“You know, if we understand one question rightly, all questions are answered. But we don’t know how to ask the right question. To ask the right question demands a great deal of intelligence and sensitivity. Here is a question, a fundamental question: is life a torture? It is, as it is; and man has lived in this torture centuries upon centuries, from ancient history to the present day, in agony, in despair, in sorrow; and he doesn’t find a way out of it. Therefore he invents gods, churches, all the rituals, and all that nonsense, or he escapes in different ways. What we are trying […]

I am 12

I feel like I want to do sucide because of how kids say I’m annoying and that I’m a idiot,I have even inflected pain on my self making my hands bleed or cutting stuff,I luv this girl at school but I can’t just tell her that and her freainds hate my guts I have been near her since 3rd grade she blushes around me but what ever I do at school just makes me feel sadder,there’s no other way to stop this pain but death let’s see how those […]

I am 18 and just finished high school. I used to think that after high school my life would get better. But now all I want is the distraction it offered. Now I’m home alone all day and all I can do is listen to the voices in my head. I’ve tried distracting myself with arts and crafts and my writing – two things that used to bring me joy – but even that doesn’t help.

A few years ago I was in a very dark place; i cut myself, starved myself, choked myself and even overdosed. Thanks to my best friend I pulled through and […]

As a young girl, I once wrote a song.

It was a song that was written with a friend, so naturally, it was a duet. Our song had no words; it was just casually pounded out on the black and white keys of my 1910 Steinway with our short, clumsy fingers. We laughed and proclaimed parts of the song as pieces of the scenery.

“This is the leaves outside the house,” my friend mused, playing a quick, repetitive melody.

“Then this is the sound of the wind, moving the leaves!” I countered, excited that I had won that insignificant bout that transpired between no one but myself.

And so […]

I would like to just first say I don’t know about why I’m on here I just keep comeing to these thoughts I feel so blank in my soul I know I have had some good fourtune but mainly I’m just lost in life I can’t seem to make things right I love my daughter so much I don’t want to hurt her my wife. And my brother Hell evan my dog i just don’t think I can handle the weight I feel my whole life I feel like a fake. Trying to be someone I think people want me to be […]

There are no easy answers to why we’re alive. Some people tell you to look at how bad others have it in other parts of the world, where there is REAL suffereing, but that doesn’t seem to work, does it. That’s because all suffering is REAL. Long ago, we became aware of both good and evil and we being in the image of God, aspire to good, but seem to fail all the time. We seem to have this internal measuring stick that makes us feel bad when someone hurts us or someone else. Yet at the same time we reject God because there are […]

I’ve been off and on this place for the past few years. And here tonight, in this painful place ive found myself, ive wandered back here to seek something I cant seem to find anywhere.

I’m alone. Its a terrible feeling. All i want is some companionship. Some sort of human contact. ANYONE to care about me. To want to know how I am, what I’m thinking, what I’m feeling.

I have no hope i’ll ever find that, and in a way ive accepted that. But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t tear me apart every moment of the day.

Life is so fragile. But it’s painful when someone you love gives it up. That what my dad did when I was only 3. And I hate him for it. I’m not trying to sound bratty but he abandoned me, he never loved me. People always think that I can just tough it out, well they don’t know how painful it is either. I just found out this knews when I was 14. And I just don’t know what to do anymore. Why did it have to be my dad?. Why didn’t he love? Why? I don’t know what to do with myself. No one knows […]

To whomever cares to read,

I arrived here in America 2 years ago. I’m so glad that my mother allowed for my being able to get here. Life is confusing. It gives you a lot of possibilities but at the same time gives you a lot of bullshit. I’ve dedicated my time studying people and how they behave. There’s something in my brain urging me to go find a high building and fall with my back facing the ground so as to not get anxious and regret my dying. I can imagine the bloody splat and how my the back of my head would probably be […]

I’ve been on this journey of trying to heal myself from prolonged sexual, medical, and mental abuse and torture for about 16 years. 16 years ago, I had not remembered what happened to me at all, and I went up to Michigan because I knew something was brewing in my mind, but could not remember what. While I was there , I talked with a woman and explained that something was wrong with me but I just did not know what… I just was so fucked up and depressed. She was a survivor of abuse and told me when she looked at me and listened […]

If I overdose on sleeping pills will it hurt?

i understand cutting yourself in itself is painful as i do cut, but would the loss of blood itself hurt?

do you think ill regret killing myself last minute when its too late if i fail my attempt what should i expect?

thanks, please no joking around. Im 16 and i want to die, i just want to know what to expect..

I would like to know what you think about. Is it deed of numb despair or is  the beginning of a new adventurous journey?

When I feel like shit I listen to my special playlists about getting better. Please listen to them thet realy help.

*Giving up the gun
*Tomorrow will be kinder
*Concrete Angel
*Elenor Rigby
*Invisble
*How to save a life
*Warrior
*It’s Amazing
*Bluebird
*The day nobody dies
*Same love
*Battle Scars
*Brave

Hello everyone.

Well, today I felt quite well. Saw some people, talked to them and had fun. Hadn’t really the time to think about all those things that makes me depressed, and managed to keep Loneliness away. Good for me, heh ?

I’m just getting worried. As I said in my first post, I’m afraid of speaking face to face, with open heart, with friends, telling them I’m feeling depressed, down, that I cut myself even more regularly than before and that I often think about suicide. It happens that, tomorrow, I’ll have a drink with a friend of mine, her boyfriend doesn’t want to go out […]

I’m sick and tired of the people in my life. I hate the fact that I have a stutter (speech impediment) that hinders my ability to have an actual conversation with anyone. I hate the fact that my own damn parents treat me like an outcast because I lack self-esteem, confidence or any redeeming qualities that they could be proud of that my younger sister possess. I hate the fact that I can spend most of my time in my room feeling deeply depressed while everyone pretends my problems don’t matter.

I have tried on several occassions to talk with my parents about my problem and […]

i just love when i (metaphorically) get spit in the face by people that dont know me for doing nothing wrong

all i feel is anger i want to take the sharpest thing i can find and stab myself to death to escape

I am 26 years old.  I’m laying here tonight with my hand full of pills. Enough of everything I need to kill a baby rhino.

I guess considering I am here means I am looking for help. Which I know is a good thing.   I have spent a large amount of my life studying this.

I was molested for 5 years by my dad.  My mother is disabled. My partner and I fight every night.  It even gets violent.  I have multiple illnesses. My 7yr old baby girl died a month ago and I lost my job 3 days after. I couldn’t afford a kidney transplant and […]

So here’s what I’m thinking, I want want to take a couple of charcoal chimneys and burn them at the same time in my car. Will this kill me and if so how long if not what do I need to change? Any credible info would be great thanks.

Twinkle, Twinkle metal blade,

I come to you when I need aid.

You get me so high off the ground that

I’m not sure I’m coming down

Twinkle, Twinkle metal blade,

I come to you when I need aid.

Is there any way I can come to this planet with full knowledge about it?

IMO, born as kid, schooling, college, marks is useless. It is all about learning something which is already existed.

Instead of wasting 20 years on that we can put small chip in brain which has all the knowledge about the world.

So that we can only concentrate on how to use that knowledge.

Question is how we can enable a human to born as grownup?

Not something like cloning, but shaping your 20 year old son in computer.