My life has been on a spiral ever since I got adopted 2 years back into my real mom’s family… I have not seen my real mom since I was 12 years old… I am 14 almost 15 very soon, my step family has been very hard on me, they make me feel so unwanted and they make me just feel like I mean nothing to anyone.. Then school has not been any easier either, I have so many friends that care and love me for who I am and I am very known in my school but dealing with the people that hate me […]

I find myself coming onto SP more often
It used to be once every few weeks yet I’m finding that I’m on every day now
Truth is (as twisted as it sounds) I actually enjoy reading about other peoples misery.
I guess I’m looking for a reason not to kill myself by reading other peoples stories to convince myself that my life really isn’t so bad.
I don’t ever think that I’ve been through any more than anyone else has as everyone has their own personal hell.
I truely believe my time is up because everything I’ve gained has been taken away, obviously for good […]

i am 32 and intelligent and have accomplished allot ,i am very happy i exercise regularly and take natural vitamins and minerals and iodine, i fix and install ac/furnaces and make pretty good money, i got a great family which i love, im decent looking and got a descent size wang , i haven’t felt better in my whole life. i am mentally physically emotionally and spiritually improving always and right now i am at my A game, i should want to live right? i think if you want to die because sadness or personal events or something petty ,i think that’s crap, time mostly heals […]

is there anything left to do? am i

to go to school–to get a job–to work

for what? to make money? to enlighten my

ever-depleting light of life? you tell me to wait

and to hold on–that the answers will come

soon, that all will be made sense. what the hell

kind of answer is that?! am i to take the smiles

in strides? to watch my peers pass merrily by

the bygones ive already readied. to read when im

dead–when the beatless heart steadies. it’ll happen

some day i don’t know when. when in my grave

when im dead, words spoken by a “friend”.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWTVCkvQzY8

Stupid.

I wish I knew how people who killed themselves got their courage. I stumbled onto this site looking for methods. I guess what I am trying to say is I am here to be talked into suicide. Not out of it. The decision to di it was a long time coming, but it was an easy one. Actually doing it is proving SO HARD! Help. I just dont want to see tomorrow. I think/say/scream this every moment of every day. But tomorrow always comes without fail. Please help me kill tomorrow.

I apologise for the length of this but I wanted to truly explain what the causes of my depression are. I’m fourteen, far to young for this I know and I have suffered from major depression for seven years now, I’ve attempted suicide multiple times, I’ve tried everything from hanging to burning to stabbing myself and everything’s failed miserably due to bad luck or my own lack of a decent pain threshold, all of my issues stem from when I was seven years old. When I was seven a lot of stuff happened, I had 4 near death experiences at the beach alone and ended […]

I’ve never talked about my feelings about suicide to anyone, but, I think I should start now because I don’t know where to turn. I’ve gone through a shit of things in the past few months with the passing of most of my grandparents and other relatives. All within days apart, then there’s my parents going through their nasty divorce and all this other shit.. I just need some sort of guidance.. I’m 17 and had a big plan for my future but right now, that plan will never come true. I’m fucking up in school and I don’t know if its because i’m lazy […]

I’m so tired of thinking.Everything has been magnified this week.

My bipolar disorder has put me into a pit of non-stop, agonizing depression.

My OCD has been getting worse. Just when I thought I had conquered my obsession with cleaning, it’s back and as strong as ever.

In the past week I’ve slept for about 7 hours. My insomnia is keeping me up. I’m too scared that if I fall asleep I’ll have nightmares.

To make it all worse, my brain won’t shut off. It won’t stop. I constantly have to pull myself away from the things my brain is making up. I feel so detached from reality.

I semi-jokingly posted about wanting a suicide party amd on another thread stating that I want theme song to Disney’s Jessie to be my last song. The mental video of me laughing and dancing right before the curtain falls on my third act sounds massively appealing. So! My question to the intelligent collective on here is: is a cheerful suicide possible? Can a smiling person pull the trigger? Can I laugh as I climb the chair to board my final flight courtesy of Slipknot Airlines? Can I jovially mix the chemicals that will turn everything black?

if u cry a day long and laugh a minute: u laugh in a way it worth of one day cry

if u cry a min and laugh a day: u laugh in a way it worth of one min cry

begger:if a guy donated him a grand
obama: if he received noble prize
sp-adicts(fool or genius): if he promoted to ceo/girl proposed him/win 2milon deal..

happiness in above all cases is same. those are happy moments not successful moments

success must be standardized as reaching that top 10% of ppl which ever career path you choose (please eliminate job doers: slaves don’t worth a human life)

how many of […]

With everything that’s happened in my life, and everything that’s currently going on at this point, life just seems so hard. I know that thinking like this is being the typical teenager (“my world is OVER!!!”) but that’s just how it feels when I’m sitting here thinking about things that are bothering me and making me frustrated. Normally, I’d try to push all these feelings aside and just disregard them and pretend they don’t matter, but since going to therapy, it’s caused me to think about things more and try to figure out why i am feeling certain ways and what not. And honestly, that’s […]

about 3 weeks ago i slit my left wrist open i just wanted to die… i keep having thoughts about killing myself.. i have good days and bad days.

i told my mom i needed help because im not feeling well, she told me thats the cowards way out…

Would it be easier to go with someone or alone, do you think?

They have many mental issues they would like to be better educated on, bipolar, alzheimers, pcyzo, etc. I’m sure the method of exit decided upon can make a big difference as they have a limited amount of time to retrieve the body. Is this something anyone else would consider. They actually will creamate you and return remaining ashes to family at no cost to them.

Is an overdose on drugs considered suicide? And which is better for people to think you oded or killed yourself?

Anybody from Maine?

I tried to kill myself and I still want it. I’m broken, torn, unfaithful,and no one else can see it.
Idk what to do anymore. I can’t cry anymore, I can’t do it, as much I want it, as much I try, I can’t. It’s hurt and break me slowly. I’m so desperate. I just need help, just someone to hear me, to help me and understand me.

I got a second job. Overnight. 11-7.
I already have one job. It’s spread out across the daytime during the week.
I am going to college three days of the week.
I have to do this to fix my car. I have to do this because no one else will take initiative in this house. I am the only one making an attempt to save our asses and keep us financially safe. That’s not how relationships work though. They shouldn’t have to work like that. I also asked that since I’ll be working two jobs and going to school, that you catch up on the […]

David Foster Wallace, Virginia Wolfe, Kurt Cobain, Hemingway..I have been looking at all their art. Trying to tap into their pain and their eventual courage. I encourage people to do the same. Try to look at the creations of those that have gone before us. So do any of you have a “favorite” famous suicider? A famous note that you liked? A persons last tweet that is exactly how you feel? A poem? A song? Share it here. They are either our trail blazing role models or our cautionary tales.