I could of been the greatest, I could of been the best, I shouldn’t have gave up on my dream when it was all I had. Its crazy how one day you could be perfectly fine but the next morning changes your life. I wish I could go back but going back ain’t a option in life. I will never forgive myself for quitting but I could teach others to not give up on their dreams and be the best they could be.
I am thankful for my misery when it is consistent, because I already do not feel I deserve what I have, and can only see my life getting worse.
I have two _selfish_ prayers that I wish to see fulfilled. That she, and all those who love me, forget about me, and that God send me to Hell, where I can hurt no one, ever again.
I killed her, you see. She was a young, vibrant woman working her way through school. My selfishness and my depression worked to slowly tear her down.
She stopped playing sports, to be with me, because I whined. She stopped hanging out with friends, because I wanted her to myself. She dropped out of school, because I got lonely when she left. […]
Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder
Manic Phase
•Little sleep, plenty of energy
•Exaggerated optimism, excessive self-confidence, euphoric mood
•Engaging in wreckless, inappropriate behavior
•Promiscuity, sexual aggression
•Distractible, unable to concentrate, too many ideas
•Abuse of alcohol or drugs
•Increased irritability
•Manic phase lasts at least one week
Depressive Phase
•Deep despair, suicidal thoughts or actions
•Anger or fear due to uncontrollable mood swings
•Feelings of guilt, low self-esteem
•Difficulty falling asleep, restless sleeping, over-sleeping
•Diminished sex drive
•Loss of interest in formerly-enjoyed activities
•Eating disorders, unexpected weight gain or loss
•Physical pains not associated with a known illness
I think I’m bipolar…
So, i have a question.. How do you stop yourself from throwing up if you are od’ing on pills? if you pass out can you still stop yourself or is it unavoidable? Please answer soontime. Thanks!
The right to end one’s life in a calm, peaceful, and rational manner should be a basic human right. Society and the government seem to believe that they own us, so they make it hard if not impossible to find information and tools about self-euthanasia, and they criminalize people who try to assist it.
You will even see people posting on this site, trying to tell you about their value systems and why you should not end your life. That’s just plain rude.
Obviously before you would choose to end your life, you’d want to contemplate why you’re doing it, what could go wrong, who it will […]
I hate myself so much. I forced myself to go to a friend’s meal this evening but it was horrible. I spent most of the time sat there trying not to cry, feeling stupid because I had no reason to. I have a very small group of close friends that I can actually hold a conversation with and I was sat next to one but she’s a very popular girl so she ignored me most of the night and talked to everyone else.
I hate that I can’t just talk to people when everyone else does it so easily. I hate that I have no […]
well my days keep getting longer and longer. i go to school in the morning and its a fight to get through the day just school alone. my girlfriend thinks im cheating on her and wont even talk to her, all because of something that one of her friends “saw me doing with another girl” which is completely false, i was with a buddy of mine the whole time that i was with the other chick, and i even told them asl the guy and he will tell you the same fucking thing. nope, they dont care. im on the verge of losing practically the […]
Let’s be honest about it.  The story line on this site is pretty much dominated by the sentiment that hurting one’s self is desirable or at least inescapable. Neither of these things is true, but there is value in admitting the obvious. There is also advantage in admitting that no one, however vehement their claimed desire for death, is completely enthusiastic about the prospect.
There is a way out of this self-defeating cycle of fear, hatred and guilt. It is forgiveness.
Everyone has felt that they have suffered at some point or other. How do some manage to continue on without being paralyzed, while others never recover […]
I again am so alone…I am sitting here with no one to talk to…if there is anyone who would want to talk, please just email me…it will get my mind off hurting myself. princess_emmy19@yahoo.com
Can someone tell me an easy way to kill myself in a single attempt? Please I’m desperate.
It is clear that neither of us want to hurt ourselves, still, one way or the other, that’s pretty much inevitable when you live in a world of randomness and constant change. I want to die, but I don’t want to hurt myself, that’s the dilemma. Well, actually it isn’t. Whatever I choose, life or death, I’m going to end up hurting myself. Once you realize that, you can face suicide like the last sickness you are gonna get. The only difference this time, is that you intentionally go after it. But really, there’s no much difference on waiting for it while you keep living, […]
I look at myself in the mirror,
My eyes showing one thousand shattered reflections.
I weigh 115,
My hips are starting to show.
My doctors say I’m healthy,
But I’m not.
I want to, no, I need to reach 100.
My body needs to be a corset of skin and bone too big for me.
It needs to protrude at the hips and collars in order for me to be beautiful.
I’m waiting for the gap between my thighs that will make me perfect.
People try to tell me I’m sick,
But I’m not.
I am strong.
Filled with control as I release my hunger and pain through the blood
Pouring from my wrists.
The smiles I wear in photographs […]
Pale scars dance across her skin
A pale reminder of what had been
A drop of silver
A drop of red
A thousand words running through her head
Nobody sees her tears
In a world of nothing but fear
The most basic expectations of the world and responsibilities of adulthood paralyze me with fear and cause me to realize what a thoroughly pathetic individual I am.
On this site is there a way to view your past comments on someone’s post? Like I will comment and want to go back to see if they responded so I just have to scroll through all of the posts until I find the one I commented on, is there an easier way to do this?
Hello to all…myself ajay rathod….i am 24 year old….my parents wanted me to rank higher during school days sothat i was not allowed to play games….so i kept on it and just focussed on study…i got arranged marriage….i planned with my wife till two year just we will live life happily than will plan a baby…unfortunately i made unsafe conception with her…she became pregnant…i told her to take medicine bt she refused…i lost all my hopes to live happy life…i feel very very suicidal….
We are all composed of skin and bones,
so what makes one ugly, and the other not?
we judge
and judge
and judge
and insert so much hate, so much pain into  the minds,
the minds of little girls and boys pinching at their skin in the mirror
the minds of adults covering their skin, their stretch marks, their age..
so tell me, what makes your skin and bones more beautiful than mine?
I started crying and I can’t stop. I feel empty and it hurts everything hurts. I just needed to say that because I can’t tell anyone right now and I just can’t stop. I don’t know hoe to stop and I’m getting hysterical and I need help but I’m empty and oh god.
Sometimes I’m overflowing with emotions that i dont even understand what exactly I’m feeling. But there are times ,like today , that I go so numb that no matter what happens ,I won’t feel a thing. It’s so weird like even if someone really close would die now I won’t shed a single tear. I iM so lost .