you have good news or need someone to speak with(:

I am satisfied.

The shop owner

hates me.

(∀x) ( x∈ ∅ → Px)

Its not about truth. Its not even about right and wrong. Its about… state of mind.

I miss you.

She miss me.

I miss me.

Hi all,

Hope I got your attention, even if I pissed a few of you off to get you here. I’ve been lurking on here for a long time. I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts since 14. I think about death daily. I’m 32 tomorrow, no bullsh*t. On my birthdays I always reflect. Reflect on life, beat myself up, make goals for the next year. I get extremely depressed about being one more year older and feeling like life is a meaningless journey, a race to nowhere. I’m an over-thinker as I’m sure most of you are. We all can sit and think about something crappy or […]

I am old, 41, Mom of 3 children. I have been suicidal since age 12. Many attempts, some juvenile attention getting tactics, some genuine desire to die. Most recently tried helium, very poor planning on my behalf, did not have regulator valve so obviously no continuous flow of helium. Yeah, I really was THAT stupid! I am impulsive and seldom think things through. I am considering another method, possibly sealing up my crappy, ancient car and purchasing a charcoal grill. I would hope there would be no panic and no backing out, just peaceful sleep. I like the thought of catching the bus with someone […]

I can’t. I can’t do this anymore. I’m too weak. I don’t want to… I don’t want to… I don’t want to… help me.

There are some things I probably should be proud to have tried and seen and accomplished in life. Yet as it is now, the memories of these precious few experiences are going up in smoke like brittle old film in an antique projector. The picture starts out all blurry at first because the film is loose and then it gets caught and sticks on a single frame, which catches on fire from the concentrated heat of the projector’s lamp. It burns up right there, before my eyes.

Somehow, instead of preserving memories of my prouder moments, the shitty projectionist in my head operating that piece of […]

hi, my name is Khrissa. Im 16. Here is my story.

I guess it starts when i was just a baby. My dad left when i was 3 because he was on drugs pretty bad. he has never had anything to do with me or my little brother. which DID make an impact on my life, a huge one at that. when i was about 9 my mom re-married to a guy named tre. he was amazing. the best thing that had ever happened to us. when they married, we had money, a nice house, everything anyone could ever ask for. than he was stationed in […]

I watched the movie “The Bridge” and there was one family that knew their son was going to commit suicide and seemed to have such acceptance that his internal battles were very strong and he would finally be at peace that way.

So that got me thinking…would it be better to warn the 2, possibly 3, people in my life that know about my problems and do care deeply about me that I just can’t continue living for them anymore?  I feel like they would just try to stop me, but my psychologist actually educated me about the laws in our area and they can’t actually […]

Hi everyone . .
check this link please;
http://linnyxito.deviantart.com/art/Your-Suicide-334242270

P1: The one who living in this world

P2: The one who observing p1, criticizing & directing and setting targets for p1

Who is real?

This post is by P3 who analyzing both and looking for a chance to kill one of em

If P3 got success, how to punish him?

This post is not about how the military handles depression, or how a soldier does. This is not a cry for help. This is a brief story about me.

Im the son of a teen runaway and a murderer. Ive never met my father and likely never will. My mother did her best for me, but life has always been against us both. I first tried to take my own life when I was only 11. After that, attempts became a yearly thing. Life just carried on no matter how much I didnt want it to. Then, I met someone. She was loving, caring, beautiful, and […]

Thank you. Thank you for all you’ve done to help me. Little do you know how much you’ve impacted my life. I know I’m such a stubborn little brat. Even you knowing that you still don’t give up, you have faith in me. And honestly that’s all I could ever ask for in someone. You made me stop the negative things I’ve done. I very much appreciate that from you. I’m sorry for being a pain. But I don’t want you to leave me. You give me hope. Thank you for that. Please don’t give up, just know I will never. You’ll forever be my […]

Why do I feel so alone all the time?

I could be with a huge group of people but still feel so alone and unwanted. I try my best to be so successful, but the only thing I’m successful with is suicide thoughts. I will sit in class, and try and focus on what my teachers are saying but instead of whats really coming out of their moths I hear other peoples voices going on and on.

“Why do you exist?’

“No one wants you here. Leave”

“Kill yourself”

Now a days, I’m living in a generation where no one has a filter. It’s like no one understand how sharp […]